I'm afraid I'm losing you, love
I remember the first time I saw you. It was mythical. You just said a couple of words to me and I was glad that you even noticed me, not to mention that you were talking to me…
Maybe the first impression that I gave you was one of a stupid-prom queen-high school girl and you were much too good for that, I know. Maybe back then I was a stupid-prom queen-high school girl who all she thought about was her hair and boys. Now that I think about it I'm pretty sure I was but you saved me, love. You took me and showed me the world as cliché as that may sound. You taught me that there were more in life than the little thongs I kept myself busy with. You formed the person that I am today and I love you for that, love.
I'm afraid I'm losing you, love.
When you told me you loved me for the first time I felt like it was all over, time, people, the whole world. Their world. Because something new had just started that moment. Us. Our world. Mine and yours.
I didn't care about anything else from then on. Only you. You were constantly on my mind and I couldn't figure out what the hell you saw in me. But you should have seen something. You stayed.
It felt so original, nothing like the movies I used to watch when I was little. Fierce happiness coming out of my eyes and more importantly seeing the same thing in yours. I did, didn't I?
I'm afraid I'm losing you, love.
And I can't help but ask myself over and over how did this happen to us? Was it sudden or had it been going on but I was just too blind to notice it? Is it my fault? Is it yours? Does it matter anymore?
And how the hell do I fix it cause I certainly can't live like that.
And I can't admit it cause I've always been the strong one in this thing we had but I'm scared as hell to face it. To solve it or even accept it. I keep telling myself that I have to and once I do we will work it out together. But what happens if we don't?
I'm afraid I'm losing you, love.
Cause their world is spinning again and ours is fading. And I can't stop it, I just can't. It's killing me.
Please help me. Stay here and help me find our place again. Help me find my way back.
Cause I'm afraid you're losing me too.