Serena looked out the window, and noticed just how much it matched her Mood right now,
the sky was dark, no evidence to show it was indeed a sunny Day that morning.
Some people could say it was just an ordinary rainy night, true as it was,
it wasn't just a ordinary night for her, it was two years to the day that her happiness
was robbed from her, the same two years when her Soul mate, the love of her life
Walked out on her without a explanation.
The memory of that fateful night lingered freshly, she still harboured the same
feelings she had that night, she couldn't forget, it was etched so deeply in her mind.
Her mind flickered back to the event, which often saw her crying herself to sleep over.
FLASHBACK
Serena had just come home from work, she was tired, and all she wanted to do was to cuddle
up with her boyfriend of two years. She had missed him all day, and missed his voice.
He often called up every few hours just to tell her how much he loved her, but strangely
enough none came today, she shrugged her shoulders and thought nothing of it.
She called his name, each time earning her no reply, she listened intently to the sound
coming from their bedroom and went closer to Investigate, what she found shocked her.
In front of her, her very own eyes, There was Darien, Finishing packing
his suitcase. "Darien" She began not knowing what to say or do
"Serena, Your home, I thought I'd be gone by the time you got off from work"
"What's going on?" Serena asked trying to touch him, resulting in Darien withdrawing
from her touch. Serena felt hurt by the jerking motion, he never would have done that
ever and it bothered her."I'm leaving Serena, I've got to get away from here without you"
Darien answered sliding his hand over her cheeks
"Why? What can I say to make you stay?" Serena questioned on the verge of tears
"I'm afraid there's nothing anyone can say, I Love you and I always will, but
Now isn't the time to go further in our relationship, please don't ask why," Darien replied
kicking himself for causing the pain on her face.
"You have no idea how that sounds" Serena laughed bitterly, Darien looked over at the vase
of roses he got her a couple of days ago, where life was so much easier
"You say you love me, yet your leaving without me, that doesn't seem right, and I have a
right to know why your leaving" Serena stated looking also at the roses Darien had
given her two nights ago at the restaurant, the reddest roses she had ever seen.
"I know how pathetic it sounds but I promise you it's not meant to be like that, I haven't
got much time, I've got to get going… Remember I'll always love you, Goodbye" Darien
answered walking out the door not once looking back, Serena held herself back from stopping
him, she let him go, she'd have to watch him leave.
She slid down the wall after she shut the door and noted the sound of finality in the air
but she wouldn't believe it was over just like that.
Serena asked herself why she let him go she knew that in time Darien and her would be back together;
she knew that in her heart that belonged to him, he'd be back.
END FLASHBACK
Serena sighed. How stupid she was that night, thinking he'd return,
although one thing she could not deny was how much she missed him, she
missed him like hell. She let her eyes close for a second and reopened them a
second later and let the tears she was holding back escape her eyes, she had to let him go
for good.
Serena knew she should have let him go when he left, she even told Darien she'd set him free
but her heart never let her give up on him, always believing he'd return.
She wiped her tears away with her fingers, she was giving up the fantasy, Her heart agreed,
it too was giving up, no longer believing he'd return, The pain in her heart didn't
diminish, she didn't believe it would, but it lessened.
Serena whispered to herself "Darien I'm finally setting you free just like I should have a
long time ago" and she was starting to regret it.
Across the ocean, a young man, felt heartbroken and sad, he too missed someone, he missed a
girl with long silky blonde hair, the girl he once called his girlfriend, the one his heart
still belonged to, most of all the one he vowed never to hurt, yet two years ago did.
He still remembered how he felt that night, how cruel he must have sounded, but he did what
he felt was best, and he regretted every day he didn't have her beside him.
"Serena" The Man whispered as he looked up at the stars, wishing he could turn back time and
have things the way they were before "I wish I never hurt you Love, but there were some
things you wouldn't understand, things I wish never happened". The young man known to his
friends as Darien cried for the one person he hurt and betrayed his precious Serena.
