Hey people! How are you? This is my first Kingdom Hearts fic, and also the first fic I write in English, so if I make too many mistakes please don't feel offended, and tell me!

Full summary (no real need to read this, can be considered a light spoiler): Roxas lost his family in a mysterious accident, and now he has a lot to deal with by himself, also keeping his own secrets. His cousin Sora just discovered his true feelings for his best friend Riku, who is a rich boy with four older insane brothers. When Roxas arrives Destiny Islands, he soon meets Axel, a boy with lots of family issues and is in a weird gang. The redhead's best friend is Demyx, a cheerful person who has his own problems, but always try to help the others, forgetting himself. He will do his best to help Zexion get over his trauma, since the boy was kept prisoner by his own father for seven years. Later on, we'll also be introduced to Leon's problems, and the weird way he meets Cloud, a young man that work as a host in a bar.

WARNINGS about the story: it's going to be centered in Roxas and his issues with the world, mostly his relationship with Axel, but I intend to have a lot of work in the side pairings too: RikuSora, Zemyx, Cleon, and possible others. So, I'm warning you, there will be YAOI, with lemon in a not too far future, and maybe light yuri (and maybe some little het too, duh). So, if you don't like malexmale relations, this is not your place! If you feel offended with language, gay sex, sex at all, drugs and the suggestion of any of those, please just don't read my fic, I WARNED YOU.

Oh, and I'm also not really fond of these fic categories, it's saying Romance/General but will have some teen and adult angst, humor, probably some drama, and friendship and family subjects too. And, some Final Fantasy characters that didn't appear in Kingdom Hearts might appear also (actually, in this chapter there's one already). I WARNED YOU, SO DON'T COMPLAIN IN THE FUTURE!! ok, that's it. Let's get started with these at once...

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Kingdom Hearts... yes, that's really sad. I still cry every night when I remember it ;.;


Chapter One: Prelude

Roxas lightly hit his head on the cool glass of the window. One last view of the twilight... Nothing too much about it. The sunset that could be seen at a window of the forth floor of the Twilight Hospital was much like any other. The blond couldn't even make himself feel sad about leaving his hometown; he couldn't feel anything at all. He was empty... and he wanted to be. He wanted everyone to stay away. He wouldn't have to suffer anymore, and wouldn't make anyone suffer as well.

Every material thing he had was already packed. What couldn't be packed was sold or donated. Soon the woman of the Social Service who had his custody for the moment would come to pick him up, and take him to the airport. He would start a new life... He didn't want a new life. He didn't want any life. Too bad he didn't have the guts to end with his own. But he believed, this was only a matter of time.


"Sora!"

The brunet had barely made his way into his house and heard his father calling him from the living room. "Hya dad, wassup?"

"Come here, and sit. I have to talk to you." the tall and tanned man was wearing a very serious and tired expression, sitting on a chair by the window, with his hand still on the phone he was using several moments ago. Sora sprawled himself on the sofa in front of him, a little out of breath.

"Dad, I'm kinda in a hurry right now... Riku is coming to pick me up in half an hour and I still have to shower and get dressed, and don't want to be late, I'm already hungry..."

"Riku? Didn't you just spend the entire day with him? Don't you two get sick of each other?" the long-haired man said, forgetting the subject he already had in mind.

"Well yeah, but today we were at Kairi's place, and she just made us watch with her an 8-hours-marathon of her favorite tv program, and let me tell you, it sucked. And every time Riku and I started and conversation, she PUNCHED us (knowing we can't punch her back), but also wouldn't let us leave until it ended (knowing we can't just deny her something or she would start crying and we also can“t take her crying). But tonight she is going to have a fancy family dinner, so it's just me and Riku, and we thought we could have a guys moment, know what I mean? Since it's Friday, and last weekend of summer vacation as well. Aff, Kairi's my friend, I love her and she knows, but she is going through a Teenage-I'mFutileAndSelfishAndCan'tStopTalking-Syndrome phase and being a pain in the ass lately."

