Series Title: The Bryan Adams Series
Title: Ain't Gonna Cry
Author: ANNE (the insane one)
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: Scuba Doobie Doo
Summary: Say bye-bye to Paul Newsome everyone…he's outta here!
Disclaimer: Characters et al belong to the people that make CSI. "Ain't Gonna Cry" belongs to Bryan Adams
Cath's POV
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Well I hardly knew ya baby
And you were comin' on
Mama told me there'd be days like these
I shoulda known better maybe
Woulda seen right through ya
I needed you like a disease
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Well, it's over. I knew it had to end eventually, but I always expected it to be easier than this.
I wasn't in love with Paul, and he knew it. Perhaps that was why it was so painful today the way he spoke.
I've always attempted to never be used. Ever since Eddie, I've always tried to keep away from relationships like that.
And after what Paul said to me today…I realised I had been doing it myself. To him.
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I ain't gonna cry over you
You're a mystery
I ain't gonna cry over you
You're history - history
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It's not fair for me to be upset over this. Not after the way I treated him.
I wanted sex. He wanted more.
I can't give more. Not now.
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You said you'd wait forever
But I know your type
The lights are on but no-one's home
I changed my number maybe
You better change your mind
Cause I'd rather spend the night alone
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I wonder if being with Eddie has given me a mark. A mark I can't erase. A mark that makes me shy away from being with someone fully.
But it's not Eddie's fault. And it's not Gil's.
It's mine.
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I ain't gonna cry over you
You're a mystery
I ain't gonna cry over you
You're history - history
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I know what I want but I'm too afraid to go and get it.
I know what I desire with every fibre of my being…and still I'm too scared to go and get it.
And when I'm all alone, lying in the dark, trying to sleep, then I'll think of my best friend, and how much I want with him.
And I'll cry.
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I ain't gonna cry over you
You're a misery
I ain't gonna cry over you
You're history
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FINIS
