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"I'm in love." Kate whispered. When she realize it, it was too late he was gone.
On the way to Lanie's apartment, she kept on thinking about all the things he'd done for her. She knew, he would give her the world if she wanted it. But she knew she already had the world, him. It terrified her when she realized she was in love with him. It scared her, how will they survive with all the reporters following them around, how they will always get into her nerves. But what had terrified her even more was, him leaving her all alone.
"Hey, Lanie." She said with a sad smile. The hint of emotion in her eyes, causes her friend to question her quickly.
"Hey girl, what are you doing here?" she asked, her eyebrow raising.
"I need to talk to you. Now." She said with a stern voice.
She let her in her apartment, and let her sat down on her couch. She gave her a few minutes to think about what's she's going to tell to her.
"So, what happened?"
"He's gone, Lanie." A teary eyed Kate said.
"WHAT? Why?" she exclaimed.
"Lanie, will you please lower your voice. You might wake your neighbors." Her eyes pleading.
"How will I lower my voice when you're not in the Hamptons with your writer!" she exclaimed.
"Lanie, I know okay." She sighed.
Finally calming down from her outburst, she said "Tell me what happened." Her voice soft and soothing.
"I was going to tell him that I wanted to go with him in the Hamptons, but then her ex-wife showed up, I never got the chance to tell him that. God, Lanie, I'm so stupid." She sobbed, covering her eyes with her palms.
Contineously saying sothing words to her, and patting her back comfortingly. She knew that this summer was going to be hard for her friend. Learning that she was in love with the writer and he left for another, made her furious and that's really, REALLY scary.
Kate sensing that her friend was going to blow any minute now, she found her hand and squeezed it. When her friend looked at her, she sensed that there was something she wasn't saying to her "Hold up, Lanie. It wasn't all his fault." She sighed. "It was part my fault, because I rejected him a lot of times. Tom and I were supposed to go spend the summer together, but when I heard he was gonna leave and never come back, I changed my mind, I don't want him to leave me. He became too attached to my life, that I never want him to walk away from me, but eventually he did. I let him slip out of my fingers when he's finally there for me to have. He looked so happy when he left with Gina." she tried to hold back the tears, but she couldn't. She just wished, she could go back in time, and fix everything, but she couldn't, it's the past and she can't change it. She regret that she became a coward, regret that she didn't admit to her feelings didn't bother to wipe her tears, because it would only be replace with fresh ones.
Her friend was patting her back again, letting all her emotions out. She never saw her friend like this, sobbing over a man. Usually when a boyfriend break's up with her, she normally moves on. But then again Castle was far from normal, when her friend told her about the first day, she said that he was arrogant, cocky, childish, and so full of himself. He can't do anything without his ego. She said, that his ego was so big that it's about to pop any minute now. But then a year passed by and they trusted one another, developed feelings for each other without noticing it, let each other know things about them in their past. Realization hit her like slap in face. Why didn't I see it before? I think I'm the one who's stupid. She told herself. I should've gotten them together before this happened. She knew Kate could handle herself after all she's an independent woman. But after all that's happen, she's having second thoughts. Will she survive this year's summer? Will she move on? Will she ever get over him? Will he come back? And if he comes back will he leave again? Will he hurt her? She continues to pat her back until she calmed down.
"What am I gonna do, Lanie? I can't just move on. I love him." She looked up to her friend, hints of tears still visible.
"You really do love him, do you?" she said. Her friend nodding in confirmation. "I think he'll come around eventually. But I don't want to keep your hopes up. My best advice is to carry on, the only problem is you can't."
"You know I can't. I am deeply madly in love with him. I never felt this way before. He's very special Lanie." and hot, ruggedly handsome, cute, annoying, irritating, egotistical, wiseass, jackass, loves his family with all his heart. Anything synonymous to Richard Castle. She added to herself.
"Like I said, I think he'll come back. But Kate don't you think it's time?" trying to convince her.
"I'm sorry, Lanie. I can't. He waited all these years just for me. The least I can do is returning the favor."
"Okay. I just want you to be happy."
"I will be, Lanie. I'm only happy whenever he's around" she sighed, the truth finally coming out of her mouth. "It's just, before he came into my life. I was serious as hell, never joked, and never even bothered to smile. But then the 9-year-old-on-a-sugar-rush came in and completely changed my life." She smiled at the thought. "He was the complete opposite of me. He never followed instructions. He breaks rules. I don't. He told me once, that smiling every once in a while isn't going to hurt." Trying to get back to the point, she said. "I need him in my life, Lanie. I don't know what I'd do without him."
"Just remember I'll always be here as your friend, no matter what. Just call me if you need me."
"Thanks, Lanie for being here for me. You're really a great friend. I'm so glad I have you." giving her friend a tight hug. She was grateful she met her, grateful that she became her friend, grateful for the times she's been there for her, grateful for her friendship.
"You're welcome, girlfriend. That's what best friends are for."
And with that Kate had hope that what her friend said was true.