Life soon got better for Serena, it took her a couple of months before she allowed herself to go on
dates with other men without feeling like she was betraying Darien, once again she found
herself thinking of him and shook her head she had to forget him, especially now she was on
a date with someone else.
Easy said then done she thought to herself, she was always comparing every man to Darien.
She looked at the man, who she had been going out with for the last month and a half, who
grabbed her hands.
"What's on your mind princess?" Asked the man who sat directly in front of her.
Serena looked at him, He was six foot, and had black hair, yet not the jet black colour that
Darien's hair was, he didn't even have the same colour blue in his eyes that Darien had
Serena sighed, why was she comparing this man to Darien, the man that left her without a
explanation.
"Nothing much, just stuff that shouldn't be on my mind Eric" Serena answered her date with a
forced smile, one that wouldn't have worked with Darien. Eric let his fingers caress her
cheek "Anything I can help with?" He asked hoping she'd tell him what was on her mind.
"Not really, I'm sorry but I have to deal with this on my own, Please Understand" Serena
replied, Serena lightly took his hand away from her cheek, so his fingers would stop
caressing her cheek, she didn't mind the light stroking on her cheek, just didn't like being
reminded of all the times Darien would do it and she hated someone else other then him doing
it.
"I understand Serena, I wish you'd trust me enough to let me help you, we've been going out
for a month and a half, but I'll let you work it out first, I just want you to Know I'll
always be there for you and That I love you" He stated honestly
Serena sighed and looked him in the eyes, and she noticed that he indeed loved her, and as
much as she tried to love him back she couldn't and it hurt her deeply, that she had to tell
him that She had only loved one man despite how much she hated him, and he wasn't that man,
how could she tell Eric she could only see them as friends when he just admitted that he
loved her and she had to tell him now and not lead him on anymore then she already had.
"Eric, We need to talk" Serena told Eric wondering how she was going to phrase the wording.
"What about?" Eric questioned as he took his gaze away from the beautiful sunset and focused
only on her.
Serena looked towards the sky that was a beautiful orange and yellow colour, she loved
sunsets, maybe cause the first ever sighting of a sunset was magic and that first time was
with Darien and she smiled slightly at the memory.
Serena looked back at Eric, her face devoid of any emotion and tried to find the right
words. The main thing she had to remember was to be honest no matter what.
"I don't think this relationship is working, I don't feel anything for you, I've tried to
love you, but nothing has come from it, I'm so sorry, You're a good guy, and I'm sorry for
hurting you but I can't help the way I feel"
"But I just told you that I loved you, how could you just dump this on me after all I said?
He questioned, feeling hurt and betrayed, he couldn't believe this, he loved her and she
didn't love him back, that hurt, not even a ton of bricks could hurt him this much.
"It wouldn't have mattered when I told you how I felt, It would have had the same effect,I
don't why I never told you before, I suppose it was because I didn't think you saw me as
anymore then a friend, or maybe I hoped you didn't, I only thought of you as a friend and
hoped you did, I had to tell you before you expected more of me that I was willing to give"
She answered honestly while looking at the stars and how they shone brightly.
"I just don't understand how you could do this, how would you feel if someone did this to
you? You can't possibly know how I feel" Eric exclaimed
"Don't I?" Serena asked angry, if only he knew the truth, he couldn't come close to what she
was feeling, or had been feeling for these last two years
"I had someone do this to me two years ago, It hurts, That's why I only wanted to be your
friend, I didn't want to have to do this, I didn't think I ever had to, I'm sorry it had to
be done but I couldn't face causing you the pain I'm feeling now, At least I'm here giving
you a explanation, I never got one, So let me assure you, I wouldn't want to bestow this
pain even on my worst enemy." Serena finished
"So your doing the same thing to me as he did to you two years ago, that just seems like you
trying to get back at him, and it sounds so childish!" Eric mumbled
"How can you say that? Didn't you hear anything I said?. I never wanted anyone to feel like
I am, but you presume that I'm doing this to hurt you, I'm sorry I can't return your
feelings, I have to remain true to myself, I could have easily pretended I loved you, would
you have preferred that and end up hurting you even more" Serena replied and noted the
defeated look on his face, "I didn't think so" Serena sighed
"I understand where your coming from, I'm sorry for what I said, but I'm can't help but feel
like I've been used, You obviously still love the guy who broke your heart and you still
went out with me And I just can't work out why?"
