For Me, This is Heaven
Disclaimer & Author's Note: I do not own the characters, plot, or anything of Spirited Away. I also don't own the song used in the story, which is, 'For Me, This is Heaven' by Jimmy Eat World. Lyrics to the song are surrounded in *'s. -- This is my first Spirited Away fic, I hope it's good, and I hope you all like it. ^.^ R&R, please!
Summary: Four years after Chihiro left the Spirit world. Haku has not returned to her, and she has been in the human world all the time. Until...
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Gasps and shouts of joy emerged from every corner of the Bath House. The exciting news was here and there, almost everyone had heard it by now. Such joy.. such celebration.
Haku's eyes peered around, watching the dancing, seeing the happy smiles on everyone's faces. It was too much. He had to get away. As quickly as his feet could take him, he rushed to the elevator, which was completely free. He pulled the lever on his side and watched out the window, seeing everyone on each floor dancing around in excitement. The elevator stopped at one floor, and he raced out, dodging the many joyful figures, and ducking into a corner room.
He looked around to make sure he was the only one in the small, dark room. He dropped to his knees, and stared at the floor.
-- Haku's POV --
It's been.. a long time.
Four years, Chihiro, since we've last seen each other, almost to the date. I can remember that last time we saw each other, as though it happened yesterday.
But it's still been a very long time. It's been too long, Chihiro.
* The first star I see
may not be a star.
We can't do a thing but wait,
so let's wait for one more. *
All I've been doing is waiting. I was waiting for something to happen so that I could get out of here, and get to you, safely. If I step past those rocks, where the river would be, I don't know what would happen to me.
I was just a river outside of this world. I all ever did was flow on, until you came along. Then I saved you.
Chihiro, I remember it so well.
So, I don't leave this place. I fear that if I do leave, I will truly never see you again. If I stay here, maybe I'm a little safer. But I still can't see you, Chihiro.
I just can't see you. But I want to, so much.
* The time such clumsy time
in deciding if it's time.
I'm careful, but not sure how it goes.
You can lose yourself in your courage. *
I visit it so many times when it is day, staring at those rocks. I just stood there, wondering if I should really do it, if I should really work up that courage and step across.
But I don't want to lose you, hoping that I haven't lost you already.
Oh, Chihiro, how I hate it. I hate being away from you. You were the one that saved me from Ubaba, you were the one who finally brought change from this boring routine.
I finally realized it, years after. You are the one I love.
Chihiro, you've always been.
* When the time we have now ends,
When the big hand goes 'round again,
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight? *
-- Out of Haku's POV --
Swift feet rushed down the hall, almost as though the speed at which they traveled made all the difference in the world. And in a way, it did.
An excited grin spread over Lin's face, even with her eyes narrowed and determined. Her heart was pounding wildly as she rushed down the hall, carelessly dodging through the excited figures.
She HAD to find him. He HAD to know about this.
"Where is he?"
Lin stopped at a corner room, and examined the doorway carefully. With a nod of approval, she decided she'd take a chance and see if this was the right one. It was either that he would be in there, or no one would be in there, or someone would be in there and she would get in some serious trouble.
But it was time to get brave.
Lin opened the doorway and peered inside. She let out a sigh of relief.
"Haku! There you are! I've been looking everywhere for you!"
Two dark eyes peered up at Lin, and she bit her lip.
"Something wrong?"
Haku's gaze retreated to the floor again.
"Argh, this again. Well, I've come here to actually tell you something, though I'd be surprised if you haven't heard it already."
* And the mindless comfort grows
when I'm alone with my great plans.
This is what she says gets her through it.
"If I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"
If not now? *
"Sen is back!"
Silence.
"Didn't you hear me, I said Sen is back!"
"Her name's Chihiro," Haku finally spoke up.
"Fine, then, Chihiro's back! So you'd better hurry up and come see her!"
Silence.
"Well, I don't care now. I'm going back to go see her."
With that, Lin left the room, stomping out the door and back down the hallway.
-- Haku's POV --
I have to go see you. Don't I?
You must have been waiting, too. You must have been waiting a long time for me to come to you. I've been waiting a long time, too.
But that's just strange, waiting for myself to do something. That's what I was always doing before you came here. I was just waiting to be freed from this place, waiting to get away from Ubaba's control. And you actually did free me.
Did I ever thank you?
* When the time we have now ends,
when the big hand goes round again,
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight? *
I wonder if you remember that day as well as I do.
Probably. Knowing you, Chihiro, I don't think you'd ever forget this place or your memories. Obviously not, since you came back. You came back to see this place again.
Did you truly miss it that much?
I forget what it's like outside of this world. I wonder if it's changed from what I existed in.
Probably.
But you still came back.
I wonder.. did you come back to see someone in particular?
Probably Lin. I recognized that you seemed to look to as your big sister. Maybe you came back to see Boh. Boh really liked you, you know?
Or maybe you came back to see if anything has changed. Maybe you came back to make sure it wasn't just a dream. I can assure you that it wasn't.
Or.. did you come back to see me?
Chihiro, do you still love me?
* I close my eyes and believe.
Wherever you are, you're an angel for me.
When the time we have now ends,
when the big hand goes round again,
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight? *
Wait.
I can hear footsteps outside my door again. It's probably Lin, just coming to pester me again.
Chihiro, I want to see you again.
I've wanted that for four years now. And I've tried to do something about it, but something kept holding me back.
Fear.
Chihiro, I still love you, and all I want is to see you again.
But I'm.. not ready yet. I'm not ready to see your smiling face once again. I don't know why, but I'm just not ready.
Will I ever be ready? Will I have to wait for that, too?
The door.. it's opening. Oh, but it's just Lin. Just what I suspected.
"Haku," Lin's voice called, as soft as ever. "Someone's here to see you."
