Spoilers for The Beginning in the End
He knew this is how it was supposed to be right from the beginning. Even if it would kill him inside he knew their parting was for the best; it would either make them stronger or tear them apart. He had to admit, when they would meet again it would be a different meeting; a new beginning. He fought the tears that were threatening to fall, he couldn't stop thinking about her.
He's said it before that everything happens eventually, but what if he was wrong? By all means he prayed to god he was right because the suspense was killing him; he needed to see her again.
Maybe their time apart will provide them with an even stronger love curve than before and it's true, you just don't know what can happen in a year.
People change, period. He knows this and it doesn't surprise him at the least. All he did was accept it as it was. People change despite the drastic changes in the world and evolve into something even greater. All fate did was bring people together and rip them apart.
He knew he needed her, and she needed him. The truth was they needed that chance to figure out their love once and for all. They needed this. And maybe that is the change they aimed for.
Love declared gives the heart time to process the love that is undeclared and dismissed. Time and emotional healing gives the heart yet another chance to aim. When that damn will break, those untold truths are yet to be told. Patience may break those unshed walls yet to claim, but we both know those fears are yet to be named. To my heart, to my soul, those undeclared truths are yet to be told.
It was mid summer day, as the flowers bloomed elegantly throughout Washington D.C. The cars carefully made their way throughout the noisy streets as the sun carefully made an appearance above the pretty blue sky. The wind veered swiftly though the clouds, and the birds began to sing their songs ever so beautifully.
'There is a time when two people would meet. He was handsome, she was beautiful and maybe that's all they see at first. But there's that spark, that spark that never seemed to fade away over the millennium. When they do it right, they get close.'
He could hear it now, the wisdom of his words bringing a ringing sound in his ears. He knew it better than anybody.
This was it. A New Beginning.
Seeley Booth lifted his bag and swung it over his shoulder. He felt the gentle breeze greeting him warmly, reminding him of Parker the moment it brushed against his face. The air seemed chilly, immediately sending a chill straight to his bones. Seeley lifted his hat from his head and ran his fingers through his hair nervously. It had been a year since he been in D.C and now it wasn't any different right?
Again, he thought of what she was doing now, so far away from him. She was probably on her laptop working on her latest novel or maybe writing a report on a latest finding. But, he knew she'd be here with him as soon she was finished and headed home. It had been 365 days without seeing his friends, 365 days without seeing his best friend.
He missed them all, one by one, he missed them dearly. But the truth was he missed the woman he loved and Parker more than anything. It was a year since they'd said their good byes and he was ready to move on; but here is the catch. He was still in love with the woman who broke his heart so long ago.
They'd kept in touch sure, but it was frequent. Once in a while he would send her some texts or an e-mail of some sort. He knew that maybe she was busy but never lost faith in her response. She did respond however, but when she did they were often long and very heart warming. The thing that touched him the most was her willingness to express her feelings and concerns about him. He knew by those letters, she was a changed woman.
Booth grimaced when the harsh light hit his eyes, he covered them and looked around for a taxi cab.
The truth was he wanted to see Brennan more than anything, but was nervous about what she'd be like now that everything had changed. They've written each other, but hadn't had the time to speak to one another. He made his way toward a shady tree and stopped. His phone was vibrating.
I am reaching D.C now, when I get there I'd like to meet you where we promised we'd meet in a year. - Bones
He smiled sheepishly. She remembered, even after all this time, she remembered their promise. Booth looked up and saw a few taxi cabs making their way toward the curb. He put his phone in his pocket and called out for the first taxi he spotted.
The life we live is a harsh reality, the sun goes up and down at a given time, while the gentle whispers of the wind caresses my skin. When I panic the wind assures me like you did every time I'd get scared. I cannot express my feelings, I just feel them. I miss you, and I think my feelings for you have evolved dramatically. (In a positive way)
Again, I don't want to express my feelings in this letter because I want to in person. When I hum, I think of your soothing words immediately. I really miss you, and I cannot wait to see you again. Time amongst the toughest of times, I think of our friendship and partnership. We've had a lot of problems building what seems to be so strong now, but I find myself ashamed to admit that I've broken it all up into nothing. I know now that changes are humanely possible, but I feel as if this life changing experience had altered my defenses into something greater, or better. I've been thinking a lot about what you've said to me that night, and I think…..
Tempe stared at her computer screen, reading it over and over again until her head felt like it was going to explode. She felt the tears forming at the corner of her eyes as she wanted so badly to continue writing, but she couldn't. She couldn't give this letter to him knowing that he may have changed his mind by now.
She sighed nervously, trying not to cry in front of this many people. Her mind and heart were set not apart, but together; all but suddenly. Her walls were torn in so many ways that she felt like a different person since the beginning. Before her fears stood in the way of her life, but now she only faced every single one of them.
