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I don't own Hana Yori Dango
BEING TRUE
Chapter 1: Self Denial
"Okay class hand over your assignments next week, no excuses.." Prof. Keitaro said just as soon as the bell sounded signaling the end of the class for the day. The sound of chairs being moved and tables being pushed by the students going out into the hallway made Tsukushi broke from her daydreaming.
"I can't believe I'm thinking about him again… Hai.. I didn't even understand what the lesson was all about.." Tsukushi sighed.
"Hey Tsukushi! What's wrong with you?" Sakurako asked. She noticed Tsukushi wasn't scribbling notes on her notebook like she used to. She just stared out into space like she was in deep thought about something.
"I'm okay; I think I was just stressed after all. I know the exams are coming up and I have to work on overtime this week. Maybe it's just taking its toll in me." Tsukushi explained. But the truth is, she was thinking about her past encounters with Tsukasa. Sure she was used to his extreme mood swings and flaring temper, the moment he's angry and then the next he's sweet. Tsukushi knows that every moment that Tsukasa could get into spending some time alone with her she knew he would kiss her so hard as if he's always thirsty for her love. But no, she knew that a kiss is not enough for Doumyoji Tsukasa for he is a man that has needs and a young one to boot. Of course he wants more, to touch her and to do "it" with her. A thousand times that they have been in that kind of situation and every time whenever she feels like it would be close to giving in she would stop Tsukasa and tells him that she's not ready.
"Ei Tsukushi…. You're spacing out again.." Sakurako nudges her in the arm. What was this girl thinking? Sakurako thought. I know she and Tsukasa are okay because if they're not then she would be as grumpy as ever and ready to cry as soon as you asked her if she's okay.
"Is there something bothering you Tsukushi? You could tell me.."
"Iie Sakurako.. I'm okay" Tsukushi said as she forced a cheerful smile. "I'm sorry but I have to go.. I have to go to work!" Tsukushi shouted as she ran out of the classroom waving to Sakurako.
"That girl is soo weird" Sakurako groaned.
On her way to the dango shop Tsukushi was so mesmerized in her thoughts. She was thinking about those moments she shared with Tsukasa. It's not as if she didn't like it, hell no! She actually loved it, and she knew she wanted more of it. Maybe she was just scared to admit it, but she wanted to hold Tsukasa in her arms and do things she never would've dreamed of. I mean, who wouldn't want to kiss such a good looking, sexy, hunk, wonderful guy as Doumyoji Tsukasa? Every girl would feel weak just by his stare. His stare, his eyes, just by remembering it sends chills down Tsukushi's spine; she could also feel goose bumps rising in her arms. His piercing gaze through her eyes feels as if he's stripping her clothes one by one and savoring every flesh he rests his eyes on. And Tsukushi wanted it, she wants to feel loved and adored by Tsukasa, she wanted to make her feel more like a woman. What does it mean to be a woman? By having sex? Maybe she just wanted to feel how her desire could be reciprocated by a man, sure she knows how desire feels like, whenever they're cuddling and she could feel a sense of heat coming from her down south, and her panties are already warm and wet because of her need..
Oh, how she would like to grab Tsukasa's hand and make him touch there, but she knew it wasn't the right time.
"Tsukushi, you seem a little down. Want to talk about it? Yuki said as she noticed Tsukushi wasn't her cheerful state lately.
"Yuki… How is it between you and Nishikado?
"We're okay, we're taking it step by step if you ask.." Yuki blushed.
"Can I ask you something Yuki?"
Yuki sensing the seriousness in Tsukushi's voice puts her arm on her shoulder and said "Sure thing.. I'm always here for you right?"
"I don't know but do you think Tsukasa is really the one for me?" Tsukushi asked imploringly.
Yuki was a little shocked by her friend's question because she knew that those two were obviously meant for each other. Sure they fight like there's no tomorrow but she knew that there would be no other man alive that is more suitable for Tsukushi.
"Honestly, I think you two are really meant for each other. I know you love him so much and deep inside I know that he feels exactly the same way about you too.. He is willing to risk his life for you Tsukushi.."
Hearing her answer, Tsukushi smiled and said, "Thank you Yuki, that's exactly what I want to here right now."
