Hi! I got bit with the plot bug on this. I just had to write it
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Title: Sins of a Father
Disclaimer: I don't own Glee or it's characters
Rating: T
Warnings: angst, voilence
Characters: Kurt, Blaine, Wes, David, Nick, and Jeff
Sins Of a Father
~Chapter 1~
January 5, 2012
"It's going to be okay Blaine"
That's what she said to me. That's what everyone says to me. It's going to be okay, but couldn't they see it's not? I just lost the most important thing to me. Kurt.
I know I haven't been around to show him affection with soccer and other clubs I have to lead, I should've expected him to latch on to any kind of affection because I wasn't giving him any. But he didn't cheat, Now that I know.
Kurt loves me, and I love Kust so so much. I'm his first boyfriend, he would never do that to me. I kind of had a flash back when ...it happened. I remember it so vividly.
When Kurt was yelling at me I didn't hear him, I heard my mom yelling at my father when I was six. (Such an early age too) They were having a screaming match at each other and all I wanted to do is sleep.
That's all I wanted to do. I rememberd a smaller version of me whisper "shut up" and trying to block out her screaming. But she didn't stop, she kept going on and on about how my father didn't treat her right.
I didn't know what that meant at the time. I started to get angry, she just wouldn't shut up! I had have such anger problems as a child. I remember clenching my little fist and ripping off my covers, I walked to the kicthen and poked my head in the door way.
My mother was wailing on my father and he just stood stiff. His knuckles were like mine, clenched and tight. His knuckles were a pale white that i've seen way too many times.
It happened out of no where him hitting her in the face. It was like lightening. He just struck her hard and fast and she tumbled back holding her face. I stared, as she looked at my father in horror. And it was finally peace and quiet..
My mother just ran upstairs silently. I walked into the kicthen when my father downed the rest of his (vodka) drink. He raised his thick black eyebrows at my appearence. I started to clucth my tiny power ranger pajama shirt. "Father.." I remember saying, "Why did you hit mommy?"
He kneeled down next to me and rested a hand on my shoulder, "To make her quiet, tiger" he said. "So she can stop harrassing me with bad words"
"Harrassing?" I said looking at him with my eyebrows knitted together
"I'll tell you what it is tomorrow, now lets get you to bed"
"But I'm not tired, tell me now!"
My dad laughed and scooped me up in his arms walking me to my bedroom on the second floor. "Easy there, tiger, have patience"
He tucked me into bed when I had asked him, "Father?"
"Yes Blaine"
"To get people to stop yelling at me all I have to do is hit them?"
His expression was unreadable at the time. He didn't answer me though. He just said goodnight and turned off my light leaving me alone in silence.
It happened a lot more, my mother would be screaming and crying and my father would hit her and she didn't speak for a while. When I used to come down for dinner she wouldn't even look at me. (because i look to much like my father)
I came out of that flash back and Kurt was absolutely red staring up at me (during the summer I grew, a lot) I hadn't heard what he said to me and I knew it was going to make him even more mad than he already was..
But I knew I was angry and I knew that I did not like half of the things he said to me. I didn't even notice some Warblers sticking their heads out of the their dorms to watch us (the power couple of Dalton) fight.
Thats when he started yelling, "And you're not even listening to me Blaine!" he started going on and on and on not caring that people were watching us like dogs. Kurt was telling me how much of a horrible boyfriend I was that month how I didn't touch him or anything and I couldn't take it.
I lashed out at him, hard and fast (just like my father did) I struck him and he fell to the goddamn floor. The blood on his face made him look even more pale of that was even possible for a person like Kurt. I remember bending down and grabbing him by the collar because I was still so angry.
"Something else you'd like to say?" I asked harshly shaking him, Before he opened his mouth I was pulled away by Wes and David. I've seen wes angry at Warbler practice and I've seen David angry when him and his girlfriend fight, but I've never seen them this furious. Then it was like I snapped out of the angry phase I was in and took in everything around me.
Wes and David (my best friends in the entire world) were holding me so hard it hurt and pinning me up against the wall. Jeff had tears in his eyes as he tried to clean up Kurts face. The blond was kneeling at his right side, where as his boyfriend Nick was stiff kneeling at Kurt's left.
Kurt didn't keep his beautiful peircing blue heart renching eyes off of me. They were wide and they held fear and only that. The only time I've seen that in Kurt's eyes was when he was telling me about how Karofsky threatend to kill him.
Was I that bad?
Was I like another bully to Kurt?
The same one that sexually harrassed him and threatned his life?
No no I couldn't be, I love Kurt more than I love myself.
