Hello all. This is what I'm going to call my emo fic. I usually don't write such depressing and angsty stories. Who knows this could start a trend. Anyways this will contain lots of bad stuff such as: Swearing, abuse (in relationships and child abuse), and rape. I encourage those who have issues with any of the aforementioned or guy x guy loving to leave now. You have been warned!
Pairings include: Terra x Ventus (main)
Axel x Roxas
Riku x Sora
Cloud x Leon
Zexion x Demyx (not much here but a little)
Disclaimer: IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN! I can wish and dream all I want. I will never own Kingdom Hearts (whether that be 1,2, Chain of Memories, 358/2 days, Coded, Birth By sleep, or any others that come out!)
Warning with this chapter: I'm showing why this is M right of the bat. Lots of bad stuff in here. If you have any problems with the things warned above i say do not read on. This chapter contains at least hints of all of the above warned.
A/N: Just wanted to let any one who reads this know. This is my secondary project. It will be updated when I feel like writing it. I love this fic. and I promise it will be done. It just might take a while. A long while. This will become my primary when I finish my other story(A Pirates Life of Me) which is currently on a short break due to slight writers block. That block mostly due to this fic not leaving me alone! So here this is.
Chapter 1 Ventus's P.O.V.
I heard the screams of pain coming from the basemen. He was at it again. Roxas would come crying to me later. I wish I could help him. I really do. I tried once… that was when it first started. Our "father" only wants Roxas it seems. Well right now. At first he had used Sora too. They use to be so innocent… I guess I was at one point too. Before all this shit happened. What you ask. Let me list them: My father was killed in a car crash, My mom remarried that bastard (Ansem), Said bastard abuses my youngest brother (by 5 minuets), my older brother (by 8 minuets) is in an abusive relationship, and my two eldest brothers are in the war. My life sucks.
The door opened and the battered from of my brother, Roxas, appears. He's bleeding again. I stand in and rush to his side. He's gotten so thin. If only I could do something. Anything! Last time I tried I was sent to juvie. Yeah I was arrested. I called the police on Ansem when I walked in on him raping Sora. He somehow won the court case and is still here. So I tried to kill him when he went for Rox. Bad move. I guess I just gave up. Well after Roxas and Sora begged me to stop. They wanted me here. I was away for too long in seems. By the time I came back Sora was dating Seifer. How he got into that relationship I will never know. And Rox… Ansem had gotten worse. Rox use to be so smart and talented. Kind and happy. Like Sora. Ansem had broken him.
I set Roxas on the bed and grab the bandages from the bathroom. He's crying as I bandage him. He always cries now. I wish I could see him smile just once more. I tie the last of the bandages around his thin waste and pull the covers over him. I hope Sora gets home tonight.
"Ven?" Roxas asks shakily.
"What's wrong Rox? You need sleep," I purr running pale fingers through his limp blond spikes.
He use to take such good care of his hair. He would only let Sora, Cloud, Sephiroth, or I touch it. And the color. How dull it has gotten like the rest of him. That bright honey color is gone replaced by a pale yellow. His sapphire eyes dulled to a mute ice blue. It's really hard. He was a sickly child because he was the runt. Mom use to keep us separate so Sora and I would not catch anything. I remember when he would recover from a sickness and come and play with use. Use being Sora and I sometimes our closest friends. It seems so long ago. Those carefree days.
I snap back into my reality when he reaches up and gently places a hand on my check "Thank you," he whispers before letting sleep over come him.
I watch him for a good half hour before getting up and going to wait for Sora. All I could hope was that he was coming home tonight. I grabbed my cell phone from my nightstand. I really should not say anything in my room belongs to me. Even the room. I share it with my triplets. Yeah were triplets if you have not figured that out by know. Sora's the eldest then me followed very closely by Roxas. Anyways, I creep downstairs so Ansem does not find me. I wish mom were here. She would keep him busy. Yeah, she was always on business trips. I mean always. Ansem was on his best behavior when she is here. Those are the only times poor Roxas gets a break. I hear him in the kitchen talking on the phone. Probably his drug dealer. I poke my head into the kitchen in hopes I could sneak passed to the front door. No such luck. He was staring right at me. He mutter a quick call you later before angrily turning the phone off and storming over to me. I know by know not to run.
"What are you up to Ventus?" He questioned with a sickeningly sweet voice and arms crossed over his chest.
"I just wanted some fresh air," I growled.
"Going to try the police again!" He snarled grabbing my blond spikes and throwing me into the kitchen counter. I fall to the ground rubbing my head to stop the pain.