Serena sighed, he had a point, She should have stopped that when she realised she couldn't
stop Loving Darien, she should have stopped seeing Other guys, to spare them the grief
She had known for awhile that she couldn't get over Darien but she didn't do it to get over
Darien, she needed friends, maybe it was stupid to make friends with single guys, but she
knew this now, She was going to have to make friends with Women around her own age.
"I'm still in love with him, yes your right, and I didn't do it to hurt you, or any others,
I just needed friends, Maybe At First I did it to prove to myself that I could do without
him, and I think I still believe that since I've been without him this long, but I also know
I love him, But I still want to be your friend if you allow me to be" she answered with a
smile on her face.
Eric nodded his head, if he couldn't be more, then he'd settle for being her friend,
He couldn't imagine not being in her life.
"Okay, Let's get out of this park, and I'll take you home it's getting late"
"Okay Eric and thank you" She replied as they both headed towards his Red Sports Car.
The silence in the car was overwhelming, they didn't know what to say as they headed towards
Serena's apartment, and nothing was said until Eric parked outside her apartment.
"Thank you for this beautiful night Eric, I'm sorry It didn't turn out the way you would
have liked" Serena said feeling sorry for this wonderful man.
"Your welcome Serena, No need to be sorry, The one who needs to be sorry is the one who
left you two years ago, and I'm just sorry that you still love him and he obviously doesn't
care about the hurt he caused you, I so wish I was the one to take that all away" Eric
replied staring into Serena's blue eyes
"Thank you Eric, I wish you were to but I know one day, You'll find someone who is meant
for you only, and she's going to be so beautiful inside and out, you deserve the best, the
one who's heart only belongs to you, and I hope it's soon, I wish you only the best " Serena
exclaimed with a smile on her face, while the moonlight shone directly on her making her
look like a angel
"I hope so too, I wish you all the luck in the world, I hope you get the man of your dreams
Serena" Eric said while grabbing her hand, and kissing it lightly "Goodnight fair maiden"
Serena kissed his cheek "Thank you, Drive Safely" Serena replied with a smile on her face.
Eric smiled back and jumped in his car, he turned on the engine, gave a final wave and drove
off into the night. Serena watched for awhile until he was no longer in sight and walked
inside.
At the same moment, across the ocean, Darien realised he was going to win his soulmate back,
It was true what they said Absence did make the heart grow fonder.
He intended to go back To Japan, to be with her, he knew he made a mistake and couldn't live
without her anymore, he wanted to be back in her life and he didn't care if it was just
friends but he had to be with her, if he had to be her friend to get her back then he was
going to do that. Even if it killed him.
"Serena, I'm not running from you again, I'm only going to be running to you" Darien
whispered to himself as he stared out of his window. He was going to book a flight to Tokyo
tomorrow. Tomorrow he was leaving America for good to be with the love of his life.
And he vowed no matter what it took, he was going to tell her the truth of why he ran and it
was nothing to do with her, it was all his fault.
He wondered what she was doing, and if she had a new love interest, He hoped not, but he
couldn't blame the guy that she might be seeing, she was beautiful, in every sense.
He had to be honest, he never went out with any other girls, all the girls had flaunted
themselves in front of him, but he was never tempted, staying true to the love he held for
Serena, but why didn't that love for Serena stop him from running, and it occurred to him,
he was ashamed of himself, and he couldn't face the same look from her.
Serena looked up at the moon, and smiled, she might have set Darien free, but she was still
in love with Darien, but she wondered how true the saying "If you love someone, set them
free, if they come back to you it's meant to be" was.
If it were as true as people claimed, then one day maybe he would come back. And for the
first time in losing hope after setting Darien free, she felt her hope returning, maybe she
was wrong in giving up too soon, maybe she wasn't as stupid as she thought when he believed
he'd return.
