A/N: This is my first story ever so please let me know what you think. I don't own Psych because if I didn't Jules and Shawn would have probably gotten together a lot sooner.

Summary: For 3 years Shawn has been trying to show Lassiter how he feels by acting the way he does because he's too afraid to tell him. After being persuaded to tell Lassiter by a few people he finally does.

A/N: The first like 4 chapters are Shawn's POV and then it will go back to the beginning of the story but it will be from Lassiter's POV. Then when it catches up it will go from there.

Why Doesn't He Get It?

Shawn's POV

Chapter 1 Tell Him or I Will

Three years. Three years I've been trying to show the man that I love him. I can't outright flirt with him like I do with Jules because I'm not sure how he would take it, so I tease him and make fun of him to show my feelings. Why doesn't he get it? I don't do that to anyone one else. Okay, so I tease Gus, but that's different because he's my best friend. I thought after a while he would have caught on to what I was doing but he hasn't. I want to tell him but I'm afraid of rejection. Why doesn't he get it?

I've know Carlton Lassiter for 5 years. When I first met him, I found him intriguing. After 2 years of teasing and making fun of him, I realized I had fallen in love with him. I go both ways so it didn't bother me that I loved a guy; the problem was how do I get his attention? Most of my relationships have been with women so I wasn't sure. I decided to up my antics and teasing. At first I thought it worked. Now, I pretty sure it's only made him hate me more. Everyone but my dad and Gus thinks I'm doing it to annoy him but I'm not.

My dad figured out that I love Lassie about a week after I did. It's not easy to hide something from him especially when he's the one who you taught to look for details. He wanted to make sure, so he cornered me one day when I was visiting him. I was trying to leave when he stopped me.

Three Years Ago

"Shawn, sit down I want to talk to you."

"Sorry dad can't. I have things I need to do."

"It wasn't a request Shawn, it was an order."

I knew I didn't have a choice. If I did manage to leave somehow without having to talk to him today, he would hound me until we talk about whatever it is he wants. He sat down at the table and I sat across from him waiting for him to speak. He stared at me for a few minutes before speaking.

"Shawn have a question for you and I want the truth. Got it?"

"Yeah dad, what's your question?"

"Are you in love with Detective Lassiter?"

My head shot up and I stared at him, shocked. I wasn't expecting that question, anything else but that one. I knew my eyes must have been huge and my mouth was hanging open slightly. My reaction obviously confirmed it for him.

"That's what I thought Shawn. You do love him. How long have you loved him?"

"I just realized I loved him last week dad, but I guess I slowly fell in love with over the last 2 years."

"Are you going to tell him Shawn?"

"I don't know dad. I don't want to be rejected and then everything be awkward. I don't even know how he'll react; he'll probably shoot me if I told him I love him."

"You don't know if you don't try Shawn."

"Yeah, I known dad. Give a little time and I'll tell him, okay?"

"Okay Shawn. Don't wait too long or you'll lose him."

"Yeah dad, I get that. Just don't tell anyone else, okay?"

"Don't worry Shawn, I won't tell anyone else."

With that he let me go and it's been 3 years since that talk. I know my dad's frustrated with me for not telling Lassie but I just don't have the courage too. I couldn't figure out a way to tell him without possibly getting shot. In that time though, I've dated a couple of women and finally managed to land Jules but it's not her I want. I saw the way my dad rolled his eyes when he found out about me and Jules. He stared at me, mouthed "Going to lose him" and walked away. I knew he was right but I just couldn't tell Lassie.

Jules and me have been dating for about a month and I can tell she realizes something isn't right with our relationship. She'll want to know what's wrong and I don't know how to tell her that I love someone else and have for 3 years. I knew a talk was coming when she cornered when Gus and me came to pick up our checks. She pulled me aside and started speaking low enough not to be heard.

"Shawn, you and I need to talk. Something is wrong and it's affecting our relationship."

"Uh, can we not talk here Jules? Too many people around for a private conversation to take place and I don't want people nosing into our personal relationship."

"Of course Shawn. I have a lunch break in an hour. How about we talk then? You can hang around the station or near the station until then."

"Sure Jules but I don't think I should hang around in the station. I'll just get in the way and I don't feel like having Lassie and the Chief yell at me."

"Okay Shawn. See you in an hour."

With that she kisses me on the cheek and walks away. Unfortunately, my "little talks" with people aren't done. My dad corners me and starts his talk.

"Shawn, I heard your conversation with her and you need to tell her the truth. If you don't, you'll just end up hurting her and she'll hate you. Tell her the truth and then break it off. Hopefully she won't hate you too much or for too long."

"What do I say dad? Oh, sorry Jules. I'm only dating you because I'm too chicken to tell Lassie that I love him and would rather be dating him than anyone else."

"No Shawn. Tell her the truth. Your relationship isn't going to work because you love someone and have for 3 years."

"What if she asks who it is?"

"Then tell her the truth, you love Detective Lassiter."

"Yeah, I can see that going over great. Sorry Jules, I don't really love you because I love Lassie."

Unfortunately the Chief was passing by and heard what I said. She stopped and looked at me, then decide to say something.

"What did you just say Mr. Spencer?"

"Nothing Chief, don't worry about it."

"It's not nothing Mr. Spencer. I clearly heard you say that you love Detective Lassiter."

"Please Chief, not here. Listen, I'll talk to you after my dad is finished with me, okay?"

"Alright Mr. Spencer, but don't make me wait too long or not show up."

"Yes Chief."