Tsukasa was lying on his back at his bed as he recalls the events that happened this past week. He and Tsukushi got into fights, but not major ones so they made up easily. Also he remembered the steamy encounters with her, in her house (more specifically in her room) as her brother wasn't home yet and in his room where they would ALWAYS almost do "it". But every time when he can't control himself any longer, drowned in the ecstasy of being with her, she always make him stop whatever he's doing and makes him recall his promise to wait for her for she is still not ready. Damn! Tsukasa thought, why did he made that stupid promise! It's not as if he's not sincere when he made it, but he is always going through hell whenever that kind of situation arises.. And his lower abdomen really hurts! When he came so close at heaven then being stopped and he has to make it return to normal again. Doesn't Tsukushi know what a man has to undergo through just to make his manhood return to normal after it was blown into its full proportion without it being released?
Suddenly Tsukasa thought of a plan. And he knew it was going to work.
"Ugh! I'm soo bored!" Akira sighed as he sat on one of the benches at Eitoku's gardens. He didn't want to attend his class this afternoon so he spent some of his time here. Soujiro was attending his so he was all alone. He understands his friend's situation, having made a deal with his father to finish his college education while handling some of the tea ceremonies so that he could choose which girl he is going to marry someday. He is glad though that Soujiro's playboy image is coming to its close just because of Tsukushi's friend Yuki. Honestly, he didn't believe that Soujiro could be serious about one girl and change his carefree lifestyle but he is willing to give Yuki all the credit she deserves.
Akira flipped his phone to call his other friend Rui. After a few seconds, Rui hasn't picked up his call.
"Dammit Rui, I know you're just sleeping again.." Akira thought. All that is left is Doumyouji, hell I know he can't hang out with me because his schedule is already full. He's currently handling some of Doumyouji Corporations businesses and on the side making some time with Makino. He's also taking up some subjects at Eitoku University. Kaede Doumyouji gave up on her plan to separate the two knowing that Makino's influence on Tsukasa is great for the business so she finally conceded. Makino on the other hand has to finish her studies at Eitoku high so her schedule is also not as flexible as them.
"Hai, might as well call my current fling" Akira said as he signaled his driver to pick him up.
Soujiro was sitting at his Business Management class as his professor was lecturing about the trends of the business these past few years. He couldn't help but think about how the F4 couldn't spend some time together lately than when they were in high school. Sure being a college student has its advantages but being as one of the F4, the sons of the richest families in Japan, it means that they should prepare to take over their businesses and be responsible for their companies or corporations. He remembered the night that he decided to grow-up and let go of his carefree lifestyle, all thanks to Yuki. She was the one who opened his eyes that not everyone is as blessed as he is and a lot of people are working their best just to survive. He remembered all the champagne he bought for the girls that flirted with him in bars. Sure he was spending a lot, and somehow Yuki convinced him to make it all up by proving to his father that he would try and boost their tea ceremony business.
As Soujiro was thinking about this, he subconsciously let out a huge sigh. Suddenly the professor stopped his lecture and all his classmates turned to look at him.
"Is there something wrong Nishikado-san? Do you want to postpone the class? The professor asked, a little nervous about Soujiro's reaction. Being one of the F4 he knew that they were the ones who shouldn't be trespassed with. And he loves this job, so one little wrong move with any of them means that he could just kiss his life goodbye.
"None.. please continue.." Soujiro said so that all the attention drawn to him could be returned to their professor. Sure he was used to the attention but not in this kind of way.
The professor continued his lecture, this time making it a little lively just to be safe. Soujiro recalled his conversation with his father.
"I want you to make your schedule free this Saturday night. We are going to meet Mr. and Mrs. Yokohama and their daughter Suri. She's going to be your wife." Soujiro's father said without battling an eyelash at him.
"I don't want to marry her" Soujiro replied. He was sure about his feelings for Yuki now, so why the sudden disturbance?
"And who do you plan to marry? Hah! Don't tell me some silly little slut you met at one of your escapades!" His dad replied sarcastically.
"No, she is a decent girl living a decent life. If you don't want to approve of her then you can drop me as your son just like what you did to brother." Soujiro said confidently. He knew that his father couldn't lose another son, so that no one would continue their tea ceremony business. He couldn't appoint another person to take it over because it would cause a huge family scandal and he knows it is bad for business.
"You know how to blackmail me, do you?"
"I just know what is good for the business. If you don't want to accept my condition then you can handle all your ceremonies without my help"
Soujiro's father knew that Soujiro is a big help to their tea ceremonies, with all his charm and mastery of the art a lot of clients were impressed so they continued to patronize their ceremony. It also helped drawing in a lot of new clients because of the daughters who are smitten with Soujiro's charms. He couldn't let it all go now right?