"Yeah, I know what you mean. I think you're going through the same thing!"

"DAD!"

"You said you where in a hurry but just keep talking! Oh, just forget it, let's talk about what's really important."

"But I'm late!"

"Your own fault. Sora, you're not a child anymore, stop acting like one."

Sora pouted, but instead of keep replying, just sat better on the sofa and stared at his young dad, waiting.

"Well, what I need to talk about is really serious. I already talked to Leon sooner today about it, and he was really mature. I need you to be the same way now."

"Ok dad, just spit it all out at once!" Sora was getting curious. If his father had already talked to his brother before talking to him, it must be huge news.

"Hm...remember your aunt Suzan?"

"Mom's twin sister? The one who lived far away and didn't even show up to mum's funeral?"

"Exactly. I think I told you, she lived in Twilight Town with her husband and children. At the beginning of this summer, she was traveling with her family to Hollow Bastion, and... well, it was night and raining a lot, the road was really dangerous..."

"Whoaa, don't tell me sh-?" Sora said already understanding, almost getting up from the sofa.

"It was a terrible accident. Everyone in the car passed way... except for her older son."

"That's... so sad... I might not remember them very well, but still..." Sora was almost crying for the fate of the relatives he didn't even remember the face. "And when did it happen?"

"A couple months ago. But Sora... there's more. Remember their older son? He was around your age."

"Hm... I think I only met with him once or twice, when we were really little... was his name something like... Roxee?"

"Roxas, yes. He was the only one that survived the accident, and god knows how, with only a few wounds. At least physically. But he was in shock, after waking up alone at a hospital one week later, his family already buried when he didn't even know they were dead, and without knowing any of the people who were taking care of him... when he heard what happened, he got really desperate, screaming that it was his fault and that he wanted to die too... he had a really rough time, blaming himself, suffering, and without no one at all to rely on."

"No one? He doesn't have any other family, like grandfathers or uncles?"

"That's quite the other point I wanted to talk to you about. Apparently... we are his only family. The boy doesn't have anyone else, or a place to stay, since his house was rented, his family lost the car in the accident, and they didn't have any other real patrimony. He can't afford taking care of himself, he is a minor and not graduated."

"So... the boy is a minor...alone in the world... we're his only family... wait... you saying he is going to live with US?"

"Yup. He gets here tomorrow by noon."

"TOMORROW?! Just like this? But,but!" Sora leaned his head in his both hands, trying to think."Wait, wasn't the accident two months ago? Why only now?"

"The person I talked on the phone, the woman who is in charge of the Twilight Town Social Service, said that they where searching for the boy's family everywhere, but couldn't find any relatives. When Roxas started getting a little better from the mess he was after the accident, he managed to tell his mother had a sister, but for some reason it really took time for them to be able to contact us. I first talked to them two days ago... But I didn't tell anything for you and your brother because I myself was really confused about having another teenager here in this house. We took so much time to adapt living here only us three after your mother died... But thinking about the situation of the boy, I couldn't just refuse taking care of him. You understand, don't you, Sora?"

"...Yeah. I wouldn't feel okay after knowing we left the boy by himself too. It's the right thing to do. But it's so weird... It's been only you, Leon and I for already four years now... I just hope we can all get along! What's his age? His year in school?"

"He is 16. And I don't remember exactly, but I think his birthday is only a couple months after yours, so he's going to be a junior at school this year just like you."

"Oh...and he's going to the same school I go?"

"Yeah, I already talked to the principal, he is in the same class as you. I think it might be easier for him this way. Sora, this boy Roxas got through a lot of things. For what I heard, he is having some problems in being around people after what happened, and hardly talking... so you're officially elected his guardian now. I would ask Leon to, but he's starting college this year and won't be around as much you. You have to take care of him, okay? I'm trusting that you can handle this mission. You got that?" the man said with his cobalt blue eyes showing how serious he was.

