Dear Diary,
I am a terrible person… and it feels great! I have successfully destroyed my best friend by telling her, her boyfriend cheated on her with me. Now I know what you're thinking, how could I possibly think that? Well, she was too proud and feeling justified when our friends started talking about me sleeping with Kevin Tenner who just so happens to be married.
It's pathetic really, to be mad about that and not be there for her best friend. She says she doesn't judge people but I could see it in her eyes. How could I sleep with one of our friends while he was married? Well as long as my boyfriend didn't find out, I didn't care. Sex to be is uninteresting, who am I to say no to someone wanting to have sex with me? Plus, Kevin was in an open relationship with his wife so.
So what if they weren't even married for a year, what did that have to do with anything? Plus I still have Cam who came around sometimes wanting to have sex with me. Cam is this very attractive guy who I knew was the one for me, but so bad for me at the same time. He only called me to have sex and well, I liked him that much so why not?
Oh! I remember having sex with him one time while my girlfriends and I went to a friend's party and we snuck away to have sex on a trampoline! Oh god it was so much fun watching him try and get me to orgasm. I lived to see the frustration in their eyes. Ha! Every guy I have had sex with has always tried to get me to orgasm, a few succeeded. Hate when they do because that means they have control over me. No one treats me like a puppet, claiming me ever.
Sex is boring to me, and orgasming is just a no-go. Now let's go back to being a terrible person. My best friend Crystal said I was too proud to tell her about my sexual escapades. I didn't care if she found out first or if I told everyone through a group text. She was being stupid to think I actually felt bad about it. It's my life and I can fuck whoever I want. I will admit that Kevin Tenner has a big mouth and was the one telling everyone but it's still my business. My friends shouldn't be spreading rumors to begin with.
Her boyfriend called me wanting to talk. That's all we did though, talk about poor little Crystal and how sad she was because we weren't talking. But I noticed the way he looked at me. He wanted me so bad. Every guy in our group wanted me so badly, even our one friend Jordan. He had been hounding me since day one, like I give a shit ha-ha! He still would want to sleep with me even if I had an STD. Pathetic.
Jordan came to my house after me texted that sap about what pretended to happen, he came over and I asked him to take me to her house. It has been a couple of weeks since I saw that loser friend, and I have to admit. I was ready to fess up. I had never seen her so angry and I thought I was going to lose my head. I know I lied but who cares? I slept with three other people while with my boyfriend so it doesn't matter.
I got my friends to go against her and her loser boyfriend, let her see who she is messing with. From what I heard, she completely fell off the grid, no social media, no one has seen her. Serves her right to think she could go without getting over a fact that was my business and no one else. I know diary, I'm such a terrible person. The text messages just show he came over but nothing in between. Gave me plenty to fabricate and decipher and leave it to my stupid friends to fill in the gaps. Like I told Crystal before all this, my friends are stupid and I don't need them. They were really just there for my entertainment but nothing more.
Plus I knew Jordan would believe me. He wouldn't think twice if I cried a little and made him feel bad for me. Crystal started to figure me out. I was using people to my own advantage. Like that time I harassed her boyfriend to make a date for the three of us. I couldn't let Crystal go, so I made sure I was involved in all of their endeavors. Of course Crystal and her boyfriend got into a fight and she pushed me away.
No one pushes me away. Doesn't she know who I am? I am the reason everyone stuck around! Our friends were envious of me, because of my big breasts. I was every guy's fantasy and it felt great! How do you think Kevin Tenner felt when I went down on him and his unimpressive penis?
He was a good fuck I suppose, but his drive to get me to orgasm was a bit annoying. He made it too personal sometimes and I just wanted to get laid. What's funny is that Jordan knows of all the guys I slept with, shady or not, and he doesn't care. Kevin Tenner didn't either! We fucked around, and his wife knew about it. Apparently she is mad at me for sleeping with her husband but does it look like I care? He wanted me, just like every guy in our group.
Like this one time I slept with my other girlfriend's ex-boyfriend. Tanya was my ultimate best friend. She and I had been friends longer than when Crystal came in. Now I know what you're thinking, how cold could I be?
I was a terrible person, but I needed to get laid and I wasn't about to go to Jordan for it. I needed him to do my bidding. So instead of having sex with him I pulled his strings, and he doesn't even see it. And Tanya's ex-boyfriend was my childhood friend. Plus he didn't seem to mind when I asked him to have sex with me. I know I should have told her, Crystal kept riding me on it, saying it was wrong of me and blah, blah, blah. Whatever, she is just jealous of the amount of dick I get.
Now I wasn't always this person. At one point all three of us had boyfriends, so my pull to Crystal and Tanya wasn't a strong. But then my boyfriend disappeared off the face of the earth, Tanya and her boyfriend got on some bumpy ride involving one of her ex's and the only one who was happy was Crystal and her loser boyfriend. How dare she have a happy relationship while I am over here with no boyfriend?
Didn't she see that her girlfriends needed her, that they were more important than her boyfriend? No, and instead she chose hanging out with him instead of consoling us. That bitch! So I decided to try and separate them. I even told her I went to see her out of town, I was really there for a wedding. She said she appreciated it but in reality I knew she was ungrateful. She didn't post any pictures of us but when her boyfriend goes she floods the social media with them together. Crystal was mine, all mine, and no one was going to have no. Not even her perfect boyfriend.
She was even ready to tell him she loved him! I couldn't let them be together, not while I still had a hand in it. So I made sure I was always with them, getting between them and causing emotional strain on her. God she was such a sucker for that shit!
She complained that he never fought for her, never stood up to me when I did that! Until one day she just hut me out to "fix the relationship?" It takes a whole fucken week to fix a relationship? I told her it wouldn't work if it takes a week. Hell I haven't heard from or seen my boyfriend in about a month. He was a loser anyways. Just one guy I had to work a little harder on to get caught in my web.
He was an ok fuck though, not great but eh. We, I mostly mean him, did get to finish cause my mother called my phone. It worked to my advantage though, considering he was trying to get me to orgasm. God why does every guy think a girl wants to orgasm? Oh well, soon they won't know what hit them. Our friends have shunned Crystal and her boyfriend, an example of what will happen if they cross me. She chose him over me and that was not going to happen.
I tried sleeping with Tanya's boyfriend too, but he was too in love with her to even see my advances. I told him to dump her multiple times. She was just dragging us down. There were only three girls in the group and once Tanya was removed, Crystal would be able to follow, leaving me with the guys. But fucken Crystal decided to stir up problems so she had to go first. Tanya would even notice anything because of her stupid problems with her ex.
Her problems surfaced for a moment when someone broke into her car. So I decided to string out her problems to get her out. I knew I should have told Crystal about outing her but I didn't think it would come and circling back to me. Ugh, she was such a problem now, I am glad she isn't with our friends anymore.
I should get going diary, Cam is waiting outside and later Kevin wants to get laid. Maybe I could get Tanya's boyfriend now that Crystal isn't around butting in.
-Mary
