How can anyone be so stupid as to throw away the only thing on this earth that makes sense? The only thing that keeps the world whole? The only thing that keeps my world sane?

She had him at her fingertips, putty between her precious nails. And she used her palms to push him away, that beautiful smile of his turning to a look of hurt and pain – confusion evident at his brow.

Stupid stupid stupid girl. Leading him to her, alluring him, tempting him with offers she could not upkeep. Bitch. How can she not see that he means the world to someone?! How can she be so blind and STUPID to throw him down with no explanation and to just turn away from the best thing that could have ever been in her life? Why did she have to hurt him like that? Why did she have to hurt me too?

She broke me twice.

Once by going out with him. Twice by ditching him. Hurting him. Killing him inside. It breaks me to see him like that. Depressed. Down.

Why did he have to trust her like that?! Why couldn't he see that there was someone here waiting for him to just open his eyes and see how much I shine for him?! He keeps me going. I last weeks off just one of his radiant, beaming smiles. I have enough stored up now to keep my heart beating for a lifetime, but the smiles, beautiful as they are cannot stand up to the real thing. The beautiful, handsome, loving, ridiculously stupid real thing. He couldn't see that I breathe so that I can see him again, he couldn't see the hole he ripped through my chest by entertaining that cow's fantasies.

He can't feel the change in speed of my blood as it chases around my body when I see him. My heart jumping to try and get out of my chest, to race across to him, dragging my body with it to finally be able to satisfy myself with the love that my heart craves.