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Only Human

Tim's Point of View

It had taken me a while to really reach out to Jason, it was around the time when I had made myself suck up my hard feeling toward him and reason with, what had he been through? Not just with the joker, which would explain enough, but his entire life, his childhood, the streets, his issues were always present, even as robin, especially as robin.

It really wasn't fair, a lot of things weren't, but that didn't make the issue go away, did it? I had always felt bad for Jason, even when he came back as the Red Hood and beat the crap out of me. I knew what he was doing was wrong, and I sure didn't like getting my butt handed to me, but even then I knew it was wrong. Everything about the situation was wrong, so what did I do, nothing.

What was I suppose to do? Well, I'm pretty sure I could have come up with something; better than nothing. But I didn't I was confused and honestly the subject was taboo and depressing, better leave it to Bruce, which well… I guess in this sort of situation there were no winners.

I tried reaching out to him when Bruce had gone missing, but we all know how that had turned out. Stupid me; I should have done something more than just shown Jason a video of Bruce saying, who knows what, and then let him be on his merry way, knowing the message had done something.

It was only after I'd discovered Jason had gone psycho, psycho's a harsh word, confused, crazy? Batman, it had been him, that I'd watched the message Bruce had left for Jason, and then again with Dick, and again after Dick had left, it had really upset him, he had told me to stop watching that, before his voice had broke and he ran/limped- from his fight with Jason, up the steps to the manor. He was still upset about what had happened with Jason that week, we all were. I had watched it again, and again, and again, I had watched it until I'd become almost numb to it, leaving it as just a background to my thoughts.

I hadn't let myself think too much on it at the time, because I hadn't wanted to. All I kept thinking was 'Stupid, I was so stupid, this, this-'

I didn't really keep track of my flooding thoughts, because I had set Jason over the edge, it had been 'me.' And now Jason was gone? Missing, yeah, missing, Dick had said he'd fallen off the bridge, but they couldn't find the body, which meant he was still alive. I had to focus on Bruce, not Jason; but the guilt had been unbearable.

But I didn't let myself dwell on that, or the news when Jason had come back, still crazy-broken-, but he was alive, which really helped me to put my full focus on Bruce again, now the guilt had just been some kind of phantom itch.

After Bruce had returned though, the itch got a little strong, especially after Jason had left with Scarlet, still don't know what happened to her, but I'm not sure if I should ask, it could be a soft subject, that I don't want to poke at.

I looked into Jason a lot more and his past, I had already known about it, but that's all, really, I'd known, never thought about it. It was depressing to say the least. Jason was possibly the most damaged out of all of us, but had nobody, did Scarlet count?

I did a lot of studying on PTSD, Trauma, Survivors Guilt, Panic Attacks, RAD, all of it.

During this research it had really hit me, I mean I'd always known, and it'd hit me at times, but it just really hit me, Jason was my brother too.

When I'd done the research and thought about, how I would have felt, if I where Jason, that guilt became a lot more than a scratch, me and Jason had both had it ugly, the difference is, people made a bigger point to show that they cared for me more than they did with him, be true or not; like I said Jason was a taboo subject.

But that only upset me farther, why should Jason be a taboo subject? He shouldn't; yeah, he brought up mixed depressing feelings, and every time someone tried to help, they only seemed to make it worse.

Maybe because Jason didn't want to be treated like an issue, maybe he just wanted- wanted… understanding, acceptance? That was the hard part, how the heck do you approach some un-approachable?

How would I want to be approached?

It'd been awhile but eventually me and Jason became friends, he's even come back, somewhat, into the fold; apparently you approach Jason with breakfast, among other things, but I thing breakfast had a big part in it.


Well that's chapter one! I hope you enjoyed.

I might make a fic based around Tim's reaction to Bruce's message, to Jason after the big fight from Battle of the Cowl and stuff, or just a fic with that in it, with more detail; 'm not sure.