"Fine. You can choose who you can marry but... I want you to finish your course at Eitoku with good grades, I want no bar fights or scandals, no other women pressing us that you impregnated them, and handle all the tea ceremonies that would occur from now on. I give you full responsibility for the business and when it happens that the business is going down the deal is off."
"Deal" Soujiro said as he walked out of his father's office.
Rui sat up on his bed. It's a wonder though, because this is the first time that he was restless and he couldn't sleep. Akira called a while earlier but he knew that he was just looking for some company. He just wants to be alone right now.
It's been a year already and a lot has happened to them. They graduated at Eitoku and are now attending their classes at Eitoku University. Sometimes they would meet up at the F4 lounge at Eitoku high and share their lunch with Makino who was left behind. Aah.. Makino.. Just by seeing her makes his insides lurch. He doesn't know before what he feels for this girl because he was so obsessed with Shizuka back then. Later on when Doumyoji appeared on the scene and got along with Makino did he realized that he love her. She was the one he wants and wants to spend the rest of his life with.
But he knew that his love would not be reciprocated, so he just chose to continue loving Makino from afar and to be with her whenever she needs someone to rely on. Call it martyrdom as others would say but it's the only way for him to be happy, even if it's just for a fleeting moment.
"Makino…" Rui sighed. Suddenly he got out of his bed, grabbed his jacket and his car keys and went straight out of the door. "I need to see you…"
"Tsukushi… Is it okay if I go ahead of you?" Yuki asked abruptly. It was already 5 pm and she asked if she could go out an hour early because she has a dinner date with Soujiro. Sure she can postpone this but not this one, she was going to be introduced to Soujiro's parents. After three months of going out with him and his deal with his father, Soujiro's parents saw the biggest improvement in their son's life. He comes home a little bit early than he used to when he's bar hopping with his girls. He also made a 20 increase in profits in their business, making the next 4 months fully booked for the ceremony.
"Sure Yuki! Of course you can go, this is a really important dinner right?" Tsukushi replied cheerfully. She knew that this is an important dinner for Soujiro and Yuki.
"Eehh.. Are you really sure? You look like you weren't yourself lately Kushi.."
"I'm fine Yuki.. Don't worry about me.. Now go on ahead! You have to look your best for tonight!" Tsukushi urged.
"Ok! I'll just tell you all the details tomorrow.." Yuki said as she waved goodbye to Tsukushi and left the dango shop.
"I'm happy that Yuki's happy now." Tsukushi smiled.
As she was closing the dango shop way past 6 pm, she suddenly thought about her own happiness. Sure she was happy with Tsukasa and their relationship right now. Having Kaede give up on breaking them apart was like a thorn being pulled out of their throats. They have the freedom to date and be themselves whenever they are, with no SPs following them or spying on them.
But is she really happy? She knows that she could never ask for more for being with the man she loved the most. He gives her everything, even some things that she knew she doesn't want. There is nothing that she lacks from Tsukasa's love. But deep inside she knew she was just being selfish, she knew that there is something Tsukasa wants but he couldn't get, just because she doesn't want to give it yet.
"I made up my mind, I know he loves me and he will wait for me. He must wait when I'm ready.. I just hope I could control myself though" Tsukushi thought as she blushed.
Exactly 7 pm, Doumyouji Tsukasa walked out of their building and got into his limo. He was going to pick Tsukushi up at the dango shop and made their way to a restaurant he reserved for the night.
"This is the start of my plan.." Tsukasa thought. He knew of Makino's stubbornness and it was part of his idea. He's just going to let it all happen in its due course.
He picked up his phone and called Tsukushi.
"Oi. Makino.. Are you ready?" Tsukasa asked as his ride made its way to where the dango shop is located.
"Yup I'm ready! I could almost see your car" Tsukushi replied as she hangs up.
Suddenly Tsukasa's black limo stopped in front of Tsukushi and Tsukasa got out checking on Tsukushi. He walked over to where Tsukushi was standing stopping in front of her at a short distance.
"Ready?" Tsukasa asked.
"Yup. Let's go?" Tsukushi replied.
Suddenly Tsukushi was shocked when Tsukasa hugged her out of the blue and in the middle of the street.
"I missed you Kushi.." Tsukasa said lovingly. She could feel his heart beating and the warmth of his embrace. "Tsukasa, what has gotten into you??" Tsukushi replied as she could feel his breath at her ear making her blush some more.
As if by her instinct, she closed her arms into his waist hugging him back. "I missed you too, baka.." Tsukushi smiled.
