Prologue

My dearest Tom -

I have too long watched you rip this fragile home apart, my life is in ruins. I have tried for our child's sake to preserve my sanity so that she would not be completely deprived of the childhood she deserves. But I cannot keep up this continuous self harm; my love for you is the death of me as so many said it would be. I cannot deny that fact any longer; I have been running from the truth and I cannot stop death claiming me. I am so sorry my love. I have failed you and our daughter and for that I hate myself. I am so sorry. My heart has been cut up into pieces and you own them all. I was so selfish to think that I could be with you forever. Tom, if there is anything left in your heart at all take pity on our daughter. Show her love as I can no longer. Do not subject her to the way I feel now. Every time I look into your eyes I hope to see some sign of emotion but they are devoid of anything, what have you done to yourself? I kept hoping for the old you to return. I can't take it any longer. I love you so much. I shall wait for you in the great beyond hoping for your presence once more. Goodbye dear heart.

Yours for all eternity -

Lydia