Hi reader! It's Rina here with another one of them one-shots. I know, I know, most people know me as a Yu-Gi-Oh! GX writer, but I really loved the story Impulse by Ellen Hopkins. It's an amazing book done in poetry, so here's my go at Ellen Hopkins' style of writing. Hope you like it and please check out the book Impulse which I hope has a continuation.
I'm hoping if Ellen Hopkins makes a sequel, Conner isn't dead. I know, I know, most of you people assume Conner died, but in the story, they just had a rescue team and then the cheesy/sad parts with Vanessa and Tony.
ACTUALLY: Conner did die...unfortunately. He was, as Tony said something like, "grounded on a rock," or something of the sort. And yes, there will be a companion book and I hope it has Vanessa and Tony. Thanks for reading.
I hope you like this. I think I'll make my own continuation of Impulse myself! Humph!
(x) Rina "anime-heroine"
Disclaimer: I am not Ellen Hopkins, for one. She is the owner and creator of Impulse and all of her other great stories (Crank, Glass, Burned). This style of writing is very first I've seen in an actual story.
Claimer: Plot belongs to me as well as the "poems."
Please review! All reviews are greatly appreciated, but please, no flames! (If you like Conner/Vanessa, OMFG, don't read this.) Constructive criticism wouldbe best.
Unusual
One-shot
(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
Vanessa
With Tony By My Side
Conner's death is a little easier to handle.
He was the first person I had actually loved, for real.
Not like Trevor, who had most likely faked the love.
But now,
now Conner had to go and jump off that cliff to his death,
leaving poor me and Tony, alone.
I don't understand why he did it; I just know he did.
But since Tony's here, I have nothing to worry about.
Conner should be happy,
up there,
with Him.
The Priest Rambles On
About how Conner was a "special kid we should all remember."
Remember, yes. Special, yes.
Conner.
His words were all correct, but somehow,
splinters found their way into my heart.
Like a razor blade against my skin, cutting deep into my veins.
I keep wondering why Conner had to jump,
why he left us…
me.
Tony
Vanessa's Breath Quickens
And my arm wraps against her shoulder, cooing softly,
"Don't cry."
How can I not? retorts she, sobs resting against her voice. Conner…
Conner jumped off a cliff and died, Tony. He died!
I shook my head and sighed in sorrow, my fingers twirling her hair.
"I know, Vanessa," I managed to say without breaking down.
And I do.
After the Funeral
My father finds me and has very red eyes.
Anthony, shouts he. Anthony, my boy. Forgive me. I never knew…that could have been you, Anthony!
"I wish it was," I muttered under my breath,
with a hopeless desire that Vanessa couldn't hear my near plea.
Vanessa punches my shoulder in annoyance. Don't say that, Tony! If you died…if you died…
Her voice trailed off.
I would have lost a piece of myself.
Vanessa
The Hotel Room
"Your father looked surprised," were my first words as Tony
plopped onto the hotel bed.
I assume he was, Tony said, his smart aleck side returning.
I'm happy about what you said, Vanessa.
"What did I say?" A look of curiosity was most likely perched on my face
because Tony laughed that weird, almost gay, laugh.
Oh yeah. Tony was gay. Was. He isn't. Oh, sweetie – you said you'd lose a piece of yourself
if I were the one that had died.
"True enough," I said, falling into his arms.
They tightened around me, squeezing my shoulders gently.
"If you died, I'd probably wanna try to kill myself again."
Monster – How Should I Feel?
My words looked like they had hurt Tony.
They probably did.
With Conner's death, the funeral and now
my sudden outburst,
Tony looked like he was about to collapse
into tears.
Don't ever say that again, Vanessa, was his plea,
closing his eyes and turning away to break our eye contact.
"I won't," I promised, leaning down to peck his cheek.
He grabbed my face and pulled me down to his chest again, whispering four simple words,
Make love to me.
Tony
I Said That?
Did I really? With the funeral,
did those words actually come out of my mouth?
Impossible. This was the worst possible timing to say
such an absurd thing.
But Vanessa didn't look fazed.
She actually looked quite serious,
maybe serious or happy –
or even lustful.
Suddenly, she jumped on me
pushed me onto the bed,
and mashed her lips against mine and
my body jerked forward unfamiliarly.
Vanessa seemed like a pro at this,
the way her fingers touched me,
the way they danced across my body,
the way she taught me how to love her.
