Hey guys! So this is my first story and I really hope that all of you like it! I'm sorry the chapter is really short but I don't really have a lot of time to write so… All rights go to Queen Cassie (Cassandra Clare) and without further ado I will start the story.

My name is Clarissa Adele Morgenstern

I go by Clary

My last name could be Fray

I wish my last name was Fray

My last name is not Fray

Fray was my mother's last name

She died when I was young

I miss her

I live with my father Valentine

I have a brother named Jonathan

My father abuses me

He also does worse things to me

I hate Valentine

My brother tries to protect me

He has a hard time doing that when he lives in a different state

I miss him too

I have a boyfriend named Sebastian Verlac

Who also abuses me

And has done worse things to me

I hate him also

I have a little girl named Rae Autumn Verlac

I wish her last name was Fray too

I love her with all my heart

She has to live in this awful environment with me

I hate it that she has to

I am pregnant

I do not want my next child born into this environment

I need to get out

I do not know how to get out

I look at the list that describes my life, written in perfectly neat handwriting that describes my perfectly crappy life. I wanted to leave, but I couldn't. I couldn't get out, Valentine would kill me. Sebastian would kill me. Can you be killed twice? Yeah, because they would to the underworld to drag me back and kill me all over again. Over and over and over again.

"Clarissa!"

Speak of the devil. He only called me Clarissa when he was angry. Or drunk. Or both. But there was always a reason to be mad at me wasn't there?