Because Kurt is mine, and he's perfect and witty. And he's like a baby kitten in the bed room and I find it so sexy. When those eyes look up at me with a hint of lust and we just lay in bed together. I remember when we lost our virginities to eachother and Kurt was laying underneath me looking up at me with mild fear in his eyes. I just leaned down and kissed him softly on (those oh so perfect pouty) his lips.
I wanted to do that after the incident. I wanted to push David and Wes off of me, get rid of Jeff and Nick and hold my baby, my Kurt. Tell him everything was going to be okay, and that I didn't mean it.
I swear I didn't.
I do remember trying to call out to him but Nick cut me off with a glare, as if he had the right to make me shut up. Jeff got Kurt up and led him to his room, he closed the door softly behind them and David and Wes let go of me.
They didn't say anything. How could they? What would they say?
They just saw me abuse hit Kurt.
"Wes" I choked out, "David.. I-I-"
I still don't know what I was trying to say to them. That I didn't mean to? Or that it wasn't what it looked like? God, I am such an idiot.
"Just don't Blaine" Wes said and him and David walked away.
They walked away from me.
I truly didn't know what to think. Where we friends? Am I still on the Warblers? I just lost my best friends. Or did I?
I am truly terrified to go to Warbler practice in a few minutes. I have to face my friends, and I have to face Kurt.
I'm only writing in this stupid thing because I decided to seek help unlike my father. I went to guidance and I told her everything, hoping that she didn't tell the dean and have me expelled. But she didn't she told me to take this journal and write in it.
and that's when she said "It's going to be okay Blaine"
Like she knew, Like that made any kind of sense.
I lost my boyfriend, my friends, probably the spot for Lead Warbler, my spot on the Council (since I am a Senior this year), everyones respect for me, (my reputation of being perfect), just everything.
But I know the one person who would have respect in me at that moment. (my father)
What if someone told and a teacher heard. What if Kurt told Professor Jay? They've always been super close for a teacher/student relationship. (i hate when they're together, even if Professor Jay is helping Kurt in math, because Kurt is terrible in that class.)
Then the whole school wouldn't see me as perfect Blaine Anderson, they'd see me as some asshole who abused his boyfriend. Then rumors would spread about how I've been doing it for months and that's why Kurt is really shy and is always next to me.
I can see it now everyone looking at me when I walk through the hallways, everyone whispering and giving me disgusted looks because I'm a awful person.
I've never hated myself more. And this dumb diary journal is making it worse.
-Blaine.
Blaine sighed as he closed his journal. He looked at the digital clock on his bedside table, 2:24, he had six minutes to get to Warbler practice. He was nervous and the feeling in his stomach made him want to throw up.
The curly haired boy ran a hand through his un-gelled hair and got dressed in his Dalton uniform. He didn't go to class after he got the jorunal from guidance, He just went up to his single-dorm room and wrote.
Blaine didn't even bother to gell his hair down. Kurt would've loved this he thought then smiled sadly as he tied his red and navy blue tie. Blaine sighed and left his dorm, he sped walked to the choir room.
His palms were begining to sweat and he was sure there was sweat beaded on his forehead. He closed his eyes and breathed in and out slowly before walking through the double doors of the choir room.
Everything was normal. Wes and David were sitting at the Council table looking at everyone, there was Blaine's seat on the table next to David. It was empty so they hadn't replaced him.
People weren't boo-ing at Blaine and calling him nasty names. Nick and Jeff were sitting on their love seat. Nick was stroking Jeffs knuckles and the blond smiled before leaning in for a chaste kiss. Blaine looked away as he sat in his seat next to David.
The curly haired boy peered out at everyone. Dante and Trent were laughing at something, and Addison was texting rapidly on his phone. Avery and Skylar were going over dance moves, it was like last night ever happened.
Blaine tried not to look at Kurt, but he knew Kurt was there sitting in the corner of a couch. Like he always did, his same seat since Junior year. Blaine looked at him shyly and Kurt was looking at his iPhone.
Blaine's hazel eye's scanned his face, it was perfect and beautiful like always, the hickey Blaine gave him was still on his neck but it was fading away, nothing was wrong until Blaine saw his cheek.
His bruise was nasty looking. It was a dark blue and stood out proudly on Kurt's face. Blaine's stomach twisted in ten hundred knots. He did that to Kurt.
His beautiful boy.
He knew Kurt couldn't cover that up with anything because all of his facial things are in Blaine's room. Kurt rarely uses his own room, he spends so much time in Blaine's room it's as almost like they share.
