A/N: Hey fellow fanfictioner's and hher's. This 5 part one-shot is at first going to be filled with depression and heartbreak things will begin to get brighter though later on in the story. Well keep in mind that not every story has to have a happy ending you know just in case. This story is based off of what I've experienced and what I've seen other people experience. Hope you enjoy and reviews yeah those would be appreciated enjoy lovelies:):)
An Eternity Waiting- 5 part one-shot
Loren's P.O.V.
I was bleeding on the inside and crying on the out, no one and nothing could pull me out of this dark hole I was in. I was trapped in a never ending life of heartbreak, and it's all because of one thing I said. Piece by piece I was breaking. Falling apart inch by inch. I want so badly to just be happy for once, but right now that seems impossible. The further more I climb the more I tend to fall. And when I fall everything else around me comes crashing down. That's why I lost you, and that's why you're with her now. I was scared to even say one word to you about my feelings. The thought of doing it frightened me, and I could never quite bring myself to do it. My heart was telling me that you just would end up breaking it, and I didn't want to take that risk. So many times you told me you would never hurt me, but yet here you are doing exactly that. I guess I should have told you the truth, and maybe things would turn out different, but now I'll never get to know. One of the many things I regret not even taking a chance for, my poor beaten heart just couldn't face the rejection. Maybe you were actually going to feel the same way, but as I said before now I'll never get to know. I let my feeling for you get in the way of our friendship, and that's when I just completely started to alienate you. I didn't want to tell you how I felt, but at the same time you were giving me mixed signals. You were confusing the hell out of me, and I just couldn't take it anymore. So that's when I decided it's better off if we just stopped even sharing words with one another. Another thing I regret doing, now I lost my one and only best friend too. Why is that I keep on screwing up, after what happened between me and you 6 months ago my life's been a complete wreck. I wasn't able to write songs seeing that I had no inspiration, and I had thought my career in music would be taking off after winning the songwriting contest, and that's why I decided not to go to Brown. Now here I am and my career was taking off nowhere, because I couldn't even get any work done. The sadness and the unbearable pain was eating me alive, and I just felt as if I was paralyzed unable to do anything.Let's not forget I no longer had my best friend Mel with me or Adam, because they had both went to UCLA together. We all video chatted every now and then, but that for me just wouldn't suffice. I had no one here to help me with my problems, life for me wasn't going to great right now. My Mom wasn't even here to help either, she was always working late night shifts at work so I hardly got to see her. Eddie is what I needed, and he is what I wanted back desperately. My shyness got the best of me, and his had too. I wasn't the main cause of what had happened to us, Eddie was beginning to change in so many different ways, and that's also why I couldn't take even being his friend anymore. Truthfully even if I did feel that way at first, now I just want him back. Unfortunately though this will never happen because now he is with Chloe once again. After she lied to him about practically her whole life, he actually had the sense of mind to take her back.
That was just too stupid of you Eddie, too stupid.
Who knows what else she is possibly hiding behind his back, I hope he learns his lesson sooner than later. Chloe was manipulative, conniving, and just down right vindictive. Eddie hadn't seen through this though, apparently he was blindsided by love. That's what it does to you though, it makes you get so flustered over that person that you just automatically see the good in them. It's not that I'm jealous it's just that I hope he know the mistake he's making by being with her. Why is that I'm still so caught up in his life, when I should be more concerned for my own. I still haven't found the strength to get over Eddie, and let's face it I probably never will. This needed to be stopped though, because it was just killing me inside. It hurts to feel a certain way about someone, and they don't even remotely feel the same way back. Heartbreak was felt throughout my life time after time, it just keeps on happening in a repetitive pattern. Will I ever even know what it's like to be happy. Am I really going to spend the rest of my life stuck on Eddie Duran. No I wasn't I needed to do something productive with my life, and I wanted to see the world for itself. I'm tired of being cramped up in my room, and just looking through my laptop reviewing the old memories and the good times. I'm sick of it, and I just needed to stop being so depressed over a guy. I decided to call my friend Summer that had worked with me at the Aroma Café, she was pretty much my substitute for Mel. She was crazy, spunky, and humorous which is what made her all the more like Mel. Usually she's intentionally busy doing other things with friends or family, but maybe just this once she'll have some time for me. So I decided I would give it my best shot and call her. Summer would help me in accomplishing what needed to be accomplished, which was get over Eddie and actually get a life. No more feeling like my life has ended, and no more feeling like I'll never know what it's like to be happy again. I needed to just get out for the day, and I knew exactly where I wanted to go. It's time I do something for me once, and it's time I finally get over Eddie. After all I'm not going to spend an eternity waiting for him.
I know right pretty damn short, but yeah I'm getting pretty tired here so I decided to just make it into a five part one-shot now. It's going to switch between Loren and Eddie's P.O.V just so you know, and well I hope somehow you enjoyed. The next chapter will be ten times better though, and that is a promise. Well good night, and sleep tight. My other fanfics will posted when I have enough time too because lately my life has been hectic. So good night people's.
Until Next Time,
hhlover101
