Usual disclaimers apply.
At some point you'll realise that you've done too much for someone; that the only possible move is to stop.
And that's what I did. Felicity Smoak stopped. I had to leave him, not leave him, leave him but,to walk away, it's not like I was giving up, or I didn't try.
Because I did, God know that's I did but I had to draw the line between determination and desperation.
I didn't want to fall in love with him, not when He,Oliver Queen himself didn't want to give himself a chance.
I don't want to cling on the hope that maybe someday, there's going to be the right time for us. Who was I kidding?
I was so close to having everything I had waited for, it was so close that I almost tasted it, almost.
Someone once told me, "Timing has a lot to do with everything"
Well you know what? Timing sucks! I've lost people and found them again. And the second time around things just made more sense.
But, there's that one person in life that you can't bear to lose, that's why you'll have to keep them at arms length. Not as close as you want and need them to be, but at least they're there to stay, and that's Oliver for me.
I had to give him what he wanted. The path he leads it then same path as mine. But I can never be someone who'll rationalise everything, because I feel things and I revel on them. It's what keeps me alive.
I feel happy, sad, I get frustrated, hurt. I feel grief, the kind of pain that materialized into physical pain but it reminds me that I'm still here.
But the case is different from Oliver, he had felt every kind of pain there is that he believes he's damage, broken. I believe that it's what makes him who he is. Someone strong, a savior, someone to depend on.
But like I said, I'm done. I don't want to say I'm done forever because I know deep inside me, I'm not. But life goes on, I believe I'm worth something, a lot something. And I am not going to sit around and wait for him to realize things.
I need to do something with my life, something fun, something that'll keep my mind on our nightly activities. A normal day job, that's what going to make feel better. And though I'm not okay, I'll be fine. There's just times that I don't feel okay but that's just it.
That's just it.
So? How was it? I'll post Oliver's centric if you like this one :) please don't forget to leave a review. I love you guys!
