A/N: It's been awhile since I last posted a story, mostly because school became so overwhelming that I hardly had time to think about doing anything else, but for the moment I am on spring break and writing again :)

This story takes place during Gambler's Fallacy in season 15. I got the idea after watching the episode again and recognizing the moment when Olivia found out about Amanda's operation. I then wondered what must have been going through her mind, and thus this story was made :) this will follow the general flow of the episode but it will become more AU as the story progresses. As of this moment, it should be a short 3-shot.

The day was like any other for the Sergeant of the Manhattan Borough of SVU. Olivia sat in her office working on the seemingly never ending stacks of paperwork that appeared on her desk every morning. The brunette would be lying is she said that she didn't miss having Cragen in this office. The way he seemed to always have a handle on all of his detectives. He could be strict yet approachable. A skill she herself had yet to master.

As Olivia was thinking this her gaze shifted out her window and into the squad room. None of her detectives were at their desks. She knew Nick and Fin would at least be in the building, but Amanda was out sick again. "If there's one person I need to work on with being strict and understanding it's her," Olivia said aloud to herself. The brunette was well aware that she and the younger woman got off to the wrong start and she blamed herself for that, but she also blamed Amanda for being hard headed and insubordinate at nearly every opportunity.

A sudden phone call pulled Olivia from her thoughts, "Benson" she answered professionally.

"Yes, Sergeant, this is Captain Davis from Vice" a deep voice said over the phone. Olivia sat up straighter in her chair. She wasn't expecting to have a call from Vice, from the Captain himself no less, and the fact that it was a Captain calling her told her this was something that was important.

"Captain" Olivia responded politely "to what do I owe this pleasure?"

"There's no pleasure in this call, unfortunately," Davis' said with disappointment. These were all the words Olivia needed to hear to know that this was indeed a serious matter. "I am here to inform you that I will be temporarily taking command over detective Rollins from your unit"

"Rollins?" Olivia interrupted with surprise "why would you be taking her?" she questioned, a million thoughts racing through her head.

"I can't go into much detail, but detective Rollins is in a unique situation to help one of my undercover officers bring down several high profile targets, targets that we have been chasing for months" the Vice Captain explained

"But sir, does it have to be Rollins, my unit is extremely understaffed at the moment. I don't think we can spare her..." she was cut off before she could finish her statement

"There is no negotiation here, Sergeant," the Captain said reminding Olivia of her subordinate stance "everything is in motion with 1PP and your detective is already in play out in the field."

Olivia sighed. She was angry for having no power in this situation. Amanda was her detective, she should have been given a heads up before any of this happened and not being notified after the fact, but she also realized that she had no choice, "Very well, goodbye".

After hanging up the phone Olivia looked down at her desk. "Amanda, what did you get yourself wrapped up in?" she questioned. She couldn't help but worry and think about the variety of situation her youngest detective may be placed in while being undercover.

Olivia wasn't given much time to process the new information before a knock at the door interrupts her thoughts. The brunette looked up in time to see Fin and Amaro enter the office. "Liv, we need to talk," Fin said with a serious tone. The Sergeant simply nodded her head and indicated for them to shut the door. After the phone call she just had, she didn't want any more bad news but it looked like she would be getting some anyway.

"What is it, a case?" Olivia asked. A case she could handle, a personal bombshell, at that moment, not so much.

"No, it's about Rollins" Fin answered "you know how she's been out sick for the past few days..." he paused to give Amaro a look "well, we dropped by her place last night with some soup but she wasn't there"

"We traced her phone to an old warehouse" Nick interrupted as he took a step forward.

"You traced her cell phone?" Olivia repeated surprised at their actions. What they did, going behind her back, was against protocol and could get them in big trouble with 1PP.

"Yes" Nick answered quickly as if what they did didn't matter "and we found her talking to some guy that looked Irish mob... I think she's gambling again"

Olivia took a deep breath. Everything made sense to her now. Amanda was caught gambling and somehow ended up with a UC. It sufficed to say that Olivia was furious at that moment, but she didn't show it. Amanda had been lying to them all for who knows how long, giving in to her impulsive desires instead of coming to one of them. Now it seems that her actions had caught up with her. Olivia's face remained blank as she told them to drop the issue. Nick gave some pushback, but all Olivia had to do was bring up Maria and soon he was storming out of the room.

