Possessed
Rating: M
Warnings: Mentions of rape
Summary: Yujoshipping (Possessed JonouchixYugi) Even if I always flinch now when he wants to hug me or kiss me or hold my hand…things will never be the same.
Author's Notes::sits in corner and cries: I cannot believe that I wrote this. This is...so awful and...you did see the double angst, right::sniff: Just...oh, leave me alone and read the damn fic so I can sit here and cry my eyes out for being so mean to Yugi. :hugs Yami and rocks back and forth:
I sit and cry in my room…tears leak down my face, yet I have no yearning to wipe them free…Yami says that its okay to cry…Yami says that its okay to shake and hurt and curl up into a little ball on my bed and cry my eyes out…because I was hurt.
It wasn't his fault…I know that it wasn't…I should have known that as soon as he hit me…Katsuya never hits me…he never touches me except for when he wants to hug me or kiss me or hold my hand…
But I didn't understand. I didn't understand when I walked into his house that morning…and I didn't understand while he hit me. I didn't have the Millennium Puzzle with me that day…Yami told me to go out alone for once and let Jonouchi just spend time with me for once…I thanked him and left…
And I didn't tell Yami for a long time after I got home…I didn't cry, either…I took a shower and dropped into my bed, and I wouldn't tell him. I wouldn't speak, I wouldn't think…I was so scared, because I love Katsuya, and if Yami knew what he did to me…he'd kill Katsuya, and I wouldn't be able to do a thing about it.
I'm weak. I was weak this morning, I was weak when I got home. I'm weak now as I lay here and cry. I can't stand up for myself, and I don't think that I'll ever be able to. Yami tells me that I'm wrong all the time…but I just can't believe him. I can't believe him, or Anzu, or…I sniff and choke on a sob; I can't believe Katsuya, either.
And then Katsuya called me…I didn't want to answer the phone, but…Yami kept asking me if I was okay and why I wouldn't answer while the phone kept ringing, so I picked it up…and Katsuya told me that he was wondering if he wanted to go out later…the way that he said it, I knew that he didn't remember a thing.
I knew that Katsuya wasn't drunk…he doesn't drink, and I then knew that what happened to me, and to him…it wasn't really Katsuya…
More tears leak out of my eyes as I remember that I understand…I understand and I remember, and I know that things will never be the same again, even if Katsuya doesn't know why…even if I never tell him.
Even if I always flinch now when he wants to hug me or kiss me or hold my hand…
Things will never be the same.
Possessed.
Author's Notes::Sniff: Umm...you all hate me now, don't you. Look, this was random, and I don't have weird thoughts like this at all. I've just been reading some death-fics lately and this wouldn't leave me alone. Plus, the huge list of couples that I found helped out with that...:grumbles:
Well...this breaks my record of all of my one-shots containing fluff, now doesn't it.
I probably don't deserve reviews for this because I was so mean, but this is my little thing that I put at the bottom of all of my fics:
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