By the way did I mention I'm like Roxas's identical triplet? Yeah I am. Can't tell us apart just by looking. Unless you really know us. Then you can. Why do I tell you this now? Because of what my stepfather does next.
He stood over me glaring down at me for a few seconds before grabbing my hair again and dragging me down to the basement. You never want to end up in that basement. It meant you were in deep shit. I always feel so bad for Rox. He is down here almost every day. This is where Ansem misuses him. Whenever I'm down here it is usually a beating. Unless he's to drunk to know I'm Ven not Rox. Sometimes he even knows which one I am and then forgets. That would be what is happening.
He throws me on the couch down there. I lay quietly in hopes of him being gentle if I don't struggle and just submit. He grabs something from a near by table and comes over to me. I try not to stiffen as I see the whip in his hands.
"Shirt off!" he roars.
He still knows which I am at this point. I think. Who really knows with him? I pulled my black shirt off and threw it aside and lay back down. I'm so pathetic. I felt the whip come down on my scared back. I grunt slightly at the stinging sensation. Soon enough the only sound I hear in the leather hitting my back. I got lucky with the beating though. It was quick and almost painless. I say painless because I'm not bleeding. Yet.
I don't move as he throws the whip across the room. I've learned by know. I still am never ready when he attaches his lips to mine. He forgot who I was by then. To him I'm Roxas now. His plaything. As I think that I shudder. It's true though. Roxas gave up long ago. In many ways he is worse off then I am. He's broken. I hate thinking about it. About how that bastard trained my poor brother. All the beatings all the blood. Rox can't even think for himself anymore. He use to be so smart. The best grades. He was even given the opportunity to skip middle school. He refused because he wanted to stay with us and not rush his childhood. That's all gone now. He's still book smart but refuses to show it save tests. Why? Because of Ansem. Rox gave up on life years ago. Back to reality.
I hold back the vomit as his tongue invades my mouth. I have to remind myself not to bite him. It will be quicker and easier that way. I lay on the couch limply letting his hands wander and his tongue rape my mouth. I felt him unbutton my jeans and had to remind myself not to kick at him. My zipper when down. I felt disgusted with myself. I one swift motion he pulled my jeans and boxers off. I was completely exposed to him.
'Remain calm Ven, Remain calm…" I chanted over and over in my head.
He pulled away from me and removed his own cloths, "Were going to have some fun tonight Roxas. Aren't we?" He cooed laying over me.
I could not speak for fear of my tongue betraying me so I nodded weakly. He chuckled and sat down on the leather seat across the room. I heard him snap and I knew what it meant. How? Because Ansem had done this to me many times and if I didn't learn his cues he would beat Rox for it later. So I stood on shaky legs and made my way over to him. I dropped to my knees and with a bit of mental preparation I wrapped my lips around his shaft. Could I be anymore pathetic?
'It's all for Rox. He doesn't need any more of this shit. Your doing this for Rox…' I chanted taking more of this cock in my mouth.
Soon enough he came and I made sure to swallow. Then he pulled me onto his lap and with no warning, no preparation, and no nothing pushed into my small body. I bit back the scream that wanted to come out so badly. I will not wake Roxas because of him. I stop my self from glaring daggers at him. I cam feel the blood trickling down my thighs. My blood. I remind my self of Roxas and Sora.
'They need me. Don't do anything stupid. Just relax and let it happen. Don't fight. Don't fight…'
And he is moving. I can taste the blood in my mouth from the force of my teeth as I hold in all the screams of pain. He's moaning. I'm disgusted. This seemed to go on forever. I mean forever. Finally he came into me. Filling me. It stings against the torn flesh. He pulls out and throws me on the ground where he leaves to go back upstairs. I lie there and listen for a while. I hear him go upstairs and into his own room. I was safe. For now.
I finally sit up wincing at the pain in my lower back and ass. I fight through it and get my cloths on. I limp back upstairs and outside into the warm summer air. School would be starting in about a week. Our only place of solitude. We get to see our friends and everything. I really cannot wait. I'm pretty much confined to the house so I can take care of Roxas and Sora. I need to be there at all times. If I'm not I can only imagine.
