They say theres a fine line between pleasure and love,as for me i always believed that somebody could have both. So i guess thats what I'm looking for these things,Pleasure,Love all the things that everyone craves thats what i want.
i keep repeating to myself he was "just a guy in a bar," over and over. But does it mean anything? Probalby not.
he was sitting there at the bar his feet resting on the ledge connected to the had a cute little smirk on his face that sent chills down my spine sitting there telling me that "i'd love him once i got to know him." I was trying to act calm but my urge to kiss him right there and then was building rapidly. I kept taking more shots of tequila trying to calm my nerves but i think it made me more embarrassing. I remember throwing my head back laughing. Then he would look at me and let out an oddly attractive laugh leaning his head to the side.
we sat there for hours talking, towards the ending of our conversation he'd laugh and rub his hands through his hair and id laugh throwing my head back and he'd gently place his hand on my thigh knowing it drove me crazy.
Thats really all i remember about last night. Now this morning that a whole other story.
The next morning. let me tell you about a massive headache my body was throbbing everywhere. Everything was blurry and fuzzy and then i attempted to stand up. Seeing a man laying on the floor with a baby blue blanket laying over the waist down exposing his back muscles now all of it coming back to me.
Derek his name is Derek. I always loved that name. Slowly remembering last night we left the bar at about midnight he got a cab but insisted i go with him to make sure i got home safe. i was too drunk to know he was obviously just trying to come to my house. We got to my house tripping up the stairs leading to the door. when i got to the door i fumbled with my keys looking into his ocean blue eyes feeling the heat between our bodies smelling the liquor on his breath. I reached to put the key in the lock but in one swift move he was pressing me against the door almost pinning me. the heat rising rapidly my core burning,aching for just stared at me his lips getting closer to mine i was begging for his lips to touch mine and finally our lips crashed his tongue begging me to part ways of my teeth,i complied. Our lips dancing and then i pulled away we took deep breaths and i slowly put the key into the lock.