Wes banged his gavel and Blaine jumped. When Kurt's eyes lifted from the screen, Blaine looked away. He wasn't ready to see any kind of look on Kurt's face. Not yet.
Wes started talking and Blaine drifted off. He still didn't look at Kurt, and he couldn't tell if Kurt was looking at him. Usually they would be making faces at eachother throughout the whole rehursal until David smacked him in the arm, and Wes cleared his throat.
Would Kurt tell his family about what happened?
God, Burt would kill Blaine. Blaine would be beyond dead. And Finn, Finn already didn't like Blaine after him and Rachel dated for about two days. But the fact that Blaine could take his girlfriend away at any moment made Finn hate Blaine.
And Carole, she was such a sweetheart. What would she say? Blaine wanted to fall through the floor. What about Mercedes or Puck, hell even Santana.
Blaine met her at Kurt's house once, he did not want to be on the wrong side of her. And Brittany, would would she say to him? Hate bubbled in Blaine's stomach.
Suddenly the room was quiet and all the Warblers were staring at Kurt. Wes cleared his throat, "Warbler Kurt here, wanted to show us something today"
Blaine's heart pounding hard. Was Kurt about to sing to him? About him?
Kurt got up and flashed a smile to everyone, "Yes, I just wanted to show the Council at we don't have to stick to our top 40's, if we want to win Reginals, we need to do something out of the box"
Kurt took out a CD and gave it to Leo. The boy put in the sterio and Blaine could've laughed when a famillar beat blasted into the air. Some boys looked shocked, others looked amused, and only a little looked disbelieving at Kurt.
Kurt stood in the center of room trying to keep his eyes off of Blaine.
It's been a long time since you came around, been along but I'm back in town. This time I'm not leaving without you. Taste like whiskey when you kiss me oh, I'd give anything again to be your baby doll, this time I'm not leaving with out you
You said-
Kurt suddenly got cut off..
by Blaine.
Sit back down where you belong, in corner of my bar with your high heels on, sit back down on the couch where we made love the first time then you said to me
Kurt looked directly at Blaine. Blaine didn't even know but he was standing too.
Something, something about this place.
The Warbler's started to sing back up except for David, Wes, Nick, and Jeff, who were staring at Blaine like he had lost his head.
Something 'bout the lonely nights and my lipstick on your face, something, something about my cool Nebraska guy. Yeah something about, baby, you and I.
Blaine left his seat and walked over to Kurt.
It's been two years since you let me go, I couldn't to a joke or rock and roll. Muscle cars, drove a truck right through my heart. On my birthday you sang me a heart of gold, with a guitar humming and no clothes. This time I'm not leaving with out you, Ooh-oh-Ooh-oh
Blaine jumped in
Sit back down where you belong, in the corner of my bar with your high heels on, sit back down on the couch where we made love the first time and you said to me.
Something, something about this place. Something 'bout lonely night and lipstick on your face. Something something about my cool Nebraska guy, yeah something about it baby, you and I.
You and I, you, you and I
You, you and I
You, you and I
You and I, you, you and I
Oh yeah I'd rather die
Without you and I
During the guitar solo, Warblers broke out into dance, some began to play air guitar. Blaine took Kurt by the hands twirling him around, Kurt's frightend eyes didn't leave Blaines.
They danced like it was a chase. Blaine stepping forward while Kurt was stepping back. Blaine grabbed Kurt by the hips and picked him up, spinning him.
We've got a whole lot of money but we still pay rent, because you can't buy a house in Heaven.
There's only three men that I will serve in my whole life, that my daddy, and Nebraska and Jesus Christ.
Something, something about the chase.
Blaine took a breath in.
Six whole years
I'm a New York woman, born to run you down. So have my lipstick all over your face.
Something, something about just knowing when it's right.
So put your drinks up, for Nebraska, for Nebraska, Nebraska, I love you!
Kurt hit the note perfectly.
You and I
You, you and I
Baby, I'd rather die! Without you and I
You and I
You, you and I
Nebraska I'd rather die! Without you and I
The smaller boy stepped out of Blaine's arms with tears running down his cheeks.
It's been a long time, since you came around
It's been along time but I'm back in town
And this time I'm not leaving without you
All of the Warblers bursted out in applaud. They were laughing and buzzing with excitement. Blaine and Kurt didn't move, Kurt began backing up slowly bumping into people. The small brunette turn around and made his way for the door.
"Kurt!" Blaine called out, "Kurt stop!"
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Song used: You and I by Lady Gaga
Italics Kurt, Bold Blaine, Together, Bold and Italics