"Yeah. I got it dad. You can trust me. I'm not a kid anymore, you won't have to rely only on Leon for everything. You'll see! I'll turn this guy Roxas into a social butterfly! He will have so many friends he won't even remember he lost his family!" Sora said jumping of his sit, a decided look burning in his bright blue eyes.

"Okay, okay Sora, don't overdo it, just keep Roxas from being bullied or being left alone and I'll be more than happy!" then the man stopped, frowning his dark brown brows. "Sora, weren't you late for something? Riku picking you or anything like that?"

"Ohmigod it's true! I completely forgot with all this Roxas talk! Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiit! Riku will annoy me again if I get late!" and the boy rushed upstairs, leaving his father with a soft smile in his face.


The redhead calmly stared at the sea, the reflection of the stars and the almost full moon making the water even more beautiful, and feeling the cool and salty breeze coming from it while giving a long drag in his mint flavored cigarette. So distracted that didn't notice a certain blond sneaking behind him to get near his left ear.

"HEEEEEEEEEY AXEL!" the sneaky blond cried out loud, making the redhead jump and get dirty from sand as he turned to face who disturbed him in such a delicate way.

"Fuck Demyx! Did you really have to do this??" Axel glared at the sandy-blond.

"Nope. But you seemed so concentrated, I couldn't resist!" Demyx grinned, sitting on the sand beside the taller boy.

"And what do you want? I told you earlier, I'm in a very bad mood and don't want to hang with the gang tonight." Axel sad in a harsh tone, turning to face the sea once again.

"Yeah yeah, I know. But then Xig calls me saying that Paine is convoking everyone to her house, 'cause she wants to make an announcement and it seems important. They called your house and nobody answered, so Xig asked me to find you and take you there."

"And how the fuck did you know where I was?"

"Oh please, Axel. We've known each other since forever! I KNOW where you go when you are upset, you know I know, and you keep asking me this question every fucking time I come to pick you up! And I also know that now you would say 'I just wanted to hear that you found me because you love me' and then I would say 'but I do love you, you fuckin' bastard! That's why I keep coming to pick you up' and then you smile and say 'well I love you too, but you're not really my type so lets just keep as colorful friends'." Demyx said it all without stopping to breathe, seeming a little pissed.

"We've been through this a lot of times, haven't we?" Axel said with a soft and slightly sad smile.

"Yes we have. Now let's get going."

They stood up, brushing the sand off of their jeans and start walking to the downtown.

"Would you mind telling me what got you into this awful mood? You even closed the door in my face when I passed by your house earlier, that's unusual."

"It's...kinda hard to explain. The house's been pretty empty these days, Alice has been staying with her dad this month, since her school only start a couple weeks after ours, and then Reno is using the time to work more than normal and doing his stuff, hardly showing up, only fast checking on me twice week, to see if I haven't burned the house to ashes yet."

"And what about your mom?" Demyx sounded truly concerned, he'd eyes a bit widened.

"Ha. God knows where she is. I haven't seeing her face for a fuckin' week. But I'm not worried, sooner or later she'll show up at home, worst than the last time." Axel said without looking at his friend.

"Shit Axel, why you didn't call me? You've been alone for the whole week? I could manage to get out of work a little and pass by to see you..."

"Haven't I told you? Dear Mommy broke the fucking telephone when she tried to hit me with it, and I don't think Reno is gonna buy another one so soon. And I know you've been working nonstop during this vacation and you need the job, I wouldn't ask you to leave..."

"I wouldn't loose the job if I missed only an afternoon or something like it..."

"That's not the point, Dem. I'm used to be alone, it's nothing new. It's just...after I lost the last job, and failing the school year too, knowing I'll have to be a junior again this year, without you, and thinking about this totally screwed life I have... if it wasn't for lil' Alice I would've just slit my wrists and ended with it all a long time ago."

"You know I hate when you talk like this." the sandy-blond said with a sad look.

