What I become from where I came

A colorless world filled with no sounds or people

Either white or black but nothing more

I feel nothing nor do I see anything

Pitch black blurs my vision

Blurs the night as I stand here alone

No one there to be there with me

Not that I expected to have a companion

Companions are weakness because you need feelings

Feelings are worthless trash

They get in your way and block what right or wrong

Right or wrong but who is to tell?

Meeting the man who brought me under his wing

Was it wrong or right?

Following orders with no questions asked

Not feeling anything as I killed and walked alone

Loneliness is a troublesome thing

Was it wrong or right?

Kidnapping a girl then having to watch her

She fascinated me

My colorless world against her rays of color bursting in the air

I could see all her emotions traced out

She had weakness but she was strong

Her colors would always blind me

I was always in this world with no color

No sounds

No people

No feelings

In her world I was driven into was filled with color

Sounds

People

Emotions

These unfamiliar things I am feeling

But impossible

Feelings are not there

I was alone from the start and that is where I'll end

Why was I struggling?

My past was filled with no one and I had enjoyed that

Enjoyed?

To be enjoyed then you have to have happiness

Happiness is something to read in books

She challenged it was from the heart

Who is to tell what happiness is?

When I see her face the instant word I think is happiness

She was full of it

I wanted to break her down and strip everything

I could not

Something in me knew that I couldn't

Why couldn't I?

I killed so many things that I lost count

Why couldn't I kill her?

I was always alone that I never thought I would need a companion

Why did I seek one now?

My eyes have nothing to give as I take as much as I want

Everything mirroring in my eyes as I stare at her

You do not affect me woman but her nakama tell me that I changed

Changed

How?

The one thing that I feared most

Her colorful world

Her feelings

Her sounds

Her people

I become more human

Human requires a heart

Heart needs feelings

I own nothing of those

Born without a heart

Lonely all this time with no heart

When I reached out I did indeed find a heart

What I didn't realize

I had a companion for the first time

It took me till my death to realize it

A companion but how do I handle one?

Is that why I pushed her away?

I didn't need a companion yet she gave me hers

A/N- So I made this. It's a poem in Ulquiorra's point of view obviously. I hope you like it. I might enter it in a contest. What do you think? It's supposed to reflect his past before 'UNMASKED' came out. So yeah. No flames please. Thanks for reading!