CHAPTER ONE

Jude sat down on the stool in the recording booth and waited for K-West to give her the sign to begin singing. Since Tommy left K-West took over as her producer, though that didn't help the fact that Jude didn't seem able to come up with any songs. It seemed when Tommy had left her, he had taken her ability to write music. However she had managed to write a song last night when Sadie had finally given up trying to make her talk about Tommy.

Jude looked through the glass and saw K-West sitting in the chair that Tommy usually occupied. He was talking to Sadie and she knew that they were talking about her. Sadie seemed really worried about her, and Jude was determined to not let her show how much Tommy leaving her had truly broken her heart.

Jude still remembered that night like it was yesterday, not a month ago. She remembered him walking into the restaurant on what was suppose to be their first real date. Then the confusion and pain of watching him telling her he was leaving and that he wasn't coming back. Finally watching him drive away and not understanding what was happening. She felt so empty inside, like when Tommy drove away he took a part of her with him.

"You ready Jude?" came K-West voice over the intercom.

Jude looked at K-West and nodded.

Jude looked down at guitar that Tommy had given to her as a gift. She could feel the tears starting to well up in her eyes. Taking a deep breath Jude started to play her guitar and before she could realize it her voice was filling up the studio.

So you want the story of my life

well here it is

all in black and white for the world to see

you want to hear a love story

well you better change the channel

because all I seem to know is broken hearts

Growing up you always believe in fairy tales

always wishing they would come true for you

but listen up girls hear my story

because you need to know that isn't true

Stories like mine are what's in the real world

You all say you love me and that you want me

can you please think of a new game

this is getting old you taking over my heart

so all I think about is you

while I'm awake and in my dream

but then something seems to take you away from me

Can't you see that I'm falling apart

without you by my side

you always seemed to make things better

always knew how to put me back together

but whose going to put my heart back together

now that its you that left me behind

You walked away and took my heart

you never looked back

never saw the tears I cried

don't you have a heart

don't you feel the pain I felt

that moment when my whole world fell apart

You all say you love me and that you want me

can you please think of a new game

this is getting old you taking over my heart

so all I think about is you

while I'm awake and in my dream

but then something seems to take you away from me

I should have known better then to give you my heart

A foolish girl with foolish dreams

I thought you and me could finally be

finally someone who wouldn't break my heart

the joke was on me

The pain in my heart won't go away

the tears in my eyes are free to fall

I'm falling apart and I don't know how to put my life together again

Pieces of a broken heart

You all say you love me and that you want me

can you please think of a new game

this is getting old you taking over my heart

so all I think about is you

while I'm awake and in my dream

but then something seems to take you away from me

So you want the story of my life

well maybe you should find someone else

my life is nothing but a story of a foolish girl

with foolish dreams of love

you'll just laugh at how naive I am

so go find some other life story to know

Jude could feel the tears she was trying to hold back fall down her face. She quickly turned her head away from where Sadie and K-West were sitting to try to hide the fact that she was crying again.

Over the intercom K-West voice filled the studio saying, "That was great Jude, why don't you take five."

Jude just nodded in agreement and quickly used the back of her hand and wiped the tears off her face. She didn't know where this song came from, but last night it just hit her. It had been so long since she had been able to write or even sing, and she was beginning to feel like it had gone with her heart.

Jude turned her head as she heard some one come into the studio.

"Jude you ok?" Sadie asked in a gentle voice. She had known all alone that Tommy would break Jude's heart just like he had broken hers, and she hated seeing her sister so torn up about it no matter how much she said she didn't care about it or him.

"I'm fine Sads, so what did West really think about my song?" Jude said turning to face Sadie and put on the best smile she could.

"He thinks its going to be a hit, I think he's going to send a copy to the radio and announce your plans on starting a third album." Sadie said then asked, "Do you have any plans for tonight?"

Shaking her head at her sister's millionth attempt to get her to go out with her. She had been trying to get her to go on a date or go out with her friends since a week after Tommy left her.

"The same, expect tonight there is a House of Carters marathon to keep me entertained for the evening." Jude said thinking about her night in her PJ's and a big bowl of popcorn.

"Nope, not tonight your coming down town with me to a concert. Meeting a couple friends from school." Sadie said with a determined tone in her voice.

"Sadie I don't want to go hang out with YOUR friends." Jude said putting the emphases on the word 'your'. "If I wanted to go out with friends I would go out with my own friends."

"Which you haven't seen or talked to since Tommy left." Sadie pointed out.

"Your point being, I like to be alone right now." Jude said getting angry.

"Jude you have to get over him."

"Why do you think I'm not over him?"

