The sting of love never leaves me and just the same I will never leave you. You're beauty haunts me for I know I will never have you and that it is for her and her alone. Our friendship is treasure but I want so much more yet know relationship can be only half filled with love.
Basically for the past month these are the words I've left drifting in the wind on different canvases. When a wave of sadness passes through me I record it on anything. A leaf, some newspaper, anything. Why am I so upset do you ask? I'll tell you why because my best friend of 4 years has found a girl and I didn't know how much I loved him until he found a girl. It's pitiful and all cliché really. But regardless my feelings for him have refused to dissipate. It all started the beginning of 2nd year...
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"BOYS, Ginny get downstairs you're going to be late!", shrieked my Mum from the kitchen. Of course she wouldn't be shrieking like that for me if she realized that I was just in the den, but naturally I'm not the main focus when we have Forge raging havoc everywhere you turn. Today is my first day of second year, but personally I want to think of it as my pilot year. Last year, Hermione told me that muggle television programs have a "pilot" episode that determines whether they make it to being on the those televisions often. Well I want this year to be my pilot year. The year that determines where I belong in Hogwarts. Last year was absolute madness what with the diary and the Chamber of Secrets...and Tom. I just want to forget it all. So welcome to the beginning of my happy ending. As I walked out of the den into the kitchen I had a bright smile on my face and knew nothing could ruin it. That is, until Harry came downstairs in his emerald eyed glory smiling down at me. When did he get so tall? "Good morning Ginny, gonna be careful this year yea?" And with that one statement I realized I'm never going to live that down. I can have all the pilot episodes I want, but in the end I can't make people stop remembering. So I just gave him a queasy smile and walked away to avoid further conversation. "Ginny dear have some toast! You're looking pale." Said my mum as soon as she saw me. "Mum I'm a ginger. I'm always pale." Was my simple response. Yep this is going to be a loathsome year. "Can we leave already we're going to be late! Hurry up and get off your arses!" I shrieked. The school year hadn't even started and I was already done.
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Later on the trains I realized I had another issue. Unlike the other second years, I didn't have any friends. Sure I could sit with Ron but all of them were probably playing detective as always, so I sat in an empty compartment in the back. Or so I thought it was. "Well well Weasley all alone are you?". I recognized that drawl anywhere.
"Budge off Malfoy"
"Now why would I do that ginger? I was here first"
"Fine then I'll leave"
"And go where? There aren't any other empty compartments"
"I'd prefer to ride under the train if it meant getting away from you."
"Alright whatever, Weasley" and with that it was done. No snide remarks about my family, no bloodtraiter, nothing just an alright whatever weasley. That's weird I thought to myself. Also, he didn't have his band of idiots with him. At least im not the only lonely person at Hogwarts maybe I will stay in this compartment.
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"Hey Weasley wake up"
"What?"
"Want some snacks or something?"
"Uh ya ill get some chocolate frogs"
"Here just have mine the woman left already"
"So what was the point of waking me up if shes gone"
He just shrugged. I swear this guy is weird, but at least he's tolerable and that's a hell of a lot more than I could say about him last year.
