Yeah, so it's my fanfick from Shiki. I'm Polish and I wrote it in Polish, but I want to share it with people not only from Poland so I used online translator, my poor English and my friend(she checked it a bit, thanks a lot *hug*). Really sorry for any mistakes. My English sucks, so you know...Feel free to correct me when you notice a mistake ^^ Oh, I forgot. Sorry for my poor writings as well.
I reluctantly opened my eyelids and began to stare at the ground. I was filled with dirty powerlessness knowing that I have to do something against my will, that I can't avoid it ... I really don't want to hurt Natsuno, but there was no other choice. If anyone needs to attack him, then it must be me. I will not let anyone else touch him. Never. I sighed softly and wiped tears from my cheeks. A sudden rustling leaves made me realize that I'm not alone.
"Tohru-chan, I'm here." Natsuno said, looming from the forest. Slowly approached me, then hesitated a moment, until at last he raised up a small cross. I involuntarily shuddered.
"So it works." He added with the terrible satisfaction, and then pulled out from behind a wooden stake.
"Natsuno ... Don't do it..." I whispered in a trembling voice, and fell back slightly.
"I told you not to call me that!" He dropped his gun and rushed over in front of him.
"Natsuno!" I caught him fast, grabbed his hand and pulled him over. Gently stroked his back, feeling that he was shaking.
"Don't fucking kidding me! Do not act like my Tohru-chan before his death, Tohru-chan, whom I loved ... Does it really have to be like that? Can't we coexist? Can't you live without killing ...?" The boy took a step back, pulled out of my arms and looked into my eyes. It was obvious that he was really suffering.
"You don't understand ... If it would be possible, We'll never killed anybody ..." I whispered, looking away.
"There must be some way out!" He quickly shooked his head to deny. "We will think about the solution and I'm sure we can escape from the village! You'll get by without killing people, and until that happens, you can suck my blood ..." – He come back closer to me and pulled up his shirt sleeve.
I moaned softly and fell back, covering my eyes with hands.
"Tohru-chan ... Suck my blood. This is the only way we can somehow control over your hunger, that you won't kill anybody ... Do it."
In my head there was complete chaos. I really didn't want to do this, but I couldn't resist. In the end there was no other choice ... I grabbed him by the wrists and pinned to the ground, to bite into his neck. At this time, I wasn't myself at all. Only sweet liquid, flowing through my throat was counting. Only when the thirst quenched, my thoughts went back to reality. Frightened I looked at the Natsuno, who was barely conscious. My attacks bring him death, I knew it ... Angry at myself, I felt this terrible powerlessness again. I picked him up and carried back home.
"Natsuno, sorry. " I said softly, when I put him to the bed and stifling tears, slowly turned toward the window.
"Stay with me a moment." He whispered faintly, grabbing my hand and wanted to draw me back.
Single tear flowed , but I ignored it. Slowly, I leaned over him and took his face by my hands, then layed a kiss on his lips. I hated that feeling, knowing that I hurt my beloved person. .. Even worse is that I really couldn't stop. Even if I really wanted. The next evening, I was stood again at his window. I knew that this was the last time I saw him alive ... Slowly, I walked inside and approached his bed. He sat on it barely alive, seemed to be calm, but I knew that in the middle of him terrible emotions torn him.
"Forgive me, Natsuno ... I love you and I'm sorry that you have suffered becauce of my fault."
"It is no longer important ... I may even become this fucking okiagari if we finally can be together." He smiled faintly before I clung to his ''live "neck for the last time.