I remember something Vanessa told me
after Conner had died.
Love isn't about sex.
It's about connection.
And we were connecting, alright.
I Say "Good Morning"
To a sleepy and sated Vanessa Angela O'Reilly,
a girl whom I've loved so deeply for these past months – weeks – years?
Oh…Tony… Her voice was a near-faint whisper.
What went on last night?
I ignore her question and ask one myself.
"Do you know the answer to what it means to make love, now?"
Her eyes widen and she turns away, embarrassed.
Do you happen to have a razor blade on you…?
"Vanessa!" My voice is low and croaky,
most likely the aftermath of a long night.
I'm kidding, Tony. She smiles and hugs me,
but a little loosely.
I realize that we are still naked,
only the bed sheets covering us.
"Ah. We should get some clothes on."
No, no…
Make love to me, again.
Vanessa
Oops
I think I asked for way too much.
Too bad Tony is a bastard that always complies with what I ask for.
He was raised that way (I've always been forced to take.) and now I get the bad end of it.
Not really. I like the way he puts himself into my mouth.
Mm, mm, mm…
Wakin' Up
To the fresh smell of Japanese cherry blossom.
I assume that Tony had just finished with a shower.
"Tony!" was my loud holler towards the bathroom.
I jump out of the bed and slip into the lavatory.
I peek in and see Tony, naked,
since he just got out of the shower.
Hey, sweetie, he greets casually. Didn't think you'd be up early.
I don't think he knew that he was completely naked.
I looked down at his masculinity and turn red
as it jumps up in excitement.
Glancing up at Tony, I raise an eyebrow.
He says, What's wrong?
"Nothing." I sigh and stare down at his erection again.
"Nothing's wrong, Tony."
Horny girl. Let me freshen up, dammit! He starts laughing,
and I quickly get out of there.
Tony
Warm Water
Feels like Vanessa's fingers touching me again,
and even though she's just right there,
I don't ask her to do it again.
I believe that if we do it too much, we'll get
too attached,
which will lead to some unfortunate events.
I shouldn't be so pessimistic.
I love Vanessa and she loves me.
There is no wrong in love.
"Vanessa!" I shout. She quickly peeps into the bathroom,
obviously disappointed by the towel
wrapped firmly around my waist.
I gulp slowly and lead her
to the hotel bed again,
grabbing my clothes and hastily slipping them on.
"Clothes," I say, voice husky,
"on." She quickly obliges, a little
confused.
One worded commands slip out of my mouth,
like little daggers cutting her,
or my tongue, touching the spots she liked.
My fingers lace hers,
and they tighten around mine,
either scared or anxious
or both.
Vanessa
The End
Is it near?
Tony looks glum -
does he want to end our relationship?
What does he want to ask?
Oh man, this is so infuriating!
Just open your mouth,
and talk, Tony!
Tell me!
I want to know what's on your mind!
Will You…
Marry me?
he says, looking me in the eye.
Vanessa Angela O'Reilly?
I'm scared to answer, I must admit.
This was sudden – why, it's only
been a few weeks.
Or has it?
I've been with Tony for such a long time,
I probably lost track of it.
Noticing my silence,
Tony speaks up,
Don't answer just yet.
Think about it.
I Definitely Will!
I shout at the top of my lungs,
trying to stop him from ending
this conversation.
Will…what?
he asks,
purely confused.
Such an innocent voice, is what I think.
He's irresistible.
"Marry you."
…Vanessa?
He sounds like he's in disbelief.
Cold fingers caress my cheek.
Don't compel yourself, he says confidently.
Just think about it.
Another smile appears on his face, and then he stands up.
I said his name in a scolding tone.
He turns down and looks at me,
confused, again.
"I'll marry you."
Tony
I Forced It
But she's taking it well.
Unusual, but foreseen. Vanessa is a bright girl.
I'm so negative.
I love her.
She loves me.
There's no doubt with our love.
I smiled, and hold her shoulder, kneeling down.
I whisper a few things in her ear,
and added another one, just to let her know I love her.
"Then we'll get married."
(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
There you go.
Ends with a cliffhanger, just like the actual Impulse book.
I thought this was done pretty weirdly since I'm no good at poetry. Hope you liked it, and please, REVIEW!
Yes rushed. But that's sort of how it was in Impulse.
(x) Rina "anime-heroine"
