A/N: Had this songfic stuck in my head, so I just had to write it. Kind of
based on Holiday, but with some of my own twists

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

Caitlin Ryan stood in Snake and Spike Simpson's living room, which was
lavishly decorated for Christmas and sighed. It killed her inside to see
her former boyfriend Joey Jeremiah with his new girlfriend Sydney. She
always thought that they would end up back together, but now it seemed
impossible. Yet, everytime she was with him, she felt so happy, so
complete. It was like they were two peas in a pod, so compatible, yet they
were not together. She watched in jealousy as the couple kissed, wishing
for the millionth time since she arrived that she was the one kissing Joey.
As hurt as she was, she still took comfort in knowing they had a special
bond, and didn't know if she could ever survive without him in her life.

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

Joey glanced at Caitlin, noticing how sad the woman looked, despite
the fact that it was supposed to be one of the happiest times of the year.
Although he was with Sydney, he knew in his heart that he was truly meant
to spend his life with Caitlin, for she had been the best thing that ever
happened to him. If only he hadn't screwed up back in high school, then the
two would be spending their lives together. Even after eleven years, he
still had that special connection with her, and only hoped that one day
they would end up together.

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

As much as he loved her though, he kept turning to other women, since
he kept thinking that she would never take him back. He assumed that she
only considered him friends, so he tried moving on by dating Sydney. But
Joey knew he was meant to be with Caitlin. If only he knew how to get back
with her, how to make her happy. Joey sighed, taking one last look at the
tree he was helping Snake put up. "There had to be a way," he thought.

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

Later that night, Caitlin lay in her bed, crying as she thought over the
events of the night. She didn't need Joey, for he seemed to be doing fine
without her. So why was it driving her crazy? Why was she dreaming of being
his wife and starting a family with him? It made absolutely no sense, but
it was a feeling she couldn't get rid of. Turning off the light, she lay in
her bed, trying to get some sleep.

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

About a week after that day at the Simpsons', Caitlin received a job
offer in Toronto, allowing her to have her show in syndication, something
she always wanted, because it meant more money, and more publicity. Once
she found out, she ran to Joey's, excited to tell him the news.
Unfortunately, Sydney had answered the door, coldly telling her that Joey
didn't love her and that she should stay out of their lives forever.
Crying, Caitlin turned away, knowing that things were officially over
between her and Joey, even though she wanted to spend the rest of her life
with him. "It's too late,' she thought as she left for the airport.

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

Joey came home from work, where he found Sydney waiting for him. After
greeting her, he asked if there were any messages for him. She had told him
that Caitlin stopped by, and she told her to leave because she was tired of
her constant presence. At that, Joey blew up, kicking Sydney out of the
house and telling her that they were over. He didn't expect to react that
way, but then it hit him. He was still in love with Caitlin. In his heart
he had always known, but now he was finally able to admit it to himself.
But he had to act fast, and hoped it wouldn't be too late for him to fix
things. Gathering the kids, he sped off to the airport, hoping the plane
was still there.

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

Caitlin sat in her seat, waiting for the plan to take off. She didn't
want to leave her life behind, but there was nothing else she could do. She
had no chance with Joey, and she would be a fool to stay. She was about to
take out a book when she heard her cell phone ring.

"Caitlin look out the window," the voice said. She turned around and
saw Joey, Craig and Angie waving. Overjoyed, she gathered her belongings
and went to greet them. She heard Joey tell Craig to get Angie some ice
cream and then turn to her and finally say the words she wanted to hear for
so long. "I love you Caitlin, I want to be with you." Joey then gently
placed his lips on hers, kissing her the way he did all those years ago in
high school. She smiled to herself when she noticed Craig and Angie
watching, both smiling with ice cream smeared faces. Life was finally
perfect.

A/N: this was bugging me, I had to write it. Please r/r but if you can't
say something nice, don't say it at all. Also, please r/r my other fics!
Thanks and happy new year!