Your Love Is All I Need

The sun casted an orange glow on the sky. We stand side by side on that hill we use to play on as children that we no longer are, those days of innocent laughter has long past. You are just standing there silently looking at the sky while I gaze at you.

I wonder, What thoughts run through your head. Even though I could reach out and touch you, it seemed as if you were miles away. To be so close yet you are so far away. This feeling in my chest...You would never understand it.

I could walk away from you, right now. You would never notice. Rukia, you are caught up in a world of your own. A world that doesn't include me. Its strange, my world revolves around you. You are the sun. You bring light to my world that would be engulfed by night if not for you.

I have to control myself. My hand feels so empty, Its aching for yours. My head feels so heavy, all it wants is to lay on your shoulder. My ears scream in this silence. It wants to hear your voice. My lips...they suffer the most. They want to touch your soft ones.

I am now at war with myself. I am yelling I love you. Yet...I am silencing myself. I am a coward. No, not just a coward, I am a selfish one too. I am too afraid of speaking my feelings to you. I want to but I also do not want to lose you. I will do anything to keep you by my side, even if I have to silently endure my feelings.

The pains in my chest are now growing. Is this heartbreak? I didn't even get rejected by you and I feel if my heart has now been shattered. I can imagine what it would look like. Pieces of mirror littering the ground. Each pieces reflecting every emotion of my heart.

The pieces of mirror are cutting me up. They all seem to be screaming at me. To let it out. I wonder, should I listen? It would be a shock to you if I do though. Me, always emotionless. Me, the one who doesn't care. Me, the one who does not believe in hearts. I'm a hypocrite.

Suffocating under all these emotions yet I look normal. You can't see this internal struggle I am waging. I'm glad though. I don't want you to see me like this. I don't want you to think that I pathetic. I would be crushed if you did. This mask of mine. It is my only protection now.

Did anyone ever realize I'm wearing a mask? This emotionless facade seems to be slipping now. Surely she will realize this. I must fix it. I don't want her to find out. My mask shall stay. If it stays..I can stay by her side.

"Ulquiorra.."

I blink. I forget all about this war I am having. Shes looking at me now. The orange glow of the sun makes your hair shine. Your eyes are standing out in contrast to the evening shades that are now on your face.

"I been thinking," Rukia began to say to me, "What is the one thing humans need? What do you need personally?"

Of all questions to ask, that one is the easiest one of all. I don't even need to think about it. The only thing is...Should I say it? I am a coward so I won't...will I?

"Your love is all I need." I say out loud.

Your eyes are now on my face. Those eyes that I love. They are all ways filled with love and kindness no matter who they gaze upon. How often do I wish that gaze belong solely to me? A smile is on your lips..A smile?

"I know."


I got this idea stuck in my head. It was bugging me so i had to write it down or else i wouldn't sleep. You can think of this as a bribe to be more patient. I promise I will update my other stories.