They got into Tsukasa's limo and went their way along the streets of Tokyo.
"Are you sure you missed me?" Tsukasa asked playfully as his left arm hangs on Tsukushi's shoulders. He could feel her tense up but suddenly she relaxed as she faced him and said
"Yes I did.." Tsukushi replied and placed a small kiss on Tsukasa's cheek.
Tsukasa flipped one of the buttons shielding the driver's view from them.
"What do you think you're doing?" Tsukushi asked, a little bit surprised but she knew what Tsukasa is intending to do. "We still have a reservation right?"
"Baka.. It doesn't matter if we're late. I already paid for the whole night." Tsukasa said as he pulled Tsukushi into his lap and facing him.
Tsukushi forgot that she wore a skirt tonight so part of her thighs was visible to Tsukasa because of their position. "What am I going to do?" Tsukushi thought. She's excited but at the same time scared of what's going to happen.
"Tsukasa, we're in a car.."
"Don't worry, it's soundproof. You could scream my name all you want"
"Baka! It's not that, what if we arrived at the restaurant already?"
"We're not going to arrive there for another hour.."
"Whaat??!!"
"Yup. It's located on the other side of town.."
Finishing their conversation so Tsukushi wouldn't ask another question, Tsukasa kissed Tsukushi on the lips. He could feel her murmuring as if she wanted to pick up a fight but was soon drowned into his. He kissed her gently at first, taking his time, nibbling her lower lip a little while brushing the tip of his tongue in her lips.
"Mmm…" Tsukushi moaned as he playfully kissed her. It was driving her crazy! How could Tsukasa know these tricks? She wanted to taste him and as she opened her mouth to welcome his tongue, he's not sliding it! Instead he was just brushing her lower lip with it, nibbling it also. Why is he tempting her? She couldn't bear the torture of waiting for his tongue so she played with him also, making the tip of her tongue brush his lower lip.
Tsukasa smiled to himself as he felt Tsukushi imitating his move. He knew Tsukushi would give in but he must not rash. No! There is still an hour before they arrive at the restaurant and he wanted to let all of Tsukushi feel complete and not be neglected. Her lips were the first, knowing it's driving her crazy by not doing what she wanted and making her wait. It's also driving him crazy but to make this plan work he must take it one step at a time.
He put his right hand at her back as to support her and his left at her neck holding her so that he could push her head to him to make his kiss deeper. He slanted his head to deepen it and he felt Tsukushi's tongue sliding into his. Hah! He knew it that she couldn't wait. Triumphantly, he played with her tongue with his making them more and more aroused.
Tsukushi couldn't take it any longer; she wanted to taste Tsukasa so she made the first move and slid her tongue into his. She knew Tsukasa would be surprised but she didn't care anymore, she wanted him. Now. She knew she was impatient when it comes to these things but she couldn't control herself, she felt herself getting wet already and she felt that her body has a mind of its own. She arched her hips a little more closely to Tsukasa, and she grabbed the collar of his shirt with her hands tugging him into her.
They broke their kiss as Tsukasa started to kiss her neck and the back of her ears. He was kissing her gently, and then it was like he's hungry for it. It was making Tsukushi more and more drawn to him and she moaned his name.
"Tsukasa…. Ungghh…"
Hearing her say his name was pure bliss to his ears. So much happiness flowed to his heart that he couldn't stop and instead made his way to her collarbone to nuzzle and shower it with his kisses. She was so sweet, and her scent makes his manhood more and more angry and wanting to feel her, the inside of her.
"Are you mine Tsukushi?" Tsukasa said in between his kisses and licks at Tsukushi's neck.
"Yes.. Yes.. Only you.." Tsukushi replied weakly. She couldn't bare it anymore, so she went on to work to Tsukasa's shirt. She undid its entire buttons so fast that immediately she brushed Tsukasa's shirt off his body revealing the manly body he possessed. She pressed her body against him, making sure Tsukasa feels her breasts.
With that action Tsukasa knew that there is a part of Tsukushi that demanded attention. He slid his arm from her neck to her top and playfully tugged at her blouse.
"What do you want Tsukushi?" Tsukasa asked tracing his forefinger at the hem of Tsukushi's blouse.
"Unggh.. Touch me Tsukasa.. Please.." Tsukushi pleaded. Her eyes shut from the ecstasy she's feeling right now.
Tsukasa tugged the bow at Tsukushi's blouse to release it and undid a few buttons so her chest is exposed in front of him. A little shocked and nervous, Tsukasa knew what he had to do. He kissed Tsukushi back at her lips while cupping her breast with his left hand, the other fumbling at her back to undo her bra clasp.