"Yeah Dem, but... I don't have anything to wait for. I don't have a future, I don't have a real family, I don't have money at all, I barely have food! All I've got is because of Reno and you guys, and I'm truly thankful for that, but I just wished... I just wished to have one opportunity, one fucking opportunity to change my life somehow, to have something to fight for, something that would make me want to keep going on. I don't care how this opportunity comes, but if I could choose... Oh I wished I had a person that I would do everything for, a person I would truly love and he would love me back. That would be more than enough to make me survive the hell I live and keep fighting for a place in the world, to be able to help Alice, repay Reno and even... do something to that damned mother of mine."

"I know what you mean..." Demyx said while giving his friend an one-armed hug and a kiss in his cheek.

"And if this person was an amazingly hot and cute boy with an incredibly sexy ass, then I might even die of happiness!" Axel completed grinning, feeling a little bit better after talking with his best friend.


The brunet let the cold water fall through his body, while trying to figure out how he was feeling. He sure was confused and apprehensive about this guy Roxas starting to live with him and his family: after the death of his mother, him, his father and his older brother became really close and even overprotective with each other. Which effects having a stranger inside their house could have in their relationship? But he knew pretty much how it was to lose someone he loved, so even imagining losing three at a time was enough to make him want to start crying, and thinking that his cousin have been through this was making him wanting really bad to hug the poor boy and make him feel a little better.

Sora was lost in his thoughts until a loud noise coming from his belly reminded him of how hungry he was, and in sequence he remembered of Riku.'Shit! I'm totally late for our date!' He thought as turning off the shower and start drying himself. 'Wait, I just thought...date? NO NO IS NOT A DATE SORA, GET THIS BAD THOUGHTS OUT OF YOUR BAD MIND!' The boy berated himself, but knew it was helpless. He was having these strange thoughts about Riku for some months now, as well as these "weird" sensations through his whole body when he was too much close of the silver-haired boy. After a really bad internal fight, the brunet admitted to himself the truth, in the beginning of the summer: he was gay, and completely in love with his all-life best friend. And all he had done after this discovery was trying to stop thinking about his friend that way - or at least stop blushing every time the other boy was near. Too good it was summer and he could just say he spent too much time in the beach and got sunburn.

With only a towel hanging from his waist and still mildly wet, Sora crossed the hall, opened his bedroom door and walked directly to his wardrobe, opening it and saying in a loud voice: "Hm...what should I wear?"

"I think you should wear those gray tight jeans, they look really great on you."

Sora turned so fast his neck made a painful "crack".

"Riku! O-oh my god, you scared me!" the brunet put his right hand over his bumping chest, his cerulean eyes widened "What are you doing here?"

"We are going out, remember?" the silver-haired boy said with a smirk. He was sitting in Sora's bed, arms crossed in his chest and seeming very relaxed.

"YEAH I remember. I meant what you doing in my bedroom!" Sora said blushing a little, trying not to seem too uncomfortable; Riku had been is his room a million times before, and also a million times before he had been topless in front of the boy. Why it had to be so different now? He turned again to the wardrobe, pulling out of it the jeans Riku talked about and letting it on a chair near, then began looking for a shirt.

"You're the one who takes too much time to get ready! I got here almost 20 minutes ago, but since you were taking so long Mr. Laguna asked me to come up here and hurry you up, since it's already almost ten, and he doesn't want us walking on the streets too late if it's not necessary. So here I am!"

"I'm not late because I want to, is just... somethings happened... but I'll tell you after I eat, now I'm too hungry to think about it. Now, where's that fucking red tee?" the boy said a little irritated, and only god knows how he wasn't feeling Riku's stare at his back, or the dirty thoughts the taller boy was having towards him. 'OMG look at this thin and fragile little body... I could lick each drop of water falling in this tiny back... oh and how I wished this white towel could just fall to the floor and give me the vision of his perfect cute little ass... oh shit, I have to stop this thoughts, or I'm going to have an erection here and now! FUCK, Sora is my friend! He will never think of my this way...'

