Disclaimer: I do not own Riddle Story of the Devil or its characters I just simply a fan using them as entrainment purpose.

"Tokaku-san, I love you." Haru charged toward Tokaku with a knife in her hand, Tokaku reflexively stabbed Haru in the chest merely inches away from her heart. Tokaku realized what she had done and collapse on the ground. "My wish won't be grant now,"

Tokaku woke up with a jolt reliving the same nightmare that has plague her for past few years now. She watched Haru sleeping peacefully next to her knowing she had forgive her but Tokaku thought she didn't deserve any forgiveness.

Tokaku was now awake before dawn and can't go back to sleep decided to jog. "Haru had forgive me but I couldn't forgiven myself what I had done to her," Haru had survived and graduated from the Black Class after Tokaku attempted on her life as if was testing her feelings for her was genuine and instead under the influence of her Queen Bee power.

After took a quick shower, Tokaku left from their house jogging through the woods clearing her head of any dark thoughts surrounding what happened on that night five years ago. She first met the red-hair when she sat at the desk surround by sunlight and smelling her scent. Later on that evening she decided to defect to her side and being Haru's protector against the other assassins.

Lately Tokaku was disturbed by nightmares of her killing Haru while smiling cruelly. "I'm worried that I may kill her for real at any moment," Tokaku was also afraid that she'll fail to protect Haru due her own personal weakness.

When she came back to their place, Haru was there greeting the blue-hair woman as Tokaku was finish her routine morning jog. "Good morning, Tokaku-san. Haru was worry that you weren't there in our bed." Haru smiled and Tokaku felt guilty leaving Haru without telling her.

"I got something on my mind, Haru I'm sorry for not telling you that I was going to jog beside I need clearing my head." Tokaku talked.

"Breakfast is ready, Tokaku-san." They sat down eating breakfast while Tokaku was silently thinking about telling Haru about her nightmares. "What Tokaku is thinking about?" As if Haru had read her mind, this shook Tokaku from her reverie.

"It nothing, Haru." Tokaku was avoiding the subject knowingly that she won't bringing up her nightmares into the conversation.

Tokaku was practicing her knife skills even she came from the famous Azuma clan she still unable overcoming her inability to kill due both her mother and her aunt Mako don't want Tokaku be a killer and living a peaceful life from bloodshed where there're organizations wanting Haru's Queen Bee Power for their use or other assassins constantly targeting Haru's life. Tokaku felt she must be stronger for Haru's shake or fail as her bodyguard.

Tokaku was focus maybe a little too focus that she failed to realize that Haru was in her presence she nearly cut her. "Tokaku stop! You didn't see Haru was here." Tokaku almost kill Haru if she haven't shout at her. "Kami-sama I nearly struck Haru down," Tokaku was visibly shaken she could have accidentally kill Haru.

"Sorry Haru, I was into of my training that I didn't see you," She was relieved that Haru wasn't hurt. She picked her up from the ground and help her up. "Tokaku lately you seem distant and disturb by something it didn't pass by Haru tell me about your problem." Haru was a lot more perceptive than Tokaku ever realize.

Tokaku was reluctant revealing her nightmares she had experience recently and don't want burden her lover with her problems but she can't evade it forever. "Haru have to know about them the fact I nearly killed her in the past and I can't trust myself if..." Tokaku stared at Haru knew she grow more mature and had to experience the ordeals anyone had endured from her life being targeted constantly and still being the optimist as she is. Tokaku took her hand and walked into the woods.

As they continued to walk, Tokaku kept checking on Haru thinking how explain her nightmares of killing Haru. "She's a lot stronger than me, Haru is a survivor." Tokaku curse her own weakness. When they strolled further in the wooden area, Tokaku stop and pick up a flower examining it.

"Tokaku why you're stopping? You're going to tell Haru about your problems, Tokaku." Tokaku was studied Haru before put part of the flower on her head that Haru was surprised.

"Ichinose please sit down I have say something important to you." Tokaku called Haru by her last name. Haru realized that Tokaku was serious when she reverted back using her last name instead her first.

They sat at nearby tree Tokaku was bracing herself revealing her darkest fears to Haru. "Haru I'm having nightmares during the time you attack me back at Myojo Academy few years ago also recently I keep having bad dreams of killing you while smiling coldly." Tokaku stared at Haru's pink eyes. "Honestly I don't deserve any forgiveness from you or from anyone else I need to pay my sins." Tokaku felt she isn't worthy of Haru's love.

"Tokaku, Haru had told you that you're forgiven like everybody else in the Black Class." Haru held Tokaku's left hand. "Haru was foolish enough to attack you, Tokaku and you were defensing yourself." Haru was reading Tokaku's face. "Haru able smiled brightly because of you and help Haru survived the Black Class."

Tokaku was hesitating to response and still beating herself up for putting Haru in the hospital for days where she devoted her time watching Haru over in Intensive Care Unit struggling to fight off death. "Haru everyday that I struggled with the question What If I really kill you and my wish can't be granted? I don't know I could live with myself with straining my hands with my first kill, Ichinose Haru I have been your protector for years now and I afraid that I'm not strong enough to protect you,"

"Tokaku you're strong for the both of us, Haru was glad for meeting you on that day because Haru felt won't survive that long." Haru was happy she had met Tokaku.

"Haru why you continue praise me and showering me with compliments? My nightmares had been plaguing me for the longest, reliving the scene over and over in my head can't stop myself from hurting you, Haru." Tokaku was frustrated that Haru willingly forgave her past transgression.

"Tokaku you're you and Haru is Haru. Tokaku, Haru stills love you and Haru will keep praising you until you'll get sick of it, Tokaku-san please accept Haru's love for you." Tokaku got up and about walked away, Haru grabbed her from the back and hugging her fiercely.

"Tokaku-san you haven't forgiven yourself the only way the nightmare ends is forgive yourself, Tokaku-san." Forgiving oneself it's the hardest things for a person to do especially you Tokaku." Tokaku sink back down and Haru release her hold.

"I lost everything when mom died, my grandmother killed my aunt, I don't know about my father or he looked like." Tokaku felt some moisture in her eyes. "I'm mentally weak, I can't think for myself or seeing myself living in time of peace." Tokaku was crying and Haru comfort her.

"When mama, papa, grandpa, big brother, and little brother died protected Haru, Haru felt lost and lonely can't figure out why everybody wanting Haru to die. Haru never experience a normal childhood when Haru's life is targeted. Haru was happy attending school for the first time and making friends with the Black class."

"Haru we're living two different worlds because I came from famous clan of assassins I always living in the shadow of death and never knowing anything about happiness until I met you, Haru."

Haru held Tokaku who was crying for few minutes letting out the bottled-up emotions spilling through forefront. After they return their home, Tokaku finally have a peaceful slumber that had elusive her in the first time in a few weeks.

Author's Note: Hello folks and this is my first Tokaku/Haru story I ever wrote as a main focus. This prize for Fire lord 626 for guessing the trivia correctly since he wanted a Haru/Tokaku fic for his favorite couple. Well see you next time.