I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY-MAN! DON'T SUE!

What's wrong with me? Why do I feel like this?

In the hallowed halls of the Black Order, there was only silence to be heard and no faces to be seen. If one chose to take a corridor and make their way to the infirmary they would find a single room inhabited with a young man wrapped in bandages. Upon opening the door the sounds of a heart monitor would be first heard then the first glance of life support systems; feeding tube, intravenous drip, mechanical respiration, urinary catheterization and dialysis. It is clear this man is in a coma and should have died some time ago. The smell of his burnt fresh would startle one's nose then the sight of his broken bones protected in casts would draw said person near. But the one thing that would drive them back would be the half lidded eyes that hold no reflection of light or life, that are as hollow as the halls they came through. This was the apprentice bookman, Lavi of the Black Order.

The events that brought this poor soul is a jumbled story. When a female exorcist known as Lenalee was kidnapped by the Noah clan, half a group of exorcists chase after her and onto the Ark. Lavi was in this group. The events that followed would change the Black Order forever. When Road Camelot put Lavi into a dream world, he became her puppet. Lavi struggled against his past self and illusionary copies of his friends in the dream. Unable to strike them all down, he was defeated and one of his personas from his past took over his body. Though for a moment he regained control and stabbed Road Camelot in the dream world, defeating her, when the fire of the seal from his hammer engulfed him he was trapped in the illusion. A male exorcist named Allen could not save his friend fast enough. And although Allen Walker made his wish through the piano and the Ark to save everyone, Lavi remained mangled and in the dream world. And so here the story begins, at the Black Order where everyone has returned alive but one still sleeps.


Welcome to my first D. Gray-man fic. This is a what if story about Lavi. I hope you enjoy it. If you like it please fav and things becaus ethere will be many chapters. Please comment.