Summary: While looking cleaning out his boyfriend Kai's room (against Kai's wishes) Rei finds some old diaries. He finds horrors within. Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade. If I did Max wouldn't have freckles and you would know where the hell Kenny's eyes are. Warnings: Yaoi. Bad words. Abuse and other things like that. Date: Sometime in 2003 "."=speech '.'=thought /./=diary entry

Dark Diaries

Rei's POV

Rei walked into Kai's bedroom. "What a mess." He said. It wasn't really too bad it's just there was a lot of dirty clothes littering the floor and crap like that. Kai had claimed that he knew where everything thing was in his room. To clean it he wouldn't be able to find anything. Rei had just snorted at his comments said he was lazy and left it at that. That's why he had planned this secret clean up job while Kai was away at work. Rei had threatened to do it for awhile but Kai had passed it off as a false threat.

Kai now lived with his love Rei. After turning 18 there wasn't anything that his Grandfather Hiwatari could really do to keep his grandson with him. But he didn't really want to keep him around. Kai was getting very rebellious and hard to control. He was an older man now not suited for the things he used to do and he was also becoming sick. Kai had known but had not cared as Hiwatari had not cared when he became sick with child illness. In fact, he hoped the man rotted in his bed for treating him as a puppet for so many years.

Kai had then gained an apartment with Rei. With their two salaries they were able to keep it and buy food and other things needed. They were a great couple and hardly ever fought. It was strange that their extremely different personalities would end up in love. Rei looked around and wondered where to begin. Might as well grab the clothes and trash from the floor he decided and started throwing clothes into the hamper and trash in the bin. When finished the room looked a lot better. But it wasn't finished. He started to pick up junk that Kai had left amongst the floor.

When finished with that he stared at the room. "Perfect." It looked better than ever. He then realized something. There was more trash and clothes and junk under his bed. Rei groaned loudly and got on his stomach and started to pull things out. When he got a good enough pile he would put it in the bin, hamper, someplace amongst the room, or if he wasn't sure in a save for later pile that Kai could pick through when he got home.

He was about in the middle under the bed when he pulled out a small black leather truck. It wasn't locked and Rei wondered what it was. He looked around himself as if he was expecting Kai to jump out and say I caught you. When he didn't he thought, 'Just a peek. A peek won't hurt anything.' He then opened the truck to find a small gray koala bear and a stack of diaries. He picked up the small stuffed animal and held it in his hands. The thing had a missing eye and had two shreds threw it as if someone had taken a knife to it.

He placed it beside him and then took out the diaries. Each one had on the front in black marker Property of Kai. Each had a date upon the front and they were stacked in oldest to youngest written form. He picked up the top one and opened it to the first.

/October 31st 1990.
Hooray I'm 7 years old today. My mommy and daddy got me a dairy and small kola bear for my birthday. It's so cute. Mommy says I should write in it every day. This way I can remember what's happened to me. Just write what happened that day she said. Especially if something important happens. Well I'm going to go outside and play. Bye, bye./

'How cute. He kept diaries.' He flipped to another page and started to read.

/December 8th 1990.
Mommy isn't feeling to well. Daddy said that she's sick. He took her to the doctor and he said she had to stay for awhile. I haven't been able to see her today. Daddy said tomorrow I can. He said I can bring her some flowers and I can tell her to get better quick. But daddy seems so sad. I don't understand why. I went downstairs when I heard some noise. I peeked into mommy and daddy's bedroom and there was daddy sitting on his bed crying. I went in and asked him why he was crying. All he said was for me to go back to bed. I'm tired now I think I better go to sleep. Bye, bye./

Rei flipped to the next page. The page was had crinkles on it and some of the writing was smudged as if it had gotten wet.

/January 10th 1991.
Mommy has died. I'm not exactly sure what the means. Daddy said that it's where people go to a sleep where they will never ever wake up. He dressed me up in a black suit and took me to what he called a funeral home. He said that we needed to go to her funeral to pay last respects. I'm not sure what all happened but I do remember a big brown box being put in the ground. I'm going to sleep. Bye, bye./

'His father knew his wife was going to die didn't he? Poor Kai.' Rei thought as he flipped for another page.

/ April 10th 1991.
Nanny came to me today and said my daddy was dead too. Said it was grief that took him but I don't know what that means. I didn't cry when I heard like I did mommy. I just sat there. Nanny has been up trying to get me to talk or to eat but I don't feel like it. Who's going to tuck me in bed tonight? Or ever again. I want my mommy. I want my daddy. I was alone now. Did mommy and daddy not like me? I don't know. Bye, bye./

'Kai lost both his parents. One not too long after the other. That's terrible.' Rei flipped again.

/May 2nd 1991.
I've been living with nanny since daddy died. She said my parents didn't have a will so they have to decide who gets to be my new guardian. Nanny said that my grandfather is probably who I'm going to go live with. I had never met my grandfather. I wonder what he is like. Mommy and daddy had never mentioned them. Nanny said that it shouldn't be too much longer. She got me a new diary today because I've almost filled this one up. Now nanny has told me to go to bed. Bye, bye./

There wasn't anything left important in that book. He grabbed the next one.

/May 27th 1991.
Nanny was right I've been brought to live with grandfather. I haven't actually seen him yet all I've seen is a man called Peadmont. He's been showing me around since I came here. He made me a dinner and sent me to bed but he didn't tuck me in. I'm sitting here with my koala bear. Well I better go to bed now. Tomorrow I get to meet grandfather. Bye, bye./

'Bet that went over well.' Rei thought and turned to the very next page.

/May 28th 1991.
I hate grandfather. I was holding my koala when I met him. He said that stuffed animals were for childish little girls. I said I didn't care mommy gave this to me. He told me to give it too him. When I didn't he grabbed it away from me and took it into another room and told me not to move. He came back and gave the koala bear back with two cuts in it. He dropped it on the floor and left. I loved my koala and now it's destroyed. Bye, bye./

Rei flipped through he books until Kai was 9. Nothing really happened except his grandfather's unkind words. A sickness that only Peadmont helped him through and nothing much else. Until.

/October 31st 1993.
Grandfather hurt me today. He made me bleed. He cut up my back with a knife. He found a blank diary that Peadmont gave me and burned it. He told me to stop writing in diaries. He said if I didn't throw them away he would use them to light his fire in his study. Peadmont gave me a black trunk to put them in to hide. He said to be careful and to never write in a diary ever again. So this is my entry. Bye, Bye./

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Kai said behind him with a smirk. He then noticed what was in my hand and stared at me mouth agape. He came to me and fell to his knees. "You weren't meant to read these." He said to me.
"I kind of figured that."
"How far did you read?" He asked taking the book.
"I read different parts. It's all very sad Kai. I wish I could have been there for you." I reached out a hand to caress his face but he pulled away.
"It's nothing." He said shrugging. But his cool tone didn't cover up the tear starting down his face. I placed a hand beneath his chin and made him look to me. I kissed the tear away tasting the saltiness of it.
"No, it's not nothing. It's a part of you and I want to know everything about you." I gave him a small kiss on the lips. He then broke down from my kind words and leaned in to place his head on my shoulder. I wrapped my arms around him and he wrapped his around me. "I love you Kai. I want to help you to feel again. So you aren't so lonely. I want to make whatever happened to you back then not hurt you. I love you Kai and I want to protect you." It was a step for him and for me. Now we are on our way to understanding each other. We were going to be just fine.

Well what did you think? Intended to be a one shot but I might expand if I get enough reviews that want me to. I hope you enjoyed reading it as I enjoyed writing it. R/R please. Bye bye and thanks for reading.
Screamarie.