We're both looking for something.
We've been afraid to find.
It's easier to be broken.
It's easier to hide.
He was amazing. I didn't know why I felt the way I did, or how he could possible make me feel this way but he did.
Every little fight, every time I bickered and groaned because he was 'being an insensitive jerk', I didn't mean any of it.
I know I should have, we were step-siblings for gods sake! Nothing more, but everything in me just wanted to go and just tell him, pour my heart out to him.
Tell him I was actually in love with him.
Looking at you, holding my breath.
For once in my life, I'm scared to death.
I'm taking a chance letting you inside.
I wonder if she'd think I was crazy, I'm certainly not suppose to feel this way about my step-sister, it's just all kinds of wrong.
But just looking at her, sitting there quietly, reading a book, of which I have to idea what it's about, but she looks happy and I'm watching a hockey game, well, I wonder if she knows I'm actually staring..
I only fought with her to make it look like I didn't care, but it was the polar opposite. She makes me crazy, she really does.
I'm feeling alive all over again.
As deep as the sky under my skin.
Like being in love, she said, for the first time.
Maybe I'm wrong,
I'm feeling right where I belong with you tonight.
Like being in love to feel for the first time.
She's beautiful. "Derek?" I looked back at the TV.
"Hm." Great, nice choice of words.
"Why were you staring? Is there something on my face?" She looked worridly touching her face.
I laughed.
"Nah, nothing." I smiled or smirked, whichever.
"Oh.. okay." She went back to reading.
I mentally cursed myself.
The world that I see inside you.
Waiting to come to life.
Waking me up to dreaming.
Reality in your eyes.
"Case, I think I'm going to head upstairs, get some sleep." It was almost midnight.
"Yeah, I think I will, too." I think she's wondering why I'm not trying to crack any jokes, this is kinda akward, we never don't fight.
Looking at you, holding my breath.
For once in my life, I'm scared to death.
I'm taking a chance letting you inside.
I shut off the TV and took my book and walked around the couch to bump into Derek. I felt a weird tingling feeling, I don't know what it was, but it was deffinately there and I was unsure if I wanted to find out what it was or not.
"Oh, geez Case, sorry." He helped me keep balance.
I'm feeling alive all over again.
As deep as the sky under my skin.
Like being in love, she said, for the first time.
Maybe I'm wrong,
I'm feeling right where I belong with you tonight.
Like being in love to feel for the first time.
I should not have felt like I did when we bumped into eachother, it's not right. The tingling feeling, it was unbelievable, like a spark almost.
This sucks, I just can't love Casey. I can't!
But I do, so much it hurts..
We're crashing,
Into the unknown.
We're lost in this.
But it feels like home.
"'Night?" He was headed into his room.
"Goodnight." I wanted to just spill everything right there and then, it was getting to the point where I couldn't take it and I didn't care if people didn't except.
"UGH!" I groaned plopping down on my bed.
Until another day..
I'm feeling alive all over again.
As deep as the sky under my skin.
Like being in love, she said, for the first time.
Maybe I'm wrong,
I'm feeling right where I belong with you tonight.
Like being in love to feel for the first time.
Like being in love she said for the first time.
Like being in love to feel for the first time.
Closing my door, I layed down on my bed, confused but happy and content.
This was deffinately going to be tough.
"Goodnight, Casey." I whispered to myself, drifting off into a deep sleep.