Once the door was shut, Olivia went about closing the blinds. She needed some privacy to digest all that just happened. "Dammit, Amanda" Olivia grunted as she began to pace the room. She was angry still but she needed to put that aside. She needed to do everything in her power to keep the younger woman safe. Olivia roughly sat back into her chair "now I have to keep those two off of her tracks so they don't end up killing her and that UC cop. I'm not going to be getting any sleep until this is all over, that I know for sure".

The next day came and went without anything major occurring. Amanda returned to work and even offered to do a double shift to make up for slacking off the last few days. Olivia didn't hesitate to allow it in case it had anything to do with her UC operation. At the same time, however, Olivia couldn't bare to look at Amanda. For the moment she was over the anger, It was the worry that was hurting the elder woman now.

Olivia hated being left in the dark. She hated not knowing what exactly Amanda was doing in this UC operation. The elder woman didn't trust Vice enough to truly take care of her detective, not like she would take care of her own people in the field. It was this unknowing that caused the near-constant storm of anxiety to fill Olivia's head, creating images of the worst possible scenarios to frequently appear before her eyes.


Olivia worked hard to get herself back into a stoic mindset in regards to Amanda's situation, and she stayed that way until Fin and Amaro brought her information that she couldn't ignore. The two men solemnly came into her office, as if the weight of the world rested on their shoulders. "Liv, we gotta talk. It's about Manda" Fin stated as Amaro shut the door.

"I thought I told you two to drop this" Olivia said sternly, angry that they disobeyed her and possibly risked Amanda's cover as well.

"We couldn't, and it's a good thing too..." Amaro said as he stepped forward showing her an image on Amanda at the ambassador's house the night before his wife was raped "and there's more". They continued to show evidence of Amanda's illegal activities she performed for the underground gambling club, the unlawfully removing evidence from lockup and fixing a rape case.

Olivia could only purse her lips at the images she was shown. Amanda was in deep, and Olivia knew it needed to stop that instant. If the owners of that club were having Amanda go to such lengths, she knew that her life was at stake and that was something she would not let stand. It didn't matter what it would take, Olivia planned to pull Amanda. She'd keep the younger woman in witness protection if that was what it came down to, but she was done going back to that club. She told the guys to not warn her as she ushered them out, it would be easier to get Amanda to listen to her if she cornered her in the office.

"Liv, she's my partner I got to tell her we're on to her" Fin begged as he held onto the door "please..." his eyes were pleading her "wouldn't you want this if this was Amaro", reluctantly Olivia agreed.


Olivia and Fin met Amanda at a bar. Olivia could see clearly the pressure Amanda was under, and she couldn't say that it didn't hurt her to see her youngest detective in such a state. She let Fin do most of the talking, still not trusting herself to speak plainly with the blonde.

"Okay, I understand," Amanda said with a lowered gaze "but please, let me turn myself in tomorrow... I... I need to make arrangements for Frannie"

Olivia knew that Amanda wasn't telling the truth. Amanda planned to return to the operation and try to close it. It would be what she would do if Olivia was in Amanda's shoes, but Olivia was against this. She was so close to blowing the whole situation and confronting Amanda then and there. Dragging the younger woman back to the station and well away from the gambling club and the dangerous people who ran it.

"Fine, but if you're not back by tomorrow morning, I'm bringing you in myself" Olivia's own words surprised herself. She didn't plan on letting Amanda walk out of that bar without them, but it was something in Amanda's eyes that stopped Olivia. It was the fierce burning determination to finish what she started. An intensity that wasn't a common sight, and Olivia knew nothing short of handcuffing the younger woman on the spot could stop her from finishing what she started.

As Olivia watched Amanda walk out the door, she prayed that she didn't just let her youngest detective march straight to her death.


That night was one of the longest Olivia had ever had. Every minute felt like an hour, and it seemed every second Olivia found herself regretting letting Amanda go. Not even holding Noah curbed the ever increasing anxiety growing in the pit of her stomach. Sleep was not an option for the elder woman. Every time she closed her eyes different images appeared, each worse than the last. After seeing Amanda dying for the third time, Olivia jumped on her laptop and threw herself into her work in hopes of pushing those horrible images to the back of her mind.

It was at 3:30 in the morning when Olivia's phone finally rang. "Benson?" she answered hiding the fear from her voice. She knew this would be the call. She would find out if Amanda was safe or... she didn't even want to finish the thought.

