Chapter One-Thoughts

Aislinn was sitting alone in the study at court. Her thoughts were focused on only one thing, who will she choose? If you had asked her a seven months ago her choice would have been clear and definite, Seth. Now though, everything was different, Seth left for six months and she was heartbroken, but Keenan was there for her and he was her King.

King. It still sounds strange to her that the creatures she spent nearly all her life hating, avoiding and fearing she was now Queen off. Aislinn, Queen of the Summer court and Keenan her King. 'It sounds right but does it feel that way?'I mumble to myself.

"Only you can know that you're my queen". I turn round and see Carly, one of my assistant faeries and closest friend at Summer court, standing staring at me with a concerned face. "But that's the problem I don't know how I feel," but even after saying it I knew it wasn't the truth, and by the look on her face Carly did as well. It wasn't a lie obviously, faeries can't lie but I can't keep my head straight long enough to figure out what it is that I want.

I take a deep breath and sighed, "Maybe your right Carly but I don't know if i'm strong enough to make the choice once and for all". Normally I wouldn't admit any form of weakness with any of my court but I always felt that I could say anything to Carly and not be judged. I looked up to see her reaction and saw a kind smile on her face. "Just listen to what your heart is telling you. Up to know you've been going over facts and responsibilities and haven't listened to your heart or how you truly feel. If you do I have every confidence that the answer will be clear to you". I took a deep breath and just sat there and replayed every moment in my mind. All the time I spent with Seth before, we were friends for so long and I always had the idea of the two of us together. Then there was Keenin, oh Keenin he loves me that much is so clear and ever since the change and even before I was ready to, he was there". Seth. God! He left me for six months. I love him. I can't deny those feelings but it doesn't feel as natural as being with Keenin, it did once but it doesn't now. Maybe thats just because I haven't forgiven him for leaving, but the question is: will it ever feel like that again? Do I just want to be with Keenin because of obligation or is there more to it?

I sat there for God knows how long and just thought. I went over every feeling I've had and everything I was feeling then.

And it was clear, just like Carly said when I shut everything else up and just listened to my heart I knew. I had my answer and all I needed now was Seth and Keenin in room together long enough for me to tell them. I turned to Carly to tell her but just as I was about too someone came through the door to tell me something that would throw me completely.