-Prologue-

Author's Note: Yes, this IS a re-do after months of nothing. Several thing's happened that would take far to long to explain but to sum it all up: got hospitalized, work took over, virius made me loose documentation of this fic & etc . So here I am with a re-write and I have written up to chapter 9 in a spiral so fun stuff.

Thank you all for being so supportive and patient with me!

I STILL don't own Buffy the Vampire Slayer / Angel©, those belong to Joss Whedon. Twilight© goes to Meyers & LOST© to JJ Abrams. Closest I got are DVDs and some t-shirts, lol.


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"2 AM, where do I begin? Crying off my face again! The silent sound of loneiless, wants to follow me to bed"

All of those months, completely wasted. That's how it all seems now looking back on it as I sit in my truck before I head out. And I'm not just referring to *Edward* and mine's relationship, but the way I just did… nothing. Not talking, barely living. The way Charlie would hold me after I would wake screaming and thrashing about after yet another nightmare. He won't ever do that again though. Neither of them will.

"I'm the ghost of the girl that I want to be most, I'm the shell of the girl that I used to know well!"

This week had been a usual, boring one. So your typical week for Forks since the Cullens left town really. There had been no attacks at all, which Billy Black was freaking peachy about. You would think he would be subtle or something but no. So that afternoon as I made my way home after school and saw nobody around I thought nothing of it since the pack had been so freaking happy about no threats. The road and yards had been unusually empty so I assumed there had been some freak 18 wheeler accident on the outside of town but of course I know NOW there wasn't

"Dancing slowly in an empty room, can the lonely take place of you? I sing myself a quiet lullaby, then you go & let the lonely in and take my heart again"

When I pulled onto my tiny street, which that day it seemed all the more so, the whole town from the looks of it was there. That's when dread settled in the pit of my stomach as I saw the huge fire roaring and consuming what -used- to be my house. I still don't really know how I got out of the car so fast and through the crowd either. All I know is that I was in Jacob's arms sobbing to my heart's content.

"Just tell me no one was inside", I had pleaded with him.

He simply nodded his head in the direction to the mostly burned car that I knew immediately that it was Charlie's. I looked around in panic to see if anyone had gotten him out but only grim, 'understanding' faces meet mine instead of his. Billy soon informs me he had been on the phone with him, planning their next fishing trip, when they heard what seemed to be a gas explosion and line lost connection. He also then told me once the crowd left the pack checked the area, they had picked up Victoria's scent all over the property. Great.

"Too afraid to go inside, for the pain of one more loveless night. Cause the loneliness will stay with me – and hold me till I fall asleep"

That was the day I made the decision to leave this awful town and go stay with my uncle in LA. Right before Charlie's death we had received news Renee was pregnant so obviously I can't go stay with her with a vampire coming after me. I've already gotten poor Charlie killed and from what I recall my dear uncle can kick some serious ass.

The land property has already been sold, which surprised me really how fast that happened but relived me because that meant I could get out faster. I have also dropped out of high school too. Which of course pissed off the community but I'm 18 so it's no longer mandatory! That still didn't stop them from trying to stop me though, lots of wasted air and time.

"Broken pieces of a barely story, where there once was love now there's only me. And the lonely"

My tank indicates it's now empty and I no longer have any cash left to fill it, crap. Maybe my luck will begin to change once I get there, the city where dreams come true? At least that's what Uncle Lindsey always says.

As Bella get's out of her truck and abandon's it a good 100 miles outside of destination, it wasn't for another 5 minutes till she realized she had been singing without the radio.

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Winifred had been sitting at the small, picturesque diner for far too long. She was well aware of the fact. But she was still rather upset with Charles and the way he had acted with her! Winifred Burkle was very much her own person and they were -only- dating, not married or even *close* to it with the way he'd been acting. So at the diner she would stay till her temper cooled it's heel's, a LOT more. And the people in the booth behind her were not helping her temper one bit.

"Now Linds, my man, can you git this no good settlement done or what?"

"Of course James-"

"Damnit Lawyer-Man : I TOLD YOU to call me Sawyer!"

Now she couldn't help but turn around and look at the loud two some in the booth. That's when she saw two face's she recognized very much! One she had seen on the news as one of the survivors of the Oceanic© Flight and the other was in the Angel's files as one of them Wolfram & Hart lawyers!

"Hey mousy, mind buttin' out of our conversation here? It's none of your business!"

Well THAT'S rude!

"Excuse me but seeing as I was here first y'all won't seem to keep quite enough to your own booth I couldn't help but over hear your damn conversation! And I'm -not- mousy you slimy lookin' STD carrier!"

Blonde guy, Sawyer is what Fred believed his named to be, glared while the other narrowed his eyes at her.

"I know you from somewhere…"

"Um, I just published an article on physics & spoke about it not too long ago"

"He shook his head in disagreement, "No, that's not it…your one of the people that works with Angel now, aren't you?"

Her big browns widen even more at this, they looked like they were coming out of head almost, "How in the hell could you know that? From the files I've read and looked at you left LA long before he came and got me from Pylea! And you haven't been back since now, right?"

"Lilah", he simply explained. Her eyes darkened at her mentioning, which Lindsey found interesting.

"As fun and interesting as this it – what the hell is going on outside?", Sawyer interrupted the two as he pointed the window displaying a firey skyline.

"Oh fuck"