But she wasn't going to hope too hard, just in case it never came to pass.
the sky was dark, no evidence to show it was indeed a sunny Day that morning.
Some people could say it was just an ordinary rainy night, true as it was,
it wasn't just a ordinary night for her, it was two years to the day that her happiness
was robbed from her, the same two years when her Soul mate, the love of her life
Walked out on her without a explanation.
The memory of that fateful night lingered freshly, she still harboured the same
feelings she had that night, she couldn't forget, it was etched so deeply in her mind.
Her mind flickered back to the event, which often saw her crying herself to sleep over.
FLASHBACK
Serena had just come home from work, she was tired, and all she wanted to do was to cuddle
up with her boyfriend of two years. She had missed him all day, and missed his voice.
He often called up every few hours just to tell her how much he loved her, but strangely
enough none came today, she shrugged her shoulders and thought nothing of it.
She called his name, each time earning her no reply, she listened intently to the sound
coming from their bedroom and went closer to Investigate, what she found shocked her.
In front of her, her very own eyes, There was Darien, Finishing packing
his suitcase. "Darien" She began not knowing what to say or do
"Serena, Your home, I thought I'd be gone by the time you got off from work"
"What's going on?" Serena asked trying to touch him, resulting in Darien withdrawing
from her touch. Serena felt hurt by the jerking motion, he never would have done that
ever and it bothered her."I'm leaving Serena, I've got to get away from here without you"
Darien answered sliding his hand over her cheeks
"Why? What can I say to make you stay?" Serena questioned on the verge of tears
"I'm afraid there's nothing anyone can say, I Love you and I always will, but
Now isn't the time to go further in our relationship, please don't ask why," Darien replied
kicking himself for causing the pain on her face.
"You have no idea how that sounds" Serena laughed bitterly, Darien looked over at the vase
of roses he got her a couple of days ago, where life was so much easier
"You say you love me, yet your leaving without me, that doesn't seem right, and I have a
right to know why your leaving" Serena stated looking also at the roses Darien had
given her two nights ago at the restaurant, the reddest roses she had ever seen.
"I know how pathetic it sounds but I promise you it's not meant to be like that, I haven't
got much time, I've got to get going… Remember I'll always love you, Goodbye" Darien
answered walking out the door not once looking back, Serena held herself back from stopping
him, she let him go, she'd have to watch him leave.
She slid down the wall after she shut the door and noted the sound of finality in the air
but she wouldn't believe it was over just like that.
Serena asked herself why she let him go she knew that in time Darien and her would be back together;
she knew that in her heart that belonged to him, he'd be back.
END FLASHBACK
Serena sighed. How stupid she was that night, thinking he'd return,
although one thing she could not deny was how much she missed him, she
missed him like hell. She let her eyes close for a second and reopened them a
second later and let the tears she was holding back escape her eyes, she had to let him go
for good.
Serena knew she should have let him go when he left, she even told Darien she'd set him free
but her heart never let her give up on him, always believing he'd return.
She wiped her tears away with her fingers, she was giving up the fantasy, Her heart agreed,
it too was giving up, no longer believing he'd return, The pain in her heart didn't
diminish, she didn't believe it would, but it lessened.
Serena whispered to herself "Darien I'm finally setting you free just like I should have a
long time ago" and she was starting to regret it.
Across the ocean, a young man, felt heartbroken and sad, he too missed someone, he missed a
girl with long silky blonde hair, the girl he once called his girlfriend, the one his heart
still belonged to, most of all the one he vowed never to hurt, yet two years ago did.
He still remembered how he felt that night, how cruel he must have sounded, but he did what
he felt was best, and he regretted every day he didn't have her beside him.
"Serena" The Man whispered as he looked up at the stars, wishing he could turn back time and
have things the way they were before "I wish I never hurt you Love, but there were some
things you wouldn't understand, things I wish never happened". The young man known to his
friends as Darien cried for the one person he hurt and betrayed his precious Serena.
Life soon got better for Serena, it took her a couple of months before she allowed herself to go on
dates with other men without feeling like she was betraying Darien, once again she found
herself thinking of him and shook her head she had to forget him, especially now she was on
a date with someone else.