"Did you listen to the song you just sang, it has Tommy's name all over it" Sadie pointed out.

"So what, someone has always been the influence for all the songs that I have written, don't you remember the song I wrote when I was dating Shay and Speed."

"Yeah and that's my point, all of those songs evolve your feelings toward those people, therefore Tommy leaving is effecting you more then you care to let me know."

Jude was getting angry now, Sadie as usual was really getting on her nerves, so angry that she said something that she knew she would regret later, "Fine I will go out with you and your friends tonight."

With a satisfied smirk on her face Sadie said, "Good." Then she headed out of the sound booth and headed back to the front desk.

Great Jude thought to herself, this is what my temper gets me.

Sighing Jude saw that K-West had come back into the studio and was telling her to take it from the top again.

Jude spent the next half an hour with K-West working on the song, till he told her they were done for the day if she wanted to head home for the night.

Glad to be getting out of there Jude quickly packed up her guitar and headed out of G-Majors and headed to her car.

Putting her guitar in the back seat Jude got behind the wheel and was about to pull away when Sadie ran out of the studio and stopped outside the driver side window. Sighing Jude quickly rolled down her window to find out what she wanted now.

"I'll be home in an hour, we'll be leaving for the concert at eight sharp. We'll be meeting my friends at the door."

The only thing that left Jude's mouth was in a very sarcastic tone, "Can't wait." Then she turned on her car and gunned the engine and left the parking lot and headed home.

Jude pulled into the drive way of her childhood home that her father had bought for her and Sadie. Probably out of guilt. Jude thought to herself, not feeling bad at all for thinking that. She may have started being civil to him, mainly because she felt like both her parents had completely abandoned her, with her dad's affaire and then her mother running away with her divorce lawyer.

How can life get any worse. Jude thought as she pulled out her keys and let herself into the house and quickly went to the answering machine to see if there were any messages. Sighing in frustration that she was still doing this to herself. But she couldn't help it, she still prayed that Tommy would have called and left her a message explaining everything to her. And as usually she felt the disappointment when she saw zero messages and zero new callers on the phone.

Fine, what ever. I don't need him. Jude quickly told herself and almost started to laugh that she was actually standing there lying to herself about her feelings. As usual the tears started to form in her eyes and she knew at any moment they were going to start falling down her face.

Looking at the clock and seeing it was six thirty she realized she should probably get in the shower to look even half way presentable in Sadie's eyes.

Why did I get myself into this, can't Sadie see I just want to stay home. Why does she have to push me to go out with her friends, their her friends. Before all this stardom hit and the Tommy thing Sadie would never want me to tag along with her and her friends. Why now? Probably some kind of torture for thinking of going on a date with her ex-boyfriend.

Her mind then quickly switched from Sadie to Tommy. Tommy who always made her so mad, and who always knew how to push her buttons. Dating her sister for another thing, she couldn't understand what was going through his mind. All those time he had kissed me and then so quickly took it back as if it didn't mean anything to him. But then there were those perfect moments, when I would get lost in those deep blue eyes of his, when we wrote music together, when we finished the last CD and he asked me out on that date. How can everything be so good one moment and the next feel like the world is crashing down around me.

Trying to shake the thought out of her head Jude quickly went into the bathroom and jumped into the shower. When she was finished she towel dried her hair and changed into her jeans that were full of holes and black t-shirt that said 'Punk Princess' on it. She knew Sadie wouldn't approve of her wardrobe choices which was the main reason for the choice. If Sadie was making her go she was going to at least make her regret that choice so she would leave her alone from here on out.

Jude got the exact reaction from Sadie as she had predicted when she had walked in the door and saw Jude, who was now sitting on the couch watching tv.

"Please tell me you are not planning on wearing that out tonight."

"What's wrong with it, you said we are going to a concert, this is what I wear to my concerts."

"Its not that kind of concert." Sadie pointed out.

"So what kind of concert is it, who is it we are seeing anyways?"

"Just a band that's from the university. They are playing at a club downtown." Sadie said.

"Well I don't plan on changing so if you disapprove that much you'll just have to go along without me."

Figuring that is what Jude was planning all alone, Sadie taking a deep breath to keep fighting with Jude, especially because she knew if she started to fight there would be no hope at all of getting her out of the house tonight, so she simply said, "You look fine. We're leaving as soon as I get showered and changed."

Jude not taking her eyes off the tv, a little annoyed that her plan had backfired just mumbled an 'ok'. Sadie then quickly headed upstairs to get ready.

Jude quickly brought her knees up to her chest and rested her chin on them wondering how she got herself her. Also falling for the wrong guy, always putting to much faith in the one that she had thought had changed. Why does she always seem to put herself in the same situation over and over again. She slid her chin off her knees till her forehead was now the thing resting on her head, and she tried to take deep breaths as she felt her chest tightening up yet again threatening to let tears start spilling down her face.

