Rated PG-13 for the same sex relationship.

A/N: I don't own anything but the plot of the story! I also don't know much about the split shift thing as season 5 hasn't premiered here yet! I think Sophia is the one that got demoted, right? Did she even get demoted... I don't know, anyay in this story I thought it'd be fun to refer to her as the 'oh demoted one' when in Sara's POV.

Shift Split Dilemma

Sara:

You know what sucks? All the guy's think I have a thing for Grissom, even Catherine started to believe it. What none of them know is that I don't have a thing for Grissom.

Now that the shift has split I feel a little depressed. You see, I was kind of happy that she wasn't on our shift anymore but now I'm rather pissed about the fact that I don't see her anymore, we just started to get along until all this happened.

I don't even get to have those silly little bickering sessions anymore. I haven't seen her since the split. I think the psychiatrists actually have a condition for what I'm going through. It's called Catherine Willows withdrawls. See that's what no-one ever noticed about me is I'm attracted to women aswell. Especially a certain blonde.

I have always controlled my attraction to her even when we were out at that crime scene at the convenience store. She looked so gorgeous ranting about seniority that I just had to do something to distract myself from thinking about her beautiful hair, beautiful body, getting off topic here Sidle - anyway I even managed to control my attraction to her the night Eddie was murdered.

Now I just don't see her anymore and I need my Catherine Willows fix. She doesn't stick around when swing finishes so I don't see her. I wish shift's would go back to the way they were. We wouldn't have the 'oh demoted one' and Catherine wouldn't be on swing. Okay I admit that I'm glad she got the promotion but I miss her so much.

You know ever since I got here and the moment I first saw her I have been so in love with her. Of course she never knew that. Hell she barely even acknowledged me and that just says that she wouldn't feel the same way as me. I don't just miss her on a professional level. I miss her the way she used to make me feel good when we worked a case. She actually respected and talked to me, okay so I do miss her just on a professional level.

Gee I really wish shift's would go back to the way they were and I think Grissom actaully really misses Cath. I mean she was his best friend but no-one could ever miss her the way I do. I love Catherine Willows and the pain just wont go away.

Catherine:

Being an exotic dancer you experience things that people wouldn't usually expect from you. I have had stupid one night stands with women but I have never felt this way toward another woman ever!

The only thing wrong with my promotion wasn't getting Warrick and Nick, it was leaving her. I know I wasn't exactly forthcoming in welcoming her but as time wore on I started feeling guilty about the way I treated her. Now would you believe me if I told you I actually miss her?

When we worked that case out in that place, wherever it was - the one that involved Tammy Felton - I enjoyed having those little jabs at her, especially that one about the mirror. That was priceless, the look on her face, gee was that the cutest look, the way her face lit up with shock. I really didn't mean it the way she took it, it was meant as a compliment. She really doesn't need to worry about her appearence, she's gorgeous enough. The way her face lit up in mock anger when Warrick took that jab about missing what we were supposed to be seeing was actually my favourite look.

I guess you could say I'm going to miss Sara. Can't believe it, can you? Well neither can I. I never thought I'd miss her but then again I always thought I'd be in Gil's shadow. I guess things don't always turn out as you'd expect.

You'll never know Sara, you really wont. I have loved you since the moment you stepped into the doorway and asked me if I knew where Catherine Willows was and I told you she was in the field. Looking back on it I guess it was a little funny, me telling you I was in the field. Hmm, I wish I could be in two places at once because then one of me would be here and the other would be with you.

You see, the cold hearted bitch that is Catherine Willows to you my dear Sara is capable of loving someone like you, infact I do, I love you, I love you very much Sara. Forget Grissom, I wish you could have seen me for who I truly am.