Warning: Drugs, unromantic sex (probably), abuse, etc.

He doesn't ever talk about it.

It makes you glad in a way. You feel like he thinks you as an escape, albeit temporary. You move against him, molten in his grasp.

His lips are sweet, like sugar and honey. His bare skin is mottled purple, but they were fading with every passing day. You think you feel relief but there was something about it that made your skin crawl and your hands shake.

You share with him your stash for the week. His eyelids flutter as the drug courses in his veins. You go another round, one more before he has to leave. It's a mix of frantic abandon, the heady scent of lust, sweat and smoke that carries your movements.

His Sensei hates it when he doesn't get home on time.

The man knows that you were skipping college, had already known for a while, thinks (knows) that he'll come back.

You feel helpless, terrified, and you hold onto him, tight as if when (not if) you let go he'll disappear from you, leave without your knowledge (or maybe even-)

He takes one last drag, desperate for the numbness. Your nails had scratched into his back, a signal, you think. He wants pain as much as he wants emptiness (with pain he knows he's still alive).

When he leaves you follow him out the door, but don't leave with him. You can't follow him where you're going. He just looks at you with tired eyes and you wish you were strong enough to save him, to protect him, to take him into your arms and never let him go. Instead you give him an equally tired smile, and he gives you a heavy goodbye.

You pull yourself into a ball at the doorstep, the weight in your chest unfading even as the tears dropped from your eyes like ice. It turned you inside out, curled up your insides, crushed you with the never ending guilt.

You would never be able to muster up the courage, would never be able to do anything more than give him drugs, would never be able to break away from your cowardice. When you stop crying, you wipe your tears and take a bitter drag of your joint.

Next week you would do the same thing.

Huh, I didn't manage to fit it in that this is in Enma's POV.

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