Jude didn't realize how long she stayed like that fighting of the threatening tears of hers while trying to avoid the panic attack she knew was going to come if she didn't catch her breath soon, but just as quickly as Sadie had disappeared to go get ready, she was back downstairs applying another layer of lip gloss to her lips.

Jude took one final deep breath and quickly lifted her head before Sadie started asking her if she was ok. She knew playing the 'I don't feel good' card wasn't going to get her out of tonight so she might as well suck it up and get tonight over with.

"Lets get this over and done with." Jude said in an extremely annoyed voice as she grabbed her jacket of the back of the chair.

"That's the attitude Jude." Sadie said with her voice dripping of sarcasm, then added, "Can you try to adjust the attitude while you are with my friends."

"Hey if I'm coming your getting me and attitude in one, so deal or I'm staying right there on the couch."

"What ever, lets go, if your going to be a bitch all night we might as well not be late as well." Sadie said grabbing her car keys.

"I'm driving." Jude said pulling out the keys to her own car.

"I don't think so, you just want to take your car so you can slip out at the first opportune moment."

"How well you think you know me. Fine we'll take your car." Jude said and mumbled under her breath, "I'll just catch a cab at an opportune moment."

Hearing her Sadie asked, "What was that?"

"Nothing." Jude said rolling her eyes then headed out of the door not waiting for Sadie to say anything further.

The drive to the club was a fairly silent one seeing both sisters were trying to avoid a fight that they knew would start by any conversation that they would bring up. Sadie really wanted to talk to Jude about the whole Tommy thing, but she knew that wasn't even a subject that Jude even wanted to discuss, especially with her. Jude on the other hand just wanted to pick a fight with Sadie to get out of this whole night.

When they finally got to the club Sadie jumped out of the car and ran up to her friends giving them all hugs before turning around to make sure Jude was still behind her, which she was, knowing if she was planning on sneaking away this was not that moment.

Looking at her friends she said, "Guys you remember my sister Jude."

The girl who name was Ashley said, "How could we not remember the Instant Star Jude Harrison."

"Yeah she is like totally famous." the other girl named Katie said.

"I can't believe we are hanging out with a celebrity." gushed the last girl of the group, Jennie.

Knowing how much Sadie hated all the attention that Jude got when she first became the Instant Star, especially when the attention at home turned from Sadie to herself, Jude decided to milk this a bit just to get on Sadie's nerves and make her regret ever inviting her.

"Well you know I decided to do Sadie a favor by tagging along. I even gave up a night hanging out with the rest of the bands that are at G-Major just to please Sadie."

"Wow aren't you just the sweetest sister in the world." Jenny said.

"I can't believe you gave up a night of hanging out with rock stars just for us." Ashley said in complete delight.

"We are so lucky." Katie said with the biggest smile on her face.

Jude turned to Sadie and wrapped her arm around her shoulder and sent her the biggest smirk, especially when she noticed how hard Sadie was trying to keep the smile on her face.

"What are sister for." Jude said sweetly.

Sadie quickly said, "We had better get in if we want to get good seats."

They all quickly agreed, and Jude did a mental check mark for herself for putting Sadie in her place, and most likely have her second guess herself on the idea of bring her there tonight.

As the night went on Jude got more and more annoyed, the music, if you could call it that, was some form of rock blues spiritual mix, not her kind of thing. Sadie as Jude had figured had pretty much ignored her so Jude took to sitting at the bar drinking nothing but cokes due to her last drinking experience.

Just then a guy took a seat on the stool beside her and said, "Is this stool taken?"

Glancing over at him, Jude said, "No."

Smiling over at Jude he said, "Names Justin, you are?"

Remembering last time she met someone at the bar Jude said, "Leaving."

Getting off the stool and figuring Sadie would figure it out if she left, Jude headed to the front door when the guy from the bar caught up to her and gently grabbed her arm and said, "Was it something that I said?"

Annoyed that this guy had decided to follow her, Jude said, "No, I was leaving, no more then that. Now if you don't mind letting me go, I was just leaving."

"I can give you a drive." Justin offered.

"Hasn't your mother ever told you not to get into cars with strangers." Jude said.

"But I've told you my name, which means we aren't complete strangers. Now if you would prefer to come get a coffee with me, right across the street maybe we can get to know each other better." Justin offered.

Jude hesitated at first, he was kind of cute, and there was no harm in a cup of coffee.

"Names Jude."

Smiling, Justin said, "Nice to meet you Jude."


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