Tsukushi can't believe what she's experiencing, as she moaned in Tsukasa's mouth. She pushed her hips forward and lifted her skirt up to her hips exposing her underwear and rested it in Tsukasa's south. She felt his hardness there and to think she might be scared of this act she felt good. She rubbed her sex into his manhood and felt Tsukasa moan in pleasure.
So this is dry sex, Tsukasa thought. He knew because of this as Soujiro and Akira always lecture him about stuff that he should do to Tsukushi. He was shocked because it was Tsukushi who was doing it to him, without him asking for it. Tsukushi felt so good even though he's not in her, but the act of rubbing her ass on his felt sooo good. It's like she's stroking it with her bareness and he could feel his manhood throbbing with pleasure. And even if they were still covered, he could feel her warmth there. He knew she's hot already and moist. With this, he pulled her bra down exposing her breasts and immediately covered one of her pink nipples with his mouth, sucking and licking its hardness was so unbearable to Tsukushi that she called his name in vain. Tsukasa heard her and switched to the other breast while kneading the previous one. Her breasts were full and firm to his touch, with the silkiness of her skin, Tsukasa couldn't believe that she was a woman who developed fully. What is important is that she's his and only his.
Tsukushi wanted him now so she rode him. She doesn't know what this is called but it felt good. She was moving her hips up and down into Tsukasa's lap making sure she rubs her sex into Tsukasa's manhood. The pressure in her felt soo good that she didn't feel embarrassed into exposing her breasts into his.
"Tsukasa… I want you… Ungghh…" Tsukushi moaned.
"Where Tsukushi? Tell me where.." Tsukasa replied in a husky voice.
Tsukasa knew where she wants his touch and immediately squeezed his hand between them to touch her there. He slid his hand to touch her moist and warm spot in between her thighs.
"There Tsukasa… Aaaahh…" Tsukushi groaned biting her lip.
He stroked her clitoris with his thumb, marveling how hard it was at his touch. He could feel the wetness that was pooling in her area. He kissed Tsukushi on the lips as he put his hand inside her undies to touch her more personally. He tickled her clitoris with his middle finger by stroking it by writing invisible circles around it.
"Inside Tsukasa… Put it inside of me now…" Tsukushi moaned at Tsukasa's ear. He was surprised by her sudden boldness, so he obliged by inserting his middle finger into Tsukushi. He could feel how tight she was but was well lubricated to accommodate the entry. While he is moving his finger in and out of her he stroked her clitoris with his thumb making her more and more crazy so she moaned his name non-stop.
"Aaah… Tsukasa! Don't stop.. Pleaasse…" Tsukushi moaned hard and loud.
He knew she was near her orgasm because she was rocking her hips back and forth in ecstasy to his touch. As a result of this he pushed his finger much deeper in her to trigger her climax. He felt her walls closing in on his finger and suddenly he felt her tense up and arched her body as she shuddered releasing her climax.
"Tsu—KA—SA!!" Tsukushi gasped at the sudden outburst of pressure within her. This must be what they call orgasm, she thought. She accidentally pulled some of his curls at the moment she reached her heaven.
"That's it Tsukushi.. You came for me.. You're so beautiful.. I love you.." Tsukasa said as Tsukushi's breathing returned to normal but still panting from what she experienced.
Even though the limo is air-conditioned you could see that both of them have droplets of sweat all over their bodies. From what happened before, Tsukushi suddenly regained her composure and sat at her seat fixing herself up.
"I.. I'm sorry.." Tsukushi muttered quietly. She was so embarrassed about what happened now that her senses are coming back. She can't believe she let Tsukasa did that to her.
"It's ok.. Now what about me?" Tsukasa demanded. He was still hanging at a balance here and most of his arousal still won't go.
"Tsukasa.. I.. I can't.. You know we still can't do it right?" explained Tsukushi. Even though they almost did it, she knew that this is the farthest they could go at this moment.
"I.. I understand" even though Tsukasa makes it look like he's disappointed at Tsukushi, he knows that the first step in his plan is complete. He put on back his shirt and wiped Tsukushi's juices from his hand.
The car came to a stop and the driver told Tsukasa via the intercom that they arrived already at the restaurant. Tsukasa knowing Tsukushi is still in an awkward state put on his best smile and asked Tsukushi if she's ready. Tsukushi replied a timid "yes" and he opened the door and got out of the limo with Tsukushi's hand in his.
