Oh God, I'm too nervous for that. Here I go; Hello to all of you!
This is my first english fanfiction, I've written plenty about Damon and Elena but all of them was in my language. So this is pretty important for me.
And yes, that totally means I'll wait your reviews, driving insane, biting my nails and refreshing the page all over again. So please, let me know what you think.
It's important for me. Thanks to all of you, I really hope that you'd like it.
Disclaimers: I do not own the Vampire Diaries characters -even though I'd love to.- All I own is the story.
"Inspiration"
"Caroline! Can you please pass me the tissue?" said Elena while she was sobbing like crazy as she felt like she's back to her teenager times all over again.
Caroline blinked her eyes with a shock on her face and replied Elena with an insecure voice which sounds a lot like murmuring as she didn't know how her childhood friend will react to this.
"Elena, I'm sorry to mention that but… Did you realize that you're crying over a movie?"
"IT'S NOT A MOVIE CAROLINE!" said Elena with her red-eyes wide open. "It's Gone with the Wind!"
Caroline rolled her eyes, "Yes, it is. And also you can call it the-movie-that-you-have-watched-for-gazillion-times!"
"Yes I did!" said Elena with a proud voice. "And for you to know, after this I'm going to watch Jane Eyre!"
"Oh God, Elena." Said Caroline and she took a deep breath. "I hope you don't have some more torture-like movies on your menu."
"You haven't heard the last one! It is the best! Pride and Prejudice. As you know, no one in the world can do it better than Jane Austen."
Caroline face palmed and sit beside Elena, "I'm sorry, why you are doing this to yourself again?" asked her.
Elena sighed with desperation, "I've already told you, do you enjoy hearing this or something?" she asked even though she knew all Caroline was trying to do is to help her. "I can't write!"
"Then, give it a rest!" said Caroline. "Try to live your life like a novel despite of writing one!"
Elena laughed slightly, "There's no such thing like novels in real world and to be honest I'm too weak to live with the reality. That's why I'm stuck in my imaginary world, yet it's about to leave me and as you see I'm driving mad."
Caroline couldn't help but laugh with Elena's honest confession as she was looking like a five-year-old girl who just dropped her ice cream, "C'mon Elena! You're not driving mad!"
"Yes I do." Elena sniffed. "I'm lack of inspiration right now."
"It's not the end of the world."
"It sort of is."
A silence followed the conversation, about one minute later Caroline's face lightened up with a daring smile on her face, "Elena Marie Gilbert!" she said. "I think I know what your problem is."
Elena raised her eyebrows her she was smiling to Caroline's sudden excitement, "Then, light me up please! Because I don't even know what it is."
"You, my girl!" she giggled. "You're looking for love, a real one. That's why."
Elena laughed like it's the funniest thing she had ever heard in her entire life, "My Goodness Caroline! You're so ridiculous!"
Caroline squinted her eyes with a fake anger towards to Elena, "Right Miss? You're the one who cries over being not able to write and watches movies 'to get some inspiration' and cries over them too, then, I'm the one who is ridiculous. Okay. It made sense a lot."
"You know I didn't mean that." Said Elena with her puppy-dog-eyes even though she knows that Caroline is not really angry.
"Forgiven." Said Caroline with a smirk on her face and Elena continued "It's just… I have no desire to love someone. I mean, there's no one in the world that can make me feel like the way I want to feel when I fall in love. You know better than anyone that how much I hate 'cheesy' guys while the majority of the girls love them. There has to be someone who can fight with me simply. Some sort of dangerous. Someone to make my blood pressure high when I see him, someone who would make me want to punch his face and kiss his lips at the same time. Someone to love and hate at the same time. This is the only way for me to fall for someone." She took a deep breath after this long literary confession and go on.
"It only happens in romantic-comedies, and that's the reason why I write. For me to get closer the man in my dreams. Because he's too awesome to be real." And she laughed to what she's about to say, "And yet, only a woman can create someone deep and complicated like 'him' as whole men are shallow."
It wasn't before she realize along the long speech she has made she got no reaction from Caroline and when she turned her face to her instead of a smile on her face about the joke that she had just made there was a deep admiration in her eyes.
"Caroline?" Elena asked with confusion.
Caroline had to shake her head and chill to talk, "And… You're saying you're lack of inspiration, aren't you?"
"Yes?" Elena said.
"Are you freaking kidding me?" Caroline said with a loud voice. "Here it goes, IT IS YOUR INSPIRATION!"
"What?"
"For God's sake Elena! Write him!"
"Who?"
"The man in your dreams! Write him!"
Elena waited to understand what she said. "You mean… Do I have to write him?"
"Oh, yes Einstein. How smart you are!"
Elena didn't even give a reaction to her joke as she was lost in her thoughts.
"From the Earth to Elena, From the Earth to Elena, Are you there?"
Elena looked inside of Caroline's eyes and shook her head. "How can I write him? How can I describe him with words? And I don't even have a storyline…"
Caroline broke into her sentence, "Elena! You don't need a storyline! Stop doing plans it doesn't have to be a best-seller-book even though I know it can. You just want to write something and write this. It'll help you, wont it?"
Elena smiled with shiny eyes. She knew Caroline was right. She knew that it was exactly what she needs.
"You're a good friend." She said.
Caroline blinked and laughed slightly, "No, babe. Actually, I'm the best."
Elena laughed, "Okay, under this circumstances I can accept that."
"And maybe…" Caroline said with a dreamy voice. "When you start to write, you can run across to him magically. Who knows?"
"It's not a freaking fairytale Caroline." Said Elena while she was laughing at the voice that she made.
Caroline stuck out her tongue out at her like a five year old kid, "Fun-killer!"
Elena took a deep breath before creating a new Word Document on her computer. She didn't know why but the idea of writing 'him' was making her nervous and excited at the same time. Yet, she didn't know what to write. Her head was empty but she was feeling like something would explode the time that she touches the keyboard.
She looked around the dark room, it was 1 am. Caroline was sleeping in her room and the following day she had to go to school and then her job. Last year of the college was too tiring that she was trying to pass the exams and make a radio show on a local broadcast for her internship. But instead of sleeping for being ready for her long and tiring day she was sitting on her bad and looking at a blank document on her computer.
When finally her finger touched the keyboard she made both her imaginary and real story start even back then, she had no clue about it. She just started to writing without even realizing it;
"There he was. With bright blue eyes that makes her to desire of swallowing in them. And with a careless smirk on his face which is enough for every single girl to melt. His spectacular dark hair was encircling his light skin like signal for being dangerous. Dark. It was the word to describe him. Even at one glance it was easy to understand that there was something dark inside of him. Yet, his beauty was fascinating that makes her want to drift into his darkness and never come back. Go in deep and deep, without even questioning, who she was, where she was going."
There it is. Ending of the first chapter. I know it's pretty disappointing that not seeing Damon here. But I had to write this chapter like that for the sake of the storyline. But I can guarantee that you'll see plenty of Damon in the following chapters. -If I can write them of course- to be honest I dont think that I can do it without your reviews. Soo, please let me know what you think that it can 'inspire' me for writing. By the way, if you want to contact to me I'm TVDelena_ on Twitter. God knows maybe you could recognize me. One crazy shipper. See you all in next chapter. I'm waiting for your reviews xx :)