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Disclaimer & Author's Note: I do not own the characters, plot, or anything of Spirited Away. I also don't own the song used in the story, which is, 'For Me, This is Heaven' by Jimmy Eat World. Lyrics to the song are surrounded in *'s. -- This is my first Spirited Away fic, I hope it's good, and I hope you all like it. ^.^ R&R, please!
Summary: Four years after Chihiro left the Spirit world. Haku has not returned to her, and she has been in the human world all the time. Until...
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- -----
Gasps and shouts of joy emerged from every corner of the Bath House. The exciting news was here and there, almost everyone had heard it by now. Such joy.. such celebration.
Haku's eyes peered around, watching the dancing, seeing the happy smiles on everyone's faces. It was too much. He had to get away. As quickly as his feet could take him, he rushed to the elevator, which was completely free. He pulled the lever on his side and watched out the window, seeing everyone on each floor dancing around in excitement. The elevator stopped at one floor, and he raced out, dodging the many joyful figures, and ducking into a corner room.
He looked around to make sure he was the only one in the small, dark room. He dropped to his knees, and stared at the floor.
-- Haku's POV --
It's been.. a long time.
Four years, Chihiro, since we've last seen each other, almost to the date. I can remember that last time we saw each other, as though it happened yesterday.
But it's still been a very long time. It's been too long, Chihiro.
* The first star I see
may not be a star.
We can't do a thing but wait,
so let's wait for one more. *
All I've been doing is waiting. I was waiting for something to happen so that I could get out of here, and get to you, safely. If I step past those rocks, where the river would be, I don't know what would happen to me.
I was just a river outside of this world. I all ever did was flow on, until you came along. Then I saved you.
Chihiro, I remember it so well.
So, I don't leave this place. I fear that if I do leave, I will truly never see you again. If I stay here, maybe I'm a little safer. But I still can't see you, Chihiro.
I just can't see you. But I want to, so much.
* The time such clumsy time
in deciding if it's time.
I'm careful, but not sure how it goes.
You can lose yourself in your courage. *
I visit it so many times when it is day, staring at those rocks. I just stood there, wondering if I should really do it, if I should really work up that courage and step across.
But I don't want to lose you, hoping that I haven't lost you already.
Oh, Chihiro, how I hate it. I hate being away from you. You were the one that saved me from Ubaba, you were the one who finally brought change from this boring routine.
I finally realized it, years after. You are the one I love.
Chihiro, you've always been.
* When the time we have now ends,
When the big hand goes 'round again,
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight? *
-- Out of Haku's POV --
Swift feet rushed down the hall, almost as though the speed at which they traveled made all the difference in the world. And in a way, it did.
An excited grin spread over Lin's face, even with her eyes narrowed and determined. Her heart was pounding wildly as she rushed down the hall, carelessly dodging through the excited figures.
She HAD to find him. He HAD to know about this.
"Where is he?"
Lin stopped at a corner room, and examined the doorway carefully. With a nod of approval, she decided she'd take a chance and see if this was the right one. It was either that he would be in there, or no one would be in there, or someone would be in there and she would get in some serious trouble.
But it was time to get brave.
Lin opened the doorway and peered inside. She let out a sigh of relief.
"Haku! There you are! I've been looking everywhere for you!"
Two dark eyes peered up at Lin, and she bit her lip.
"Something wrong?"
Haku's gaze retreated to the floor again.
"Argh, this again. Well, I've come here to actually tell you something, though I'd be surprised if you haven't heard it already."
* And the mindless comfort grows
when I'm alone with my great plans.
This is what she says gets her through it.
"If I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"
If not now? *
"Sen is back!"
Silence.
"Didn't you hear me, I said Sen is back!"
"Her name's Chihiro," Haku finally spoke up.
"Fine, then, Chihiro's back! So you'd better hurry up and come see her!"
Silence.
"Well, I don't care now. I'm going back to go see her."
With that, Lin left the room, stomping out the door and back down the hallway.
-- Haku's POV --
I have to go see you. Don't I?
You must have been waiting, too. You must have been waiting a long time for me to come to you. I've been waiting a long time, too.
But that's just strange, waiting for myself to do something. That's what I was always doing before you came here. I was just waiting to be freed from this place, waiting to get away from Ubaba's control. And you actually did free me.
Did I ever thank you?
* When the time we have now ends,
when the big hand goes round again,
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight? *
I wonder if you remember that day as well as I do.
Probably. Knowing you, Chihiro, I don't think you'd ever forget this place or your memories. Obviously not, since you came back. You came back to see this place again.
Did you truly miss it that much?
I forget what it's like outside of this world. I wonder if it's changed from what I existed in.
Probably.
But you still came back.
I wonder.. did you come back to see someone in particular?
Probably Lin. I recognized that you seemed to look to as your big sister. Maybe you came back to see Boh. Boh really liked you, you know?
Or maybe you came back to see if anything has changed. Maybe you came back to make sure it wasn't just a dream. I can assure you that it wasn't.
Or.. did you come back to see me?
Chihiro, do you still love me?
* I close my eyes and believe.
Wherever you are, you're an angel for me.
When the time we have now ends,
when the big hand goes round again,
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight? *
Wait.
I can hear footsteps outside my door again. It's probably Lin, just coming to pester me again.
Chihiro, I want to see you again.
I've wanted that for four years now. And I've tried to do something about it, but something kept holding me back.
Fear.
Chihiro, I still love you, and all I want is to see you again.
But I'm.. not ready yet. I'm not ready to see your smiling face once again. I don't know why, but I'm just not ready.
Will I ever be ready? Will I have to wait for that, too?
The door.. it's opening. Oh, but it's just Lin. Just what I suspected.
"Haku," Lin's voice called, as soft as ever. "Someone's here to see you."
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