"Riku, do you have any idea of where-" Sora started, turning to the boy in his bed and stopping to talk when he saw something behind Riku. "Oh, there it is!" Riku widened his eyes and totally froze when he saw his best friend coming in his direction, walking to the bed without looking at the floor he was stepping and ridiculously tumbling in his own skateboard, falling.

When Sora realized what happened and slowly opened his eyes, he realized he was on top of a really red Riku, with only a towel in his waist, and immediately blushed too. His face was less then one centimeter away from the boy's, their noses touching and their hot breaths mixing. But the most intense sensation that swept their bodies was when their eyes met. Cerulean met aquamarine, and none of the boys could unlock their gazes. But what Sora didn't know, was how desperate the boy under him was. 'shit shit shit shit shit! Somebody take this boy away from me, I'm not going to be able to control myself anymore! Look at this cute pinky lips... I want to feel them so much...' The silver-haired boy couldn't help but slowly approach his face to the younger's one. But then froze when he realized the brunet was doing the same motion. Their lips just brushed really lightly, when just in cue, a REALLY loud noise coming from Sora's belly was made heard, making Riku jump from the bed, shoving the other boy and running to the outside of the room, slamming the door behind him. There, catching his breath, he managed to say to Sora "Hurry up, I'm hungry! I'll be waiting downstairs."

The brunet let himself fall in the bed, trying to think clearly about what happened. 'I almost kissed Riku... I almost kissed my bestfriend! And... I think he almost kissed me too! But I can't be sure...What should I do?'


Paine's living room was crowded with the entire gang, and the said girl was standing in the corner of the room, to be able to look at everyone. Making a loud noise in her throat to call the attention of them all, she began.

"As all of you know, I have an announcement to make."

"Luxord finally managed to take you to bed?" said Axel with amusement, his mood clearly better. Paine only glared at him while the said Luxord widened his eyes to the boy.

"As I was saying, I have big news. It's about my brother Ze-"

"Brother? You have a brother?" Larxene said surprised, letting Paine annoyed for being interrupted one more.

"Yes, I do have. When my parents divorced seven years ago, I came to Destiny Islands with my mother while he stayed at Hollow Bastion with my father. If I remember correctly, he was ten at the time, so now he must be seventeen."

"Oh cool, I never heard you talk 'bout him. So what's up with him now?" Larxene said seeming only mildly interested.

"That's what I'm trying to say. After the divorce, he vanished with my father, and we haven't heard from them even once in these seven years. Until yesterday." She talked with a blank expression, and nobody could tell how she was feeling. "He called last morning, and I picked the phone. I took sometime to understand it was really Zexion, my younger brother, on the other side of the line. He seemed really desperate and was talking really fast, but making the long story short, he said he finally managed to escape from our father's grip for a while and begged us to save him. Then he said he had discovered our telephone number a while ago but couldn't call, and he had to go back or he was going to be discovered. He gave me the address of where he was and then turned off."

"OMG, what was your father doing to him?" Demyx asked, shocked.

"That's what my mom went to discover. I called her after talking to him and she went immediately to Hollow Bastion, talked to the police and they found the place, arrested my father and now my mom is in her way back here with Zexion. But what I really wanted to tell you all guys..." She looked to each one of her gang pals before continuing "is that I still am not sure what my brother suffered in the hands of that monster, but he probably was abused badly and is deeply perturbed, so you all better treat him right or I kill you in a very painful way." she finished with her face still blank, but no one doubted her words.


The blond put his headphones in place in his ears and turned on the iPod, trying to find a comfortable position on the airplane chair but not having any success. It was going to be another sleepless night.


to be continued...

A/N: This is it! Here is the first chap! Not much of Roxas though, huh? -.- But as the name of it says, it's only a prelude, an introduction of the characters in their "natural habitat" (hey, they're not animals!). Next chapter is going to have much more of our cute lil' blond, meeting with our (at least mine) favorite perverted redhead! Oh dirty dirty thoughts on my mind (nosebleed). Don't worry (as if!), everything will get together little by little.

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