I pull my cell phone out as I sit on the front steps. I flinch as I sit but it hurt less than standing. My body throbs as a constant reminder of what just occurred. I wipe angry tears from eyes. Why use. Just why. What did we do to deserve this? I always ask myself that. Always. I can never come up with anything. Especially for Rox and Sora. I was the problem child to curious for my own good. Roxas and Sora were angels. Roxas was shy and soft spoken and beautiful. Everyone had a crush on him at school. He was a great singer. I have not heard him sing in years. And he had such pure dreams for the future. He wanted to be a teacher. He wanted to have a small family with his husband. Yeah Rox is defiantly gay. He's pretty much always known too. I always thought it was beautiful how he pleaded to save himself for his true love. Ansem destroyed all of it. And Sora. He was the light of every ones life. He was hyper and happy all the time. Just looking at him made you smile. And so cute. He was a dancer. So talented. He always made the most out of every day. He was the peacekeeper between us. Ansem wrecked all of us. Sora now… it hurts to think about it. He got together with Seifer a few months after Ansem. Just after I went to juvie. When I came back he had started cutting himself and was on drugs. I've been able to help him a lot. His cutting is slowly deceasing and he only uses cigarettes now. But that is only half of it. Seifer was abusing him. Not as bad as Ansem does Roxas but still bad.
"It's just not fair!" I scream into the night sky pounding my fist into the concrete steps.
I finally calm down and remember what I was going to do before Ansem got a hold of me. I dial Sora's cell. I hope he picks up. It rings five times before Sora's chipper voice answers.
"Hey Ven!" He calls.
Just from that I can tell he's okay. Thank the lord!
"Hey yourself," I flinch at the hoarseness of my voice.
"Ven you okay?" Sora asks concern laced in his voice.
"Fine," I chuckle.
"No your not! What happened? Never mind. You won't tell me. I'm on my way home. I'll be there in ten".
"Kay. See ya soon," I sigh and hang up.
He would grill me when he got here. I lean back and look up at the clear blue night sky. The stars were bright tonight. So free. If only I could be that way. Hell if Sora or Roxas could be free again I would be happy. I sat there watching them until I heard a car pull into our driveway. I look over at it as Sora hops out. Demyx rolls down his window and waves at me. Thank the lord he was not with Seifer. I had tried many times to get Sora to break up with Seifer. He just won't. Demyx drives away as my eldest triple comes to stand in front of me.
"What happened? You look like shit. Did Ansem find you doing something bad again? Did you threaten him?" Sora growls sitting down next to me.
I sigh and tell him what happened. He listens quietly glaring at the sidewalk. I finish and look back at the sky.
"You or Rox need to dye your hair," Sora sighed.
"Not going to happen. I like my blond thank you very much," I joke.
Sora sighs and nods understanding. He watches the sky with me for a few minuets.
"I can't stand this shit any more," He grumbled reaching fro the cigarettes in his pocket.
I don't stop him as he lights one and takes a long drag from it.
"Just keep those away from Rox please," I mutter.
"Yes mom," Sora grumbles.
I know he knows I just feel I have to remind. Roxas has a slight allergy to cigarette smoke. We sit is silence the smell of the smoke all around us. Sora finally puts out the cancer stick and looks over at me. I raise and eye brow at him and he smirks.
"What?" I ask.
"You look like shit".
"I know," I groan.
He chuckles softly. A real chuckle. It brightens up my entire day. I smile and watch as he breaks into a fit of giggles. I had no clue what was so funny but at least he was laughing. He stops to soon for my taste and leans back on the steps hands thrown behind his head.
"Our lives are really mess up you know," he sighs.
"Yeah."
"How's Rox tonight. Did you take if for him or did he get it first?"
"He got it first. He's asleep in our room. He was bleeding again."
Sora suddenly stood with yet another sigh. We do that a lot. Can you blame us? He offered me a hand. I look at him dumbly.
"Come on let's get you inside and cleaned up," He said with a soft smile.
I nodded and took his hand. He helped me up slowly. I flinched when I was finally on to feet. He draped my right arm around his shoulders and used his left hand to hold me by the waist. I put almost all my weight on him due to the pain.
"You're heavy. Did you know that," He muttered adjusting his position.
"Really? I had no clue," I whispered nudging him playfully.
Sora helped me inside and upstairs and back to our room. Roxas stirs but does not wake when the door closes behind us. Sora cleans me up and curls up next to me. No words are spoken. We're both tired. I glance at the clock and see it reads 1:59am. Ansem makes sure were up and 6 sharp. I need to sleep more. Tomorrows Monday though so he has work. I'll just go back to sleep then. With that I wrap Sora in my arms and let sleep take over. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Yeah! longest chapter I've written. And this is the introduction. So much more to come. Anyways, hope you liked. My poor Ven/Roxas/Sora. I feel really bad right now. Anyways if any of you are wondering why I picked Ansem and not Xemnas it is because I like Xemnas too much to use him as the bad guy here. Ansem creeps me out. He seems more like the guy to do this than Xemnas in my opinion. So know you ask why Roxas is the one dealing with Ansem's pedophileness and Sora is in a bad relation with Seifer. Well that will be explained. I promise. I hit on it here but not much.
