Summary: "In the ocean, under a rock, in the sky, in a volcano or better yet… in the hands of a certain fire bender? Tell me, where does your hear lie?"
(THIS CHAPTER HAS BEEN EDITED 10/9/12)
Where Does Your Heart Lie
Chapter 1
Liar
"Would of came back for you,
I just needed time,
To do what I have to do.
Caught in a life,
I can't let it go, whether that's right,
I will never know.
Hope you forgive me, never meant wrong,
Tried to be patient and waited to long,
But I woulda came back, but I woulda came back..."
Katara's POV
My eyes remained plastered on the soft cold earth ground. I could not remember how or when was the last time I have ever truly felt alone? Aren't I alone right now? Yes, I am, though it's different than before. I feel… empty; empty knowing that I have no one to run to with my problems or fears anymore.
Shut up Katara, you are exaggerating.
True.
Closing my eyes, I knew it's not the same anymore. A single person, of course, that is what I am. Yet here I am, surrounded by people who treat me with love and respect, but in reality they are gone. Luckily for my foolish hope not dead, but married. The word I fear, married.
Married!
Married!
Married…
It ranged in my head, like a lovely bell ringing for the happiness of eternity, fulfilled with enjoyment. Who knew six years after the war could lead to the m-word. No, no, no. It's just a silly thought. I mean, look where I'm standing now... In the dirt, at night, in the middle of nowhere, you lunatic. Oh yes how lovely, complaining about how the m-word disturbed me greatly.
Sign…
It disturbed me so much that I had to leave Toph and Aang's wedding early. Yes, they are as an official ma-m-word couple today. It was beautiful seeing them walking together, surrounded by hand craft earth decorations. Wooden detailed designed tables where placed, as of chairs too. A set up of a wide variety of food was also available, nuts, pumpkins, squash, green vegetables, and some meat, knowing Aang was a little sensitive when it came to meat, of course with his vegetarian self.
Decorations of a soft and not too dark green representing the Earth Kingdom and vivid yet burnt orange for air were everywhere. Glitter on the floor and curtains making a light welcoming elegant look were also pleasing. Toph wore a gorgeous silk robe and under it was her dress. Long, elegant and lime green and orange embroider designed flowers running up a mere twelve inches from the dress's end and up. Her makeup was dazzling too. To me, it was a Toph I have never seen before, a taken and happy Toph. It was rare to even see her like that. As for Aang, they both had matching outfits to be exact. Quite cute I recall.
I was truly excited and happy for them. Aang realized that I could never return his affections for me. I never saw him as a romantic interest but like a younger brother, a sibling, a friend who I will always help and support whenever he needs me. He was upset when I gave him "no" as an answer but what made me not to feel so guilty about was that he accepted my choice and moved on… moved onto Toph.
Flashback
"Katara, I am so glad you made it." He rushed to me and gave me that unforgettable wide and generous smile he would always display.
"Aang, I'm so happy for you and Toph! Here I brought you two a gift." I handed him the small white box that was about the size of my palm… pretty small.
"What is it?" Aang shook the box, tilting his head to the left and looked at me curiously while his fingers made their way to the box's string.
"Wait, I can't tell you, nor you can't open it. I want you to open it with Toph."
"Toph!" He shouted into the air.
The short newlywed earth bender made her way towards us. I embraced her as she embraced me. Her long hair was down, and half of it on her left side, swept back from falling forward with an elegant white lotus flower. She looked stunning and really grew up after in the past couple of years since the war had passed.
"Hello Sugar Queen!" And yet her character never changed.
"Toph, Katara got us this gift but I can't open it alone, I need you to open it with me so I can see what it is." The blind girl stared at him as if she could see his face with pure humor. Well the girl could hear right? Aang handed Toph the box placing her fingers where the string were, slowly pulling them. Seriously, Aang looked like he was going to die, knowing that Toph was teasing him by going extra but I mean, extra slow.
What seem like centuries, the string was off, leaving Aang to open the box, he pulled out a pair of matching necklaces.