Easy said then done she thought to herself, she was always comparing every man to Darien.
She looked at the man, who she had been going out with for the last month and a half, who
grabbed her hands.
"What's on your mind princess?" Asked the man who sat directly in front of her.
Serena looked at him, He was six foot, and had black hair, yet not the jet black colour that
Darien's hair was, he didn't even have the same colour blue in his eyes that Darien had
Serena sighed, why was she comparing this man to Darien, the man that left her without a
explanation.
"Nothing much, just stuff that shouldn't be on my mind Eric" Serena answered her date with a
forced smile, one that wouldn't have worked with Darien. Eric let his fingers caress her
cheek "Anything I can help with?" He asked hoping she'd tell him what was on her mind.
"Not really, I'm sorry but I have to deal with this on my own, Please Understand" Serena
replied, Serena lightly took his hand away from her cheek, so his fingers would stop
caressing her cheek, she didn't mind the light stroking on her cheek, just didn't like being
reminded of all the times Darien would do it and she hated someone else other then him doing
it.
"I understand Serena, I wish you'd trust me enough to let me help you, we've been going out
for a month and a half, but I'll let you work it out first, I just want you to Know I'll
always be there for you and That I love you" He stated honestly
Serena sighed and looked him in the eyes, and she noticed that he indeed loved her, and as
much as she tried to love him back she couldn't and it hurt her deeply, that she had to tell
him that She had only loved one man despite how much she hated him, and he wasn't that man,
how could she tell Eric she could only see them as friends when he just admitted that he
loved her and she had to tell him now and not lead him on anymore then she already had.
"Eric, We need to talk" Serena told Eric wondering how she was going to phrase the wording.
"What about?" Eric questioned as he took his gaze away from the beautiful sunset and focused
only on her.
Serena looked towards the sky that was a beautiful orange and yellow colour, she loved
sunsets, maybe cause the first ever sighting of a sunset was magic and that first time was
with Darien and she smiled slightly at the memory.
Serena looked back at Eric, her face devoid of any emotion and tried to find the right
words. The main thing she had to remember was to be honest no matter what.
"I don't think this relationship is working, I don't feel anything for you, I've tried to
love you, but nothing has come from it, I'm so sorry, You're a good guy, and I'm sorry for
hurting you but I can't help the way I feel"
"But I just told you that I loved you, how could you just dump this on me after all I said?
He questioned, feeling hurt and betrayed, he couldn't believe this, he loved her and she
didn't love him back, that hurt, not even a ton of bricks could hurt him this much.
"It wouldn't have mattered when I told you how I felt, It would have had the same effect,I
don't why I never told you before, I suppose it was because I didn't think you saw me as
anymore then a friend, or maybe I hoped you didn't, I only thought of you as a friend and
hoped you did, I had to tell you before you expected more of me that I was willing to give"
She answered honestly while looking at the stars and how they shone brightly.
"I just don't understand how you could do this, how would you feel if someone did this to
you? You can't possibly know how I feel" Eric exclaimed
"Don't I?" Serena asked angry, if only he knew the truth, he couldn't come close to what she
was feeling, or had been feeling for these last two years
"I had someone do this to me two years ago, It hurts, That's why I only wanted to be your
friend, I didn't want to have to do this, I didn't think I ever had to, I'm sorry it had to
be done but I couldn't face causing you the pain I'm feeling now, At least I'm here giving
you a explanation, I never got one, So let me assure you, I wouldn't want to bestow this
pain even on my worst enemy." Serena finished
"So your doing the same thing to me as he did to you two years ago, that just seems like you
trying to get back at him, and it sounds so childish!" Eric mumbled
"How can you say that? Didn't you hear anything I said?. I never wanted anyone to feel like
I am, but you presume that I'm doing this to hurt you, I'm sorry I can't return your
feelings, I have to remain true to myself, I could have easily pretended I loved you, would
you have preferred that and end up hurting you even more" Serena replied and noted the
defeated look on his face, "I didn't think so" Serena sighed
"I understand where your coming from, I'm sorry for what I said, but I'm can't help but feel
like I've been used, You obviously still love the guy who broke your heart and you still
went out with me And I just can't work out why?"
