I
sunk to the floor in pure agony. Sobs rippled thought my chest
continuously without a pause or break. Oh, how lonely I will be.
Alice, a person (cross that out) a vampire who was like a sister to
me in so many ways. The way she made me laugh out loud and cry
doubling over in laughter. The way Rose was maybe harsh and uncaring
to me in the beginning but as time dragged on she earned a new
respect for me as I for her. I never had the chance to actually
peruse a friendship with her. Emmett and his brotherly ways towards
me were so comforting. The big burly teddy bear always had a soft
spot for me. Then again he had a soft spot for all his family, since
he already considered me family. To bad that will never
happen.
Jasper, my calm buddy, always making me laugh. The way we
could talk about anything. Where will my buddy be when I need help
and reassurance now? Carlisle, the person I looked up to in a way as
a fatherly figure. I think Carlisle and I were warmer to each other
than Charlie and I. With Charlie everything was so odd and awkward
more than anything. It doesn't mean I love him less its just
Carlisle was more a fatherly figure. Esme, the warmest mother to her
children. She had so much love in her eyes when she looked at her
children…. including me.
Then the last and dare I say most
important to my near wasteful life. Edward. The name rolled off my
tongue. His never beating heart I thought I had for eternity but that
theory only brought more sadness. "I don't want you!" the cold
unfamiliar tone broke past my heart and hot tears rolled down my pale
cheeks. He seemed unfazed, uncaring and colder than ever.
He told
me he loved me, he told me would never leave me again, he told me he
couldn't live without me but it was all lies. I wanted to hate him,
with all of my will power, but I couldn't no matter how hard I
tried. He was my only love, the only person to understand me, the
only person as perfect as him to love me.
A silent tear escaped
the corner of my eye as I lay there hoping for him to see me and to
tell me that though this was the second he left me, last time being
months before, that he would never do it again. I would wait for him
to scoop me in his arms and run to our meadow to talk.
I knew he
wasn't here but I couldn't convince myself to believe it. Hoping
a miracle would happen and he would hear me I whispered, "I love
you, please". Just as I had suspected. The answer, silence.
"Please" I begged with a strained voice but it only made me
weaker as I felt myself drift into unconsciousness with my love on my
mind. The last thought in my head was 'please' before I
surrendered to the darkness looming ahead.
Hours later I awoke
in my bed in cold sweat and tears I rolled to my side to see my love
beside me. He wrapped an arm around my waist a pressed forehead to
mine. "What's wrong, love" his velvet voice laced with
concern.
"Nothing now" I answered groggy. " Everything's
back in its place" I paused to kiss him on the lips. "You with
me, together" I drew invisible circles near his collarbone. "Well,
its time for your check-up" Edward said as he pulled his hand away
from my waist to my tummy. He put an ear to it and looked up into my
loving eyes. "Hey hunny" he whispered looking at me the whole
time.
He came back up and kissed the hollow of my ear and
whispered, " I love you". "I'll always love you" I pulled
his face up and wallowed lightly. "Don't ever leave me," I said
as I kissed him. He pulled back and glared at me a little. I shrunk a
bit under his intense gaze. "Never" he growled before pulling me
back in to an earth-shaking kiss. Oh how lonely I would have been