"Well… what is it?" Toph questioned blinking at Aang multiple times waiting for his reply but I decided to speak up instead.
"They're handmade necklaces I made. I made a pair for when Suki and Sokka got… married." I said it, oh La, I need some water. Both benders caught up with the tension with my voice but ignored it anyway.
"They are beautiful!" Aang exclaimed. He took one and placed it over his neck after he took the other and placed it over his wife's. It was long and had two colored stones stuck together, an emerald and a garnet. It was shaped in a round way that created a ying and yang symbol. I was too proud of the art work.
"Awww you didn't have too Sugar Queen!" Toph said while gliding her fingers and feeling for the rock material against her chest. I looked at them once more, happy. Happy in that moment, in which, I was too.
"I need some fresh air."
"Why?" Toph questioned me while rapidly blinking like she did with Aang.
"I feel like staring at the moon." Lair, liar, lair. I always lied.
To just get away for a while right?
Yes.
"Ok sure, there are a few balconies you can go to or if you wanna walk well, the garden is open for you." Toph smiled at while Aang nodded his head. I excused myself into the night.
This feels wrong.
Keep walking Tara.
Yes, keep walking.
Walk it all away.
End of flash back.
Suki and Sokka's matching necklaces where different however. I made them out of peridot and turquoise. It seemed like a simple yet nice combinations. They two were happy as well when I gave them the necklace gift.
As generous as I am, I decide to make one for Zuko and Mai's wedding too. Bloostone and carnelian was the choice of rocks for them. The red and black suited them. Well, it was what first popped in my head when I thought Mai and Zuko together.
Liar.
I kept walking with my eyes closed. I did not lie to myself. I just don't want show it. I feel something every time I look, hear, or talk about Zuko. My world seems to go round, and round. A fear invoking beneath my soul hoping that the never ending spins would come to a pause. All of this caused a tingling sensation form in my lower abdomen, and a smile couldn't seem to fade.
No I am not in love with him… nor infatuated.
Liar.
I can't be, it can't be… he is an engaged man.
So, things happened.
Like what, Mai going away somehow?
Yes.
I can't believe I am arguing with myself.
No Tara, it's not arguing, just talking to yourself is what it's called…
La, save me.
"Ow!" I stumbled on a rock. Where the hell am I going? I don't know. I knew it was going to be Zuko and Mai's wedding will be tomorrow but I have no way of getting to the Fire Nation in such a short amount of time. I shook my head at the mistake I made knowing that I should have stayed at Ba Sing Se with Toph, Aang, Suki, and my brother. They all could have found a way of getting to the Fire Nation by somehow feeding Appa a super food… or something.
Stupid Tara.
No! Stupid wedding planners and sages for arranging these dates. Its either, go to the Avatar's wedding or Fire Lord's.
Tara, you know well you rather go to the Fire Lord's to oppose of it.
"I would never do that." I need to stop being so loud.
It's mean, selfish, and immature.
I stumbled again but this time I feel hard against the floor. My body felt cold, too cold. I quickly regained my strength and tried to stand back up but I couldn't. It felt as if some force was withholding me. Putting all their weight on me, it was getting hard to breath.
"It's been a while huh, Ka-ta-ra." That voice, it echoed loudly as if I were in metal corridors. Listening to it, day, and night. I felt the pressure die off, and stood up as quickly as I could and turned to face them. I felt all my strength devour as I was on the floor again with my knees sustaining me, and hands on the ground. My eyes didn't remove it's sight from the ground until I composed myself and decoded the voice of the owner. That was when my head snapped up to look at them.
My heart stopped. Everything stopped. The wind blowing, water running, earth rotating around the sun, the fire burning, time itself, all elements and the blood in my veins, La watching over me, Yue watching over me, Tui, my mother watching over me. It had all stopped at that moment when I looked into their eyes. Evil and deceiving eyes that I thought were long gone-eyes in which I fell for and right then did again, but I was wrong.
It's because you lie.
That's when my world stopped and went black.
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-SweetNightmares