"Sergeant," Captain Davis' voice said from the other line "I'm sorry to wake you at such an odd hour, but there is some news that I felt could not wait"

"No it's alright I was up anyway, please what is it?" Olivia responded, wanting the news as fast as possible but at the same time wanting to stay in a limbo of ignorance.

"I am glad to report that the UC operation was a success. In thanks to no small part of your detective" the Captain of Vice said with a lighter tone. "I know you've been kept in the dark these last few days, and as a commander, I know how hard that is when one of your own people is involved. You'll be glad to know that once 1PP is done with Lieutenant Murphy and Rollins tomorrow morning, your detective will be returned back under your command"

"I am very relieved to hear that everything went down without a hitch," Olivia said as she could feel the stress melt from her body.

"For the most part yes, I have to report that Rollins did sustain a small injury on her left cheek. It looks worse then it is" Davis said honestly

"Did she at least get this injury looked at?" Olivia asked, knowing her detective would have refused treatment.

"Yes, Lieutenant Murphy made sure of it" Davis responded "In all, things couldn't have gone better. As a way of professional courtesy, I'm going to send all of the pertinent information regarding the operation to your office in the morning regarding your detective's involvement in this case. I know you'll be getting this eventually but the bureaucracy of the NYPD is slow moving, and like I've said I would have hated to have been in your position. Have a good night" and with that Davis hung up.

Olivia slowly placed her phone down. She was so relieved that Amanda was safe and the operation was over, but at the same time she was anxious to learn the gritty details of all that transpired. Even with the late night good news Olivia didn't sleep for the rest of the night.

As promised, the files Davis talked about was waiting on Olivia's desk as she walked into her office. The brunette gently set down her strong coffee as she picked up the folder and flipped through it as she sat in her chair. She ignored the rest of the daunting paperwork on her desk as she read the contents of the folder. She learned how Amanda was discovered by the illegal club as being a cop, what tests they made her do to prove her loyalty, the point in which Murphy brought her in on his operation, and what tasks she did for both the club and Vice.

To say that the SVU Sergeant had a headache after reading that file would be an understatement. "So many bad decisions," Olivia said as she rubbed her temples "where to even begin?" she added with a sigh. Olivia leaned forward, resting her elbows on the desk with her head in her hands. She blinked open her eyes after having shut them for a few minutes, the stress of the day and the lack of sleep creeping up on her.

"What's this?" Olivia asked aloud as she picked up a small flash drive that was laying next to her coffee. She knew it must have come with the file of Amanda's UC operation. Without hesitation, Olivia inserted the drive into her computer. A single video file popped up, clicking on it the elder woman watched as Amanda's face appeared. She was in the back room of the illegal club unbuttoning her blouse "you can't film this" her voice sounded unsure over the video. "You're not the ones calling the shots" Murphy's voice answered her.

Olivia let out a shaky breath once the whole video had finished playing. The elder woman was a good enough detective to put all the pieces together "she was going to sleep with him before she knew he was a cop". The realization was making Olivia's hands almost shake. Everything about Amanda's demeanor on the video showed that she didn't want to be there, she didn't want to touch the man calling her over. "If Murphy wasn't a cop, Amanda would have been raped," Olivia said allowed as she sank back into her chair.

She didn't know how exactly Murphy brought Amanda in on the UC operation before, and part of her almost wished she hadn't found out. The video only made Olivia feel guilty, guilty in the fact that Amanda was in such a position in the first place and she never knew. Her youngest detective would have let herself been raped and used by that underground club instead of trying to ask for help.

Olivia wasn't given much time to process what she had just seen completely before she began to hear Fin yelling at Amanda. She walks to the window to see Fin and Amaro surrounding her, asking the younger woman about the UC operation. It was at that moment that Olivia saw the bruise on Amanda's face, and the older woman couldn't deny that it looked painful.

Without waiting for another second, Olivia opened the door and called the younger woman to her office. As she watched Amanda leave the guys, she caught a glimpse of the pure worry etched on their faces. It was at that moment Olivia's emotions turned from worried to something else.

A/N: I have to admit that this chapter was super hard for me to write because this chapter, and this whole story for that matter, is being told from Olivia's perspective and I feel like I don't have a strong grasp on her character. I guess I just need more practice with her hehe. Thanks for reading.