Inner Turmoil
....I stand in silence, trying to see the light...
why can't I seem to overcome my obsticals?
this isn't the way things are supposed to be.....
I'm supposed to be on the top...
first rate,second to none....
but no...
What is it that's holding me back?
Why can't I understand the problem?
I know of nothing that can help me, I've tried it all...
so all I can do is contemplate...make the attempt when I can...
I made the vow to be the best...
but there are those who would keep me from fullfilling it...
I stand and watch my efforts fade, bowing to the power of another....
nothing I can do is ever good enough, but I'm always near the top...
near the top is insufficient for me....
if it means my death I'll succeed....
I'll suceed if I have to crawl to reach my goal....
...but what happens if I come across another hurdle while I'm down?
Shimata....I can't win....I'll forever be the second best....
...there was a time even when I was pushed down to being the fourth....
...but I couldn't stand for that...
...I couldn't stand for that at all...
Second is one thing...third is another....
fourth is out of the question....
But as it stands, am I even the second, or am I the third?
the possibility is there...I can no longer deny it...
...I suppose when it comes down to it, I hold only two things dear...
...my wife and son...
...and even them I neglect...
neglected for my strive for power...
my quest to be the greatest
I'm going to have to accept the fact that I can never again be the best...
I have to accept the fact that I'm second string.....
I'm not the one that people depend on to get the job done...
They have a true hero...
something which I can never be....
...but never the less, I can try...
if I can't be the best, I can still help...
...nobody can deny me that...
I've made up my mind...
I know what I have to do...
even if it means the end of my life...
I have to aid in the battle...
...but maybe it doesn't matter whether I live or die...
in which case there's nothing to worry about...
but I'll try to stay alive...
not for myself...
but for my wife and child...
~Bejita during the final fight with Buu
