A/N I love Degrassi and Eli Goldsworthy and I don't really want to portray him as a psychopath but I have to begin with

Disclaimer: I do not own degrassi though I wish I did

Later on in later chapters is my story but this is basically just a flashback! :)

UPDATE I'VE CHANGED IT A BIT JUST SO IT MAKES SENSE LATER ON

"I don't know what to say!"

He's gorgeous, so why can't I say yes? Okay yes apart from the small minor detail that he was my step brother.

But so what if he was my step brother, we started dating not long before our parents did. We never thought that they would ever get married and the fact that they did, didn't really stop us anyway. I feel like he is the one, but can I go through this knowing that my "Dad" was once his?

"Clare?" Jake is looking at me like I'm the one holding his life in my hands, all depending on that one answer. "Clare? Are you ok? You know that I can wait, if that's what you want?"

"Jake...Yes!" I'm so hoping that I've made the right decision.

Okay, so Jake was a family friend when I was younger but moved into the big city with his now divorced mom and dad. Before Jake moved back to Toronto, I went to Degrassi community school where I met my first ever boyfriend, K.C. We never worked out, but my second boyfriend Eli Goldsworthy, was my life. There was an ongoing feud between Eli and a guy called Fitz, who also stabbed Eli, but he became too obsessive, I mean he even crashed his own car (which he loved) into a wall just to keep me from ending it. He was totally messed up. His previous girlfriend had died right after they had a huge fight and I helped him through all the pain but I couldn't breathe, he was suffocating me. So spring break was my time away.

Coming back to school seeing Eli so cool with our break up hurt, a lot. The reason being was he was on anti-anxiety pills which gave him no emotions at all. But I met Jake Martin... where there was an obvious connection and fell deeply in love all for a causal relationship. And Eli was back stabbing me by writing the school play about our break up and portraying me as the psychopath. But he had Imogen and was totally over me.

Then Jake and I found out that our parents were dating and that my mums divorce was officially, so I broke it off with Jake feeling like our relationship was way much more than just casual. He wanted more too but it was going to be hard with our parents dating and all.

When the one night only play was being performed, Eli used Imogen to get back at me, who caused her to ditch the play leaving Fiona, a rich, alcoholic teen, to play the part of Clara. In the end Eli lost it in front of everyone, though only a few of us knew that it wasn't the new ending that he added in. He left school for a while, and during that time me and Jake got closer, but were starting to drift apart and I didn't want that to happen.

When Eli returned he wanted to apologise to all the people he hurt when he was off his anti-anxiety meds and saying that he now had bipolar. Fiona forgave him and in a chance for Jake to forgive him to, Eli trapped Jake and me in a steam room for us to work out our problems. I knew Eli still loved me it was obvious, but he wanted me to be happy and knew that I was happy with Jake.

Then the bombshell hit! My mom and Jake's Dad were getting married, which would make us step-siblings, and we were still dating. So I told them that I and Jake were dating for probably as long as they had and stormed out to the prom, where Jake officially broke up with me and my FTM transgender friend Adam got shot.

At the hospital I noticed that I still have feelings for Eli, though my feelings were stronger for Jake.

Jake left. To go work at a summer camp and live in his family cabin. We didn't talk at all that summer and I had told myself over and over that he was over me so I had to be over him too. All summer long. Then when he returned for our parents wedding, I knew that I was never going to be over him, and when he wanted to talk with me I panicked and said that we were over for good, which lead him to leave.

He ended up taking Alli, my best friend, Marisol, the school skank, Drew, the jock, and his girlfriend and new school president, Katie, to his cabin to have an end of year party without me, so I went with the other school skank, Bianca, to his cabin where I found him kissing Alli. So I ran off into the woods while everyone else freaked out about a stupid scary story that Jake told them to scare them. In the woods I hurt my hand and ran into Eli who had ridden his bike to the party and helped me with my hand, a bit.

I even thought about kissing him to get back at Jake, but him and Drew ended up running into us. When we got back to the cabin, Jake told me that kissing Alli was the biggest mistake in his life and he wasn't over me. After the night at the cabin I know knew that Jake was mine and Eli was cool with it though I would not be forgiving Alli anytime soon.

"Clare, are you sure that you want to marry me? I mean you've been through hell lately, and I don't want to tie US down if you're not okay with it." Jake really wanted the best for me, and after going over our first few years together, I think that I HAVE found that guy of my dreams...

Even if he was my step brother.