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Song: 'I'm Scared' by Hoku
Story written by: Senna Night
A Lone GoodbyeI don't know where we stand anymore
You've got one foot in my life
And the other's out the door
And I can't believe this is happening to me
You left me here… No goodbye… You just left... Why is it always the same, Heero? Do you just like to torment me for the rest of my life? No, that can't be true. You never would deliberately hurt me. You've been in and out of my life during these past months. Why can't you just tell me these three meaningful words I've always wanted you to say to me? Maybe I'm just asking for the impossible.
Deep inside I've wanted to believe
That somehow, maybe someday
There'd be someone there for me
And I hope I haven't lost my chance
I always believed in you Heero. I've always believed you come back, and be by my side. We could be happy, you and I. There'd be peace in the world and life would be wonderful. But instead, you leave. No one knows where you have gone to, not even the pilots. Duo, Trowa, Quatre, and Wufei are looking though you never are found if you don't want to be. Isn't that right, Heero? You disappear from your friends… and even from me. Did I do something wrong? Is that why you left? All these questions, I wish could be answered. They could be. Heero, come back to the Sanq Kingdom. Come back home, Heero.
I don't want to wake up to reality
Of you not being here with me
There's so many possibilities
That we let slip away
And if your heart could speak
What would it say
You're scared… to say you love me I'm scared…
Will you always stay
You don't have to run away
Every morning I awaken, each a bright new morning, with hope. Hope that you'd come back. Don't be scared, Heero. We're all scared. Life can be scary if you make it. I'm scared that you may not ever come back, that maybe you are out there but gone forever… never to be found. I'm terrified to think of that, but that's an emotion. You can be scared, like me. Don't hide. Don't let it be like that… People call you the 'Perfect Soldier'. You show no emotions, you complete missions, and you aren't even afraid to die. For once, Heero, why can't you just open your heart to me instead of keeping it closed and chasing me away? That is another question I'll be forever to wonder…
I wish I could believe in what I feel
I've been fooled so many times before
I don't know what is real
Maybe I'm just fooling myself
Sometimes I feel like giving up. You'll never be back. No matter how much it mattered to your friends or me. Maybe you knew what you were doing. Maybe you weren't scared after all. Maybe you never loved me. Maybe it was just the 'Perfect Soldier' being a perfect bodyguard. Was I belittling myself thinking you actually cared for me? More days—weeks—years go by, and that's the answer that seems more likely.
I've been running out of reasons to let go
Tried opening up my feelings
But your door is always closed
And I find myself dreaming my life away
You don't have to worry
Cause I'm running out of reasons to say no
I'll wait Heero, but there will be a time when I can't stand here waiting anymore. You've hurt me more than I could say. I've stood my ground for months, waiting… I've tried to make you see your heart, though I guess I failed. Maybe this is goodbye, Heero, just maybe.
