What I become from where I came
A colorless world filled with no sounds or people
Either white or black but nothing more
I feel nothing nor do I see anything
Pitch black blurs my vision
Blurs the night as I stand here alone
No one there to be there with me
Not that I expected to have a companion
Companions are weakness because you need feelings
Feelings are worthless trash
They get in your way and block what right or wrong
Right or wrong but who is to tell?
Meeting the man who brought me under his wing
Was it wrong or right?
Following orders with no questions asked
Not feeling anything as I killed and walked alone
Loneliness is a troublesome thing
Was it wrong or right?
Kidnapping a girl then having to watch her
She fascinated me
My colorless world against her rays of color bursting in the air
I could see all her emotions traced out
She had weakness but she was strong
Her colors would always blind me
I was always in this world with no color
No sounds
No people
No feelings
In her world I was driven into was filled with color
Sounds
People
Emotions
These unfamiliar things I am feeling
But impossible
Feelings are not there
I was alone from the start and that is where I'll end
Why was I struggling?
My past was filled with no one and I had enjoyed that
Enjoyed?
To be enjoyed then you have to have happiness
Happiness is something to read in books
She challenged it was from the heart
Who is to tell what happiness is?
When I see her face the instant word I think is happiness
She was full of it
I wanted to break her down and strip everything
I could not
Something in me knew that I couldn't
Why couldn't I?
I killed so many things that I lost count
Why couldn't I kill her?
I was always alone that I never thought I would need a companion
Why did I seek one now?
My eyes have nothing to give as I take as much as I want
Everything mirroring in my eyes as I stare at her
You do not affect me woman but her nakama tell me that I changed
Changed
How?
The one thing that I feared most
Her colorful world
Her feelings
Her sounds
Her people
I become more human
Human requires a heart
Heart needs feelings
I own nothing of those
Born without a heart
Lonely all this time with no heart
When I reached out I did indeed find a heart
What I didn't realize
I had a companion for the first time
It took me till my death to realize it
A companion but how do I handle one?
Is that why I pushed her away?
I didn't need a companion yet she gave me hers
A/N- So I made this. It's a poem in Ulquiorra's point of view obviously. I hope you like it. I might enter it in a contest. What do you think? It's supposed to reflect his past before 'UNMASKED' came out. So yeah. No flames please. Thanks for reading!
