I grind my teeth as I try to ignore them.

It's difficult, though, when they're cuddling on the couch and holding hands and apparently not dating. According to Carly, anyway. Freddie's always been head over heels for her, so he's ecstatic, of course. Me? Not so much. It's sickening.

I try to ignore them as I click on Facebook and see a friend request. I smile as brightly as I can when I see that it's the cutest boy in my homeroom asking to friend me. I accept automatically, and rush to check out his page.

I hear them murmuring to each other, probably things I'm better off not hearing (for my own sanity) and roll my eyes. It's annoying, that's what it is. The two of them should just date if they're going to act like a goddamn couple every minute of the day. I feel like a third wheel.

Scrolling down the boy's page, I see something that makes my heart freeze for just a moment.

Of course. Of course he has a girlfriend. Of course it's Missy Robinson. Of course.

I feel myself get more frustrated than I already am, and I let out a curse word and storm out of Carly's apartment. She calls after me, but I don't answer and just stomp out onto the fire escape.

Freddo was right, this is a good place for thinking things over. I breathe in some fresh air, trying to clear my head. It's not working, and I can't help but look at the stars and almost start praying. Praying that things will get better. Mom's sick and my grades suck and we're only doing iCarly every other week now.

It can only get better from here, right?

I stare at the twinkling lights and wish I could believe my own thoughts.

xx

Sorry about the short and ramblyness. But I had a bad day of my own and I feel that writing lifts my spirits. So, yeah. :)