Summary: AU Chichi blames Gohan after the Cell Games and kicked him out of the house what will he do?what Piccolo will do? How will Gohan grow?.
Rated M for language, etc. There may be some SLASH I don't know.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, nor the characters, nor the song. Except the plot.
A/N: My first fic. I was a bit dissapointed because in the serie Gohan and Piccolo grew apart and Gohan became a nerd, so I made this.
Gohan was standing alone in the middle of the forest, staring at the ground, his clenched fists drawing blood, he stayed like this for two hours, his eyes were clouded with unshed tears of sorrow, despair, anger, guilt and so many emotions he cannot decribe he had nowhere to go, it was raining so hard but he didn't mind, in fact the rain seemed calm him down, washing away his problems, the only problem was th cold, it made him feel even more numb than he already felt. He could tell it was night. His mind recalling the earlier events. He still couldn't believe what happened.
Keep knocking.
No one's there,
Pouring down.
Nothing is found
FlashBack
Chichi started to act strange since they told of Goku's death, the new was devastating for everyone but especially for Goku's family.
Chihi no longer smiled, talked to her friends, and took all her fury attacks to Gohan. She kept Gohan locked in his room, all the things he did caused her irrational anger, she berated him for not study hard enough, she told him he was a rebel, every day reminding him the death of Goku, telling it was his fault and spoking about what would have happened if he had't died, always talking about how Gohan had ruined her life.
I'm out here by myself
All alone
ready to blow my head off
It hurts so bad inside
I wish you could see the world trough my eyes
Each day it's the same
I just wanna laugh again
Gohan alrady felt guilty about his father death, he was deppresed, more than anyone, he had lost his father, if he had killed Cell when he had the chance Goku would be here with him.
Every night he had nightmares with the terrible fight, and every night he saw Goku's death, listened his last words, in his head.
The first days he had locked himself in his room. He felt so empty. but the thought of his mother needing him had impulsed him to move on. He had to be strong, for his family, for his mother. So he tried to be there for his mother, he did all the things to help, the chores Goku did in the house He stopped trainig like his mother asked him, sudied twice the time he spent normally, hell, he did everything she told him, but it wasn't enough.
Keep hoping.
Nothing to spare.
So my life.
Isn't quite there.
Feel like a whore.
A dirty whore.
Such a whore.
Dirty.
A month after Goku's death she knew she was pregnant. It was a big surprise for them, Chichi started to get more animated, she was happy for the upcoming baby, it was the last gift from Goku, but she stopped talking to gohan or even looking at him, she acted like he didn't exist or like he was a anonying weight on her shoulders.
When Goku annunciated the Z fighters he didn't want to come back to the living, she exploded, she took the blame again in Gohan, she told him it was his fault, that he didn't forgave him. She couldn't stand it anymore, and finally kicked him out. She said she didn't want her baby to get influenced by that rebel good-for-nothing, murderer that was Gohan.
He felt so sad, desperate and angry
Angry with his father for leaving him to go training and with his mother for putting so much blame in his shoulders, frustrated because his eforts to be there for his mother were useless, sad because his father wasn't comming home, and his mother jus wanted to get rid of him.
End of Flashback
I'm out here by myself
All alone
ready to blow my head off
It hurts so bad inside
I wish you could see the world trough my eyes
Each day it's the same
I just wanna laugh again
Now here was , His dragon friend Icarus had disappeared six months ago, unsure what to do, and struggling to keep himself for crying.
'Crying ' He thought with self loathing.
Mister Piccolo would be disappointed at him if he looked him now. 'Crying is a sign of weaknes' a tight knot forming in his throat.
A tear escaped his eye and he cursed himself, and felt the urge to scream at the top of his lungs the wheight he was carrying, but it was impossible for the knot in his thorat wouldn't let him, so he bit his lip so hard, now blood was dripping from his chin.
I Just wanna laugh again.
A/N: So what do you think, the song is Dirty by Korn. When I was writting the story this song appeared in my head, so i put it.