With that the Chief walks away and I turn my attention back to my dad. He shakes his head and continues our conversation.

"Look Shawn, if you tell Juliet why your relationship isn't working the way you are, she's going to hate you. Just find a way to word it that won't hurt her too bad."

"Okay dad. Now I have to go talk to the Chief."

I make my way to the Chief's office but Gus appears and stops me.

"Shawn, what's taking so long? You came in here 15 minutes ago to get our checks and never came back. Quit fooling around, get our checks, and let's go."

"I got our checks Gus but Jules stopped me talk, then my dad, and now I have to go talk to the Chief. Give me a few minutes okay."

"Okay Shawn, but hurry up. I'm hungry."

I walk away from Gus and towards the Chief's office. I'm standing in front of it wanting to run but instead I knock. I hear her tell me to come in and I open the door and walk in. She stares at me with a small smile on her face and begins to talk.

"So Shawn, are you really in love with Carlton?"

I'm surprised that she called me by my first name but I answer her.

"Yeah Chief, I am."

"How long have you been in love?"

I sigh at the question, I don't want the Chief to know how much of a chicken I am but I answer.

"Well, when I first met him he intrigued me. I slowly fell in love with him over 2 years and I've loved him for the last 3 years."

"Why haven't you told him you love him?"

"I don't want to be rejected and I don't want him shooting me because he thinks I'm joking with him or just generally doesn't really appreciate me telling him that."

"Well Shawn, I think you should tell him and don't worry about him trying to shoot you, I won't let him. Just let me know when you want to tell him and I'll stand by to stop him if he does decide to shoot you. I don't think he would because he's not that cold hearted."

"Thanks Chief, I'll let you know when I want to tell him. Um, if you don't mind, I'll leave because Gus is waiting and he's hungry and a hungry Gus is not a very fun Gus."

"Very well Shawn, have a good day."

"You too Chief."

I leave her office and head to find Gus when the subject of my conversation with the Chief stops me to gloat.

"So Spencer, getting in trouble with the Chief about being a disturbance in this office and preventing people like your father and Detective O'Hara from working?"

I can feel myself blushing and I go to answer him when the Chief steps out and answers for me.

"Detective Lassiter, Mr. Spencer is not disturbing anyone. You however, are being a disturbance and if you don't have enough work to occupy you, I'm sure I can find something that will."

"Right Chief, I was just heading back to my desk."

Lassiter hurries back to his desk and I mouth a silent thank you to the Chief. She nods in understanding and goes back into her office. I look around the room and I see both Jules and Lassie watching me. Jules with an affection smile and Lassie with a glare. I head out to find Gus and we go to find something to eat. I have half an hour before me and Jules are supposed to talk. Gus has been watching me since we left the station and finally breaks the silence.

"What's the matter Shawn?"

"I have to explain to Jules in half an hour what's wrong with our relationship. My dad told me to tell her the truth and break with her then tell Lassie how I feel. The chief overheard the conversation and encourages me to tell Lassie how I feel and that she has my back if he tries to shoot me for telling him."

Gus has known for 2 years how I feel about Lassie. He figured it out a year after I did. That was not a fun conversation either. Gus knew that I went both ways but he had thought I really wanted Jules.

Two Years Ago

We had just finished a case and Gus and I were chilling at Psych. The way I had been acting all during the case had been bothering him. He finally voiced his concern.

"Dude Shawn, what was up with you during this case?"

"What are you talking about Gus?"

"You've been more annoying than normal especially when Lassiter was around. If you're aiming to get shot by him, you're really working your way there. He's really close to just shooting in the middle of everyone."

"Sorry Gus I can't help myself. Whenever Lassie's around I feel the need to be more annoying towards him and tease him more."

Gus is thinking over my answer for a couple of minutes when the realization hits him. He looks at me with a shocked look and speaks.

"You're in love with Lassiter and being annoying towards him and teasing him is how you show your feelings towards him."

"What! Dude, Gus, you're crazy!"

"Are you in love with Lassiter Shawn?"

"Yes. I mean no! Crap."

"Uh huh, how long have you loved him Shawn?"

"I've loved him for about a year Gus."

"Are you sure it's not longer because you've always annoyed him on purpose, it's just gotten worse over the past year."

"Like I told my dad, I slowly fell in love with him since we met and after 2 years I realized I loved him. I didn't know how to show him how I felt show I just upped my antics towards him and hoped he caught on."

"Wait, your dad has known for a year? Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't tell him Gus, he figured it out about a week after I did and I asked him not to tell anyone. I don't want too many people to know because then everything will be awkward. You won't tell anyone right?"

"Ok, I understand your reason for not telling me and don't worry, I have your back. Unless you know, Lassiter tries to shoot you for telling him you love him, and then you're on your own."

"Thanks for the support buddy."

Present Day

Gus is thinking to himself before he continues talking to me. He finally looks up and continues the conversation.

"Are you going to break up with Jules and if you are, are you going to tell Lassiter that you love him?"

"I don't think I have a choice but to break up with Jules. I'm not being a very good boyfriend and I don't want to hurt her. As for telling Lassie, I don't think I have a choice on that either. If I don't tell him soon, my dad will and that will be embarrassing."

"Knowing your dad, he would too."

"Tell me about it. Let's go grab something to eat real quick."

With that we head over to a concession stand and get a quick snack. I'm constantly watching the time and getting more nervous by the minute. Gus is rolling his eyes because I'm starting to annoy him. Finally it's time to head back to the station and have my talk with Jules.