Serena sighed, he had a point, She should have stopped that when she realised she couldn't
stop Loving Darien, she should have stopped seeing Other guys, to spare them the grief
She had known for awhile that she couldn't get over Darien but she didn't do it to get over
Darien, she needed friends, maybe it was stupid to make friends with single guys, but she
knew this now, She was going to have to make friends with Women around her own age.
"I'm still in love with him, yes your right, and I didn't do it to hurt you, or any others,
I just needed friends, Maybe At First I did it to prove to myself that I could do without
him, and I think I still believe that since I've been without him this long, but I also know
I love him, But I still want to be your friend if you allow me to be" she answered with a
smile on her face.
Eric nodded his head, if he couldn't be more, then he'd settle for being her friend,
He couldn't imagine not being in her life.
"Okay, Let's get out of this park, and I'll take you home it's getting late"
"Okay Eric and thank you" She replied as they both headed towards his Red Sports Car.
The silence in the car was overwhelming, they didn't know what to say as they headed towards
Serena's apartment, and nothing was said until Eric parked outside her apartment.
"Thank you for this beautiful night Eric, I'm sorry It didn't turn out the way you would
have liked" Serena said feeling sorry for this wonderful man.
"Your welcome Serena, No need to be sorry, The one who needs to be sorry is the one who
left you two years ago, and I'm just sorry that you still love him and he obviously doesn't
care about the hurt he caused you, I so wish I was the one to take that all away" Eric
replied staring into Serena's blue eyes
"Thank you Eric, I wish you were to but I know one day, You'll find someone who is meant
for you only, and she's going to be so beautiful inside and out, you deserve the best, the
one who's heart only belongs to you, and I hope it's soon, I wish you only the best " Serena
exclaimed with a smile on her face, while the moonlight shone directly on her making her
look like a angel
"I hope so too, I wish you all the luck in the world, I hope you get the man of your dreams
Serena" Eric said while grabbing her hand, and kissing it lightly "Goodnight fair maiden"
Serena kissed his cheek "Thank you, Drive Safely" Serena replied with a smile on her face.
Eric smiled back and jumped in his car, he turned on the engine, gave a final wave and drove
off into the night. Serena watched for awhile until he was no longer in sight and walked
inside.
At the same moment, across the ocean, Darien realised he was going to win his soulmate back,
It was true what they said Absence did make the heart grow fonder.
He intended to go back To Japan, to be with her, he knew he made a mistake and couldn't live
without her anymore, he wanted to be back in her life and he didn't care if it was just
friends but he had to be with her, if he had to be her friend to get her back then he was
going to do that. Even if it killed him.
"Serena, I'm not running from you again, I'm only going to be running to you" Darien
whispered to himself as he stared out of his window. He was going to book a flight to Tokyo
tomorrow. Tomorrow he was leaving America for good to be with the love of his life.
And he vowed no matter what it took, he was going to tell her the truth of why he ran and it
was nothing to do with her, it was all his fault.
He wondered what she was doing, and if she had a new love interest, He hoped not, but he
couldn't blame the guy that she might be seeing, she was beautiful, in every sense.
He had to be honest, he never went out with any other girls, all the girls had flaunted
themselves in front of him, but he was never tempted, staying true to the love he held for
Serena, but why didn't that love for Serena stop him from running, and it occurred to him,
he was ashamed of himself, and he couldn't face the same look from her.
Serena looked up at the moon, and smiled, she might have set Darien free, but she was still
in love with Darien, but she wondered how true the saying "If you love someone, set them
free, if they come back to you it's meant to be" was.
If it were as true as people claimed, then one day maybe he would come back. And for the
first time in losing hope after setting Darien free, she felt her hope returning, maybe she
was wrong in giving up too soon, maybe she wasn't as stupid as she thought when he believed
he'd return.
But she wasn't going to hope too hard, just in case it never came to pass.
