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~Like a bittersweet lullaby~ SabastionXCiel
-kiss me kill me-
One, two, three
A tragedy that's built on destiny
It left you with everything but
Blood from the knife that I cut your heart out with
Now relax, close your eyes, what comes next is the surprise...
-P.O.V. Sebastian-
It was hard to live with someone who you'd grown to care for over time
just to have them ripped away from you like a porcelain doll...
Fragile and can easily be broken or taken by a force... As for him
being the doll stolen away by death itself... Death being able to
hold him and keep him forever in its tender embrace... Is it wrong
to be filled with jealousy and selfishness... that I wish to be the
one to steal him away from his fate instead of being the one to drive
him into the darkness, into the arms of death?... If it was I don't
want to be right...
It was hard for me to know that I would be the one to do it... But
that's what I knew would happen from the very beginning although...
not to this extent...
... This valentine is doomed
the smell of blood has filled this room
If I could do it all again
I would change most every single thing...
"Sebastian are you OK?" Ciel asked me.
"... Yes..."... No... That was a lie the truth is no matter how much I
try to bring myself to tell you I can't seem to utter the
words...would I lose you if I did?...but then again I would still
lose you in the end by my own hands.
And by the question I dare not say and that is... Would you no longer
acknowledged me for the remaining time we had together if I did indeed
tell you? That alone would be worse than you not knowing at all or
anything in this world for that matter... If only you knew... And if
only I knew that you would maybe understand.
... I would let you...
Memories came flashing to my mind of the times I felt The urge to be
with you, memories about the dress you wore to draw out that serial
killer at the ball, putting that lovely corset on you... Only to
steal you away into the night for more than one reason... Because I
couldn't bare to watch you with that blonde perverted runt any
longer... And when debris and a broken pillar came crashing down from a
near by building had come very close to crushing you, I immediately,
without hesitation took the brunt force of the falling pillar with no
complaints... You thought it was just because of the contract... At
least that was what I thought you might've been thinking and partly,
it was.
At that moment that I saved you I gazed down into your beautiful royal
blue eyes as you gazed into mine... Something took over as I held you
with my arm. You and I leaned closer to each other as though in a
trance... However it was soon interrupted by sparks of fired light from
an explosion... That moment made me question if you knew it wasn't
just because of the contract.
... Kiss me
Kill me
your kiss is torture
but killing me would be too easy...
I'd have to say, my favorite memory of you was the time I tightened a
corset on your pale perfect glistening body... Your face blushing,
moaning and sweating intensely... Oh how I wished to have been the
cause for that instead of that damn lucky corset hugging your naked
abdomen... As I got caught up in my musings it was then your sweet
voice snapped me back to reality...
-Ciel's P.O.V.-
It won't be long now till my death the thing I've wished for ever
since I was a kid witnessing my beloved parents demise... I just wish
I could be with Sebastian... Why?... Why is it that I feel this way
for him?...
... Our tragedy
Seems to be killing everything it sees
Like death itself...
...After starring at his forlorn expression I felt heartbroken to see
him in his thoughts which seemed to bother him... He knows that
tomorrow will be the day I fade into the dark... I won't let this
last day be all for nothing!...
-No one's P.O.V.-
"Sebastian..." Ciel says monotonously "Come with me..." Ciel
commands, composing himself as he retreats to a guest room.
"Yes Master..." Sebastian replies snapping back to reality as he
follows Ciel... In this room Is a fireplace, beautiful tapestry and
walls as well as polished floors however beautifully plain in its
simplicity it was elegant in its design and more to it than meets the
eye much like Ceil himself... That thought was just undeniable for
Sebastian.
... This valentine still looms
in the darkest hour, of the killing booth
If I could do it all again...
"Sit." Ciel commanded Sebastian referring to a nearby chair before he
strode over toward the window to open it and let fresh air in, his
hands wandering over toward a particular flower from the vase beside
the window. Ciel walked back over to Sebastian, a red tulip in hand...
Ciel took a seat across from him twirling the tulip slowly "Wha-?"
Sebastian started before he was cut off.
"They say life is such a beautiful process, one to be admired in some
eyes... But really it's till they realize the ugly truth that at the
same time it's two faced as all things live only to die and rot
away..."
... I would let you...
Ciel began as a petal fell from the tulip in his grasp "... In this
world there are no second chances... What you do in this life and
what you don't in your last hour decides if this life was well worth
it... Especially looking upon the memories we create... I choose to
take the risk of asking... Because If I don't I'll never know and I
may never get the chance..." Ciel said solemnly starring Down at the
flower...
"Master Ciel..." Sebastian was once again cut off.
