Disclaimer: I don't own anything. I am broke...
This is a dedication to ShinosKunoichi! (I hoped I spelled that right!) She is so very awesome and I love her.(JK! Not like that…)
I always review her work and she reviews mine. I really appreciate everything she does for me.
Thanks again, Sk!
S.A.M (ShinoAndMe)
O.o~o.O~O.o~
Truly Special:
You two look so cute. Passing glances and smiles when you think no one is looking.
But I'm looking. I'm always looking at you, Shino.
You never notice, but that's ok. Because if you did notice, the pain of your rejection would be worse then the pain of loniness. It is ok that you don't notice me.
But, please, I have to know. What is so special about her? I am not that special. But, what makes her special?
Is it the way her hair glides when she turns to face you?
How her eyes light up when she hears your voice?
How she holds you in your time of need?
I could give you all these things. If I was only given the chance. But, alas, I am not special. I always thought that I had a chance. Maybe, just, maybe. I would think. Maybe, I could get the silent Shino to look at me. He wouldn't judge me. Would he? No, not Shino.
I know now that I had no chance. I should have known you were looking at her, not me. But I kept wishing all the same. Those times, long ago, I silently wished. You never came. I was heartbroken, but never showed it. Going to school with a smile on my face was the hardest thing I had to ever do, believe me. But I did.
I did for you.
Everyday as I see the two of you walking, side by side, holding hands, whispering sweet things in the others ear, something stabs me. Deep within me, the pain comes.
I cannot control my feelings for you. They are out of control, like a fire.
If you tend to the embers, it is nice and warm. Beautiful.
But if you leave it alone, it gets out of hand. And in the end, someone gets hurt.
Right now, the hurt one is me.
Your little Katira, as you call her, has everything. I see now what she has that I don't. Things I could never have. Such as beauty, grace, and you.
She better take care of you. Give you all I never was able to.
Care for your every whim. No matter what.
So I look. Yes, I watch you two. It is funny how much meaning the old expression Always want what you can't have really does have in the real world.
I watch in the shadows, and have concluded that she really does love you. I see how she cries when you leave on a dangerous mission. Never smiling until you wrap your arms around her small frame, once again.
How I wish you would hold me like that. And I would do the same for you, if you wanted.
But you don't want me. I'm only Yuuki.
I could never be Your Yuuki. Never.
On those missions when you're away, I comfort Katira-san. I tell her not to worry, and that you're probably thinking of her and that is what keeps you going. It hurts me when I tell her that. It hurts because it's true.
Then when you come home, she cries in your chest, telling you how much she missed you. You say the same to her, and I am forgotten.
I love you. That is all I have left to say.
We can't both have you, and you don't want both of us. Only one.
I repeat this to myself all day long. Only one. Only one.
Only one can have him. Only one that he wants.
You love her, for now. She loves you, for now.
But I will always love you. I don't care if you love another. Because I love you.
She is very special.
She is the only one lucky enough to have you.
O.o~o.O~O.o~
A big thanks to all my fans! Shino's girlfriend is supposed to be ShinosKuniochi and I am supposed to be Yuuki.
Bye!
ShinoAndMe