For one year and many more, she was fearless as ever. She wasn't the same woman she was a day ago, a week ago, or even a year ago. She leaned into loving and allowing those to love her in return. Now, she didn't dissect any of her emotions or actions anymore; she lived them.
Since their parting, the burdens of fear were lifted off of her shoulders and she was able to fly. She carefully brushed her bangs away from her teary eyes and took a deep breath, knowing what she was going to write next. She needed to know if he still loved her, even after all of this time. She didn't want to tell him the nature of her feelings for him just yet, in this letter anyway. But, the nagging feeling in her chest enabled her to, she began to write more.
It all came to her at once, she wasn't able to stop. 365 days of these intense emotions began to build up over the period of time and she wasn't able to think or even focus anymore. She wanted to live a life with the man she was in love with.
…I am ready, ready to love you, I'm ready to spend 30, 40, and 50 years with you. I want it Booth. I want you, even after all this time, your still the one I love. I know I broke your heart and there may be a chance you'll never be able to forgive me for what I've done. But, Booth, just hear me out….. I love you...
Her tears glided swiftly down her cheeks, and she didn't stop them, she kept on writing. It had been too long to come to this conclusion, way too long to feel this weak. The thought of his smile made her heart soar, the warm arms wrapped around her waist when she got scared and the soft whispers when she'd have nightmares. She missed him so much that she put all of her heart into this final letter.
…..I want to know if you still love me. I know I don't deserve you now but is there a way to get past this heartbreak? This sour ending?
With each musical rhythm coming from the keyboard she felt her knees give in, and also a large pinch coming from the core of her heart. If he didn't love her anymore, she'd never forgive herself.
…..I'm sorry Booth, just listen to me.
She stopped typing. Again the tears fell swiftly down her cheeks and onto her dress. She put her head down, and closed her eyes tightly, trying to ease the pain that was killing her inside. Even though the memory of his face had faded over time, his voice was always on her mind. She laughed softly knowing that he'd tell her everything would be alright between them. Despite some sympathetic glances her way she knew they'd be alright.
From now and forever, she was madly in love with him.
Temperance smiled genuinely to herself and pushed the "save button" on the screen. She brushed her tears away and sniffed. She released a shaky breath and texted Booth, telling him to meet her where they agreed to meet one year prior to this day.
I am reaching D.C now, when I get there I'd like to meet you where we promise we'd meet in a year. - Bones
She smiled gently as she brushed a few tears away from her eyes. She turned her head, paying attention to the outside world around her. She really never saw how beautiful the ocean looked like before or the beauty that dwelled into it. At that moment it hit her, the world was a bright and fearless place after all. After all this time, she knew it was better to live without fear than to be afraid and protect yourself.
"If you keep living, trying to protect yourself, nothing is ever going to touch you."
She loved Angela and all of her wisdom about life and love. She leaned her head against the window and thought for a moment about what her life was like a year ago. Everything seemed so raw, so indifferent. But now, she had come to the conclusion that she really wanted to share her life and be happy with Booth.
Seeley Booth was a man of his word and he knew that in a heart beat. He knew deep down he had to move on and it surprised him to say he wanted to. He loved Bones, he really did but he knew he had to be more patient with her.
As the cab moved on, Seeley could feel his heart beating faster and he began gasping for breath. He took a deep breath, releasing it as slowly as possible before looking out the window in deep thought.
He laughed softly to himself while knowing there was something different about his persona. He seemed more laid back and calm than he was before.
Before it felt as if his entire life had been somewhat of a lie, like he was still standing alone in a hospital bed dreading the day when he'd wake up wishing this world was just a dream. But, it felt so damn real, it was like he didn't know who anyone was anymore. What did those people in the dream mean to him? What did Bren (his wife) mean? What did the "lab" mean? What did Mr. B mean? What did the dream mean? It felt real, but what did it all mean?
Booth stopped shortly, knowing by now she'd probably be here waiting for him. It wasn't long after four in the afternoon and the people crowded like a bunch of cattle. Seeley took another breath and exhaled slowly. He shook his head nervously and continued walking.
The memories of heart break and loneliness kept him up at night while the sound of cries awoke him from the deepest of slumber. In the latest hours he knew as soon as he will see her, he'd be home.
After about five minutes of walking to the reflecting pool when he saw a woman looking anxiously at her watch. She wore a bright blue dress that captured her crystal blue eyes, her hair was shorter than he remembered but she still looked utterly beautiful. From his memory, she was a woman that didn't like taking such large risks, but was she the same woman he'd met all of those years ago?
The world closed around him as he continued walking, his smile was both bright and friendly and his courage lifted his spirits. They'd be two strangers meeting, just like before, but this time with dignity, with grace and god forbid, a second chance.
You never know what happens in a year, but love always remains the same; always.
You see two people who belong together but nothing happens ... unless first a dream.
Now it's time to act.