"Sebastian... I-I love you..." Ciel exclaims softly in a barely
audible whisper his teeth gritted, his head downcast and his hand
clutching harder at the red tulips stem, a thorn digging into his
finger as he did so but he didn't care, he rather have the physical
pain rather than the emotional after all it was what he was used to
and in some sick way it comforted him. Ciel waited and hearing
nothing for a response in a long pause of doubt, a tear slipped from
his closed and hair covered eyes in shame upon what he admitted. "I-
I'm sorry... For such an insolent outburst. I shouldn't-"
... Kiss me
Kill me
your kiss is torture
but killing me would be too easy...
Ciel suddenly felt a presence kneeling in front of him before his chin
was abruptly pushed up to meet the eyes of blood passion filled ones
as Sebastian flashed a sexy grin. Soft lips full of lust came crashing
down upon Ciel's lovingly "Oomph!" Ciel muffled out in surprise, his
eyes widening in disbelief before relaxing into the kiss, shutting his
own eyes to join Sebastian as he began to kiss immediately back, a
brief pause occurred long enough for Sebastian to swiftly lick the
wound on his finger, and kiss it tenderly before returning to kiss
Ciel. After a few minutes had passed though Sebastian stopped kissing
him this time in favor of starring into his eyes.
"... I love you too." Sebastian said softly, picking him up and over
to the bed bridal style. "I only needed my Master's prompting for me
to be able to admit that freely"
Ciel's eyes widened at that statement as Sebastian placed him gently
on the king sized bed and hovered on top of him... He then placed
butterfly kisses upon his neck teasingly "Ah-AHH! Don't tease your
Master like this Sebastian!" He yelled in pure ecstasy with an
intense blush spreading quickly across his face. Sebastian chuckled, a
smile spread across his face and his red eyes focused on Ciel with
amusement, happiness, and sadness... A hidden pain of losing him
masked in happiness of his affections returned as he continued his
teasing...
... Kiss me
Kill me
your kiss is torture
but killing me would be too easy...
"Ah! S-stop!" Ciel yelped in embarrassed and slight frustration.
"Yes Master." Sebastian said stopping completely just to tease him
further but that motion only seemed to fuel the fire as Ciel flipped
him over so that he was on top before he roughly kissed him with a
searing passion as the night continued on, a smile graced both of
their lips...
... Forgetting the darkness that would soon separate them in the wake
of Ciel's death till he too dies as they lay in complete bliss that
they wished lasted forever...
... Killing me would be too easy...
Memories... Our life... Our love... Our death...these things I'd
utter with my last breath... My tears my anguish my fears... All of
this seems like bittersweet memories... As they slowly became
reality, the truth was you were gone now... The one other thing you
wanted, the birthday wish you've always wanted to come true... But
even though you're gone... Nothing will stop me from loving you...
{Extended ending}
-No one's P.O.V.-
Sebastian holds a fresh tulip in his hand giving it a kiss and setting
it on Ciel's grave as he knelt down, his umbrella beside him in
preparation for the rain. The first teardrop on the tulip was the
first of many to come however the first wasn't from the sky...
...Your eyes unwind the tragedy of our lives
my eyes went blind
believe me when I say...
... The sky began crying, lightly drenching the obsidian haired
mans face shortly after himself blending in with his own tears,
blinding him further as he slowly got up and walked away gently
putting up his umbrella in the process as he faded into the gloomy
grey fog and the darkness of the unforgiving, yet familiar night that
had consumed him for far too long before, for his only light was now
gone... A fleeting dream as he says goodbye... like a bittersweet
lullaby...
"Till we meet again in the next life... My beautiful flower...
... My Shirin..."
Hell burns bright
When this night dies
Hell burns bright
Kiss me
Kill me
Your kiss is torture
But killing me would be too easy
Kiss me (You're all I'm wanting)
Kill me (This feeling's haunting)
Your kiss is torture
But killing me would be too easy
Kiss me (You're all I'm wanting)
Kill me (This feeling's haunting)
Your kiss is torture
But killing me would be too easy
Killing me would be too easy
Too easy, too easy, too easy, too easy...
/Flashback/ "...Do you know the red tulip's symbolism Sebastian...?"
Ciel murmurs to the now seemingly asleep Sebastian as they both lay
under the covers, Ciel's head on Sebastian's chest as Ciel stroked
Sebastian's hair and continued "...The story goes that a prince named
Farhad was love struck by a maiden named Shirin. When Farhad learned
that Shirin had been killed, he was so overcome with grief that he
killed himself - riding his horse over the edge of a cliff. It's said
that a scarlet tulip sprang up from each droplet of his blood, giving
the red tulip the meaning "perfect love..."" he said to the sleeping
Sebastian whose dreams were of just that... 'Too bad in this life
they were fated to live without the other... However their souls will
always be intertwined for their love is greater than the fate of
life...'
End
