Dear Max,
I am sorry not to be able to say this to you personally. Obvious conditions have limited my abilities to seek you, so I trust that Moe will hand this letter to you. I... wanted to properly apologize. I know saying sorry isn't going to fix anything... but I still need to say more than I did in court. Because what I said then wasn't enough, and... there are things to be said not meant for other's ears.
You should know that I am truly sorry. I didn't mean to kill the ringmaster... I really didn't... I was devastated when I found out. And I definitely didn't mean to pin it on you. Do you think I had planned to? I threw a bust down there, not a mannequin. I was hoping no one would see- because what would they see? Less than half a body! The cloak had not been intentionally attached, obviously, because I thought it was Regina, who wasn't wearing a cloak. When I found out you had been arrested because the cloak and hat looked like you... I was horrified. I didn't want you to be charged for murder... but at the time it was my only option. I would have willingly given myself up in turn for you, except that I wanted to see Bat open his eyes again, and... I was a coward.
Everything had gone the worst way possible... I didn't even kill Regina. Not that I should have... I realize that now. I was angry and frustrated and I hated her. I hated her because she was always so happy, even when talking about Bat's "death". She seemed completely unbothered by his slowly ending life. I hated her for being so spoiled. Acro, Bat, and Regina were all Dad's kids, right? Even if we weren't his blood children... I can understand favoring her over us, and I am eternally grateful for what he did, I never blamed him, but... she always got more attention than we did. No matter how hard we tried, she was always his favorite. I envied her to no end. She fought with Dad sometimes, like normal kids, and she was spoiled to the point where she would demand things out of him without even thinking.
Bat and I had lived for a short time without parents- she never knew what being parentless was like... so we were never that way: he saved our lives, and we could never demand anything more than that, or get mad. But despite that, despite that we were better behaved, that I loved him just as much, if not more, than she did... he loved her more. She got the attention. And I hated it. She got attention from everyone... I hated her. I hated how she was so happy about Bat's death, I hated how it was her fault, I hated how she got attention from Dad, and I hated how she got attention from everyone else... including you. ...She had everything I wanted and couldn't have... Happiness, attention, and your heart. Every time you called her "Sweetie Pie Princess"... sickened me. What would it take for you to see that she only had eyes for Bat? That I only had eyes for you? What did she have that I didn't? It broke me inside, but in the end, I have no one to blame but myself. I destroyed everything... and I'm where I should be. I lov- I'm really sorry, Max.
Lo- From,
Acro.
