Disclaimer: I don't own Rizzoli & Isles. They are owned Janet Tamaro, TNT and whomever else, but not me. No infringement intended.
A/N: This is my first fanfic ever, any review would be greatly appreciated.
Jane had no idea what the movie they were watching was about. She simply couldn't relax. "I like Tommy. A lot". Those words have been playing over and over in her head. The only reason they're not together right now is cause I'm a selfish little bi… "I don't wonna be what holds you back". She finally spat out, turning to look at an incredulous Maura.
"What do you mean? You're not holding me back from anything, well except maybe changing the channel to something a little more realistic." Maura answered, pointing to the television screen.
"What? No. I mean about Tommy. If you like him so much… I… I don't wonna stop you." Even as the words were coming out of her mouth she couldn't believe them. She wanted Maura to be happy. No doubt about that, but why did it have to be Tommy. Her own brother. She'd have to see them together in family dinners. He would want to talk to her every time he and Maura would have a fight. Frankly it would probably be too much for her to handle. But she couldn't stop Maura from being happy. And if Tommy is what would make her happy, so be it. And why should it be difficult anyway? She's her friend, there shouldn't be anything awkward about it.
"Jane, I'm not going out with him." Maura answered determinately.
"Why not?" what was she doing. Maura said no. twice. Why was she pushing this?
"I told you why. I like your brother, I really do, but I will not compromise our friendship". The honey-blond was a little confused. Jane was the one who asked her not to sleep with Tommy to begin with. Did she really not care? Maura was just starting to believe there was a chance for her and Jane, but if Jane was willing to have the M.E. date her brother, she couln't possible feel the same.
"It won't. I won't let it. You should be happy… Is it because he's an ex-con …" The detective inquired.
"I thought you said you didn't want me to go out with him…"
"I've seen the way he looks at you. And if you like him that much… Well… If he can make you happy, that's…"
"He can't. Now, can we please go back to watching the movie? Though it is utterly unrealistic, I really would like to know how it ends." The honey blond replied hurriedly and turned her head away. This conversation was getting quite painful.
"Why? What's gotten into you, Maur? Just… just tell me why Tommy can't make you happy. Is it the blue collar thing?" Jane was getting a little irritated at this point. Maura obviously had something against her brother and she was once again holding something back from her.
"No it's not a… How could you even say that to me?" The M.E. was rather hurt by the assumption. But mostly by the fact Jane seemed to actually want her to date Tommy.
"then what?"
"I'm not in love with him." It was the truth. She wasn't. She couldn't say that was exactly what was stopping her though.
"So…? You're never in love when you just start dating someone". Jane wasn't about to let this go.
"He is your brother."
"Again... So. Why would that bother you?"
Maura knew she was treading on dangerous grounds. A single word too much might end their friendship. If Jane knew how she felt, she won't be able to handle it and everything would change. She couldn't lie. So she had to play around it. "Jane, there are countless reasons why a person shouldn't date their best friends' brother. What happens when the couple fights?"
But Jane wasn't having any of it. She knew the M.E.'s ways to avoid a question. This was defiantly it. "You know I'd always pick your side over Tommy's. I asked, what your problem is with dating my brother, not what problems could come up for other couples…" What was Maura hiding from her? Again.
"Jane. Please. I'm begging you. Let this go." The honey-blonde's voice was so low and defeated and was barely a whisper.
"No. You know, any other day I probably would've, but after everything that's happened today. I think I need to know why Tommy's not good enough for you".
"Cause he's not his sister. Alright?" Maura immediately put her hand where her mouth was, trying to pull the words back inside.
"No. Wait what? What does that have to do with anything?"
"I'm sorry Jane. I really shouldn't have said anything. I'm…" Maura got up to leave, she was on her way away from the couch when Jane grabbed her wrist.
"I'll see you tomorrow" The honey-blond said with a smile that didn't quite reach her eyes, pulling her hand away from Jane's grasp she walked away.
The detective just set there as the front door to her apartment opened and shut. he's not his sister. She probably would have shaked it off, pretended those word didn't mean what they obviously meant, had Maura not freaked out from saying them. She was a detective for Christ's sake. She knew what it meant, didn't she? But how long has this been going on? How deep is it? When the fuck did this happen?
TBC
