A/N: I don't know it's my first fanfic. Well enjoy this crappy little thing. (P.S. I don't have word so I used Wordpad.)
Warnings: Crappy set-up, maybe OOC, mistakes, and character death.
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
I'm Not Okay (I Promise)
"No! You can't do this to me! Open your eyes damn it! Please... Please!"
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go.
It's better off this way.
I looked down, his face; emotionless. His breathing, ragged. Blood pooled around his body.
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor
"Please hold on! I'm here, don't leave me! I need you!" Silence. I felt my tears escape. I couldn't stop them. They fell like weights, dropping one after another. My face was stricken with agony. More tears fell.
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
I've told you time and time again
You sing the words but don't know what it means
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look
"I love you!" Nothing. I sobbed and sobbed soaking his already sweat drenched face with my tears.
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you'd read me like a book
But the pages are all torn and frayed
"Please... Please!" I looked at the wound and shuddered. The rain began to pour causing an even larger puddle of blood. I tore off his shirt, his chest barely moving. With all the strength I had, I pushed down on the gaping hole. Blood had immediately soaked my hands, seeping in-between my fingers, and under my finger nails. I looked up again... His chest was still.
"No!"
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay.
I looked at his still frame, the choking sobs wracked my body. 'What have I done? What have I done!' I repeated over and over again in my head. I sat back on my knees, slouching as I held my heads in my hands and screamed.
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay.
I sat there silent for a moment.
"What am I doing? Crying? Over a human I killed?" I threw my head back and laughed. "Who am I kidding! I enjoyed every minute of this!" I looked up. The full moon was in full view and it made me feel happy, free. I tilted my head up to get a better view. I laughed harder, the moon on my mind, as I slowly accepted my newfound insanity.
I'm okay
~End
