Heartache

Seth and Summer

Disclaimer – Characters and show belong to Josh

Italics represent flashbacks from the show.

Chapter 1 – Summer's thoughts

I love him.

I guess I always have.

Actually, that's not true… It took me a while to love him, I was afraid to open my heart again, afraid that he would leave me. So my heart was only half open then.

And he did leave, for three months; but he's been back for two now. And we're friends, at least I think we still are.

I still love him though. He was my first, and my everything.

But he will never forgive me for the way I treated him. Never.

I can look back and remember the way I used to treat him – was I really that mean?

I guess I never really realised.

Tears prick my eyes and I tell myself not to cry, because this is what I deserve.

All he did was love me, even when he went away. Not that I believed that when he came back.

But then I read his letter again, and it told me.

I was bitter and angry when he came back; the letter was a discarded memory.

Now it's all I read.

I'm sorry Cohen, for everything. I love you.

If I could take everything back I would, I hope you know I never meant to hurt you. You're all I want.

I hope in time you can come round, so we can be together, like it was. We're meant to be. Like you said, our chemistry is undeniable.

Let me start from